Undone At The Seams

So, it's been...uh.... 5 years since my last post. HA! I was laying in bed one morning last week thinking about how so much has changed and how badly I want to write about it and that I should pop back in here to do that. We'll see if I can make this a regular thing, but don't hold your breath.

SO - real quick - what's new? EVERYTHING, y'all.

I am currently a Private Investigator in North Texas, and I own my own business. It's an incredible experience and I can't believe it took me as long as it did to walk away from my soul-sucking job and get licensed, but I did.

In August of 2019 I was diagnosed with Narcolepsy and since then I've been awake in a way I have never experienced in those previous 39 years. I take medication at night that heavily sedates me so that I don't get as sleepy during the day. And I have CRAZY dreams. One day I'll share all the nutty stuff my brain does.

I'm 41. Yeah. You read that right. And Jack is 19. You read that right, too. I have lived so many lives in the last 41 years and though things are currently a giant struggle, I'm content and at peace in a way that I couldn't be when I was in my 20's and 30's.

Derek and I are happy and married and, not just that, but married for the longest of all the times we've been married (lol). December will be 8 years for us and I go to bed every night grateful that I'm falling asleep next to this beautiful, brilliant, flawed, incredible man. Granted, some of that is my narco medication, LOL, but it still comes from a that super deep place in my heart that has always belonged to him.

I don't do much photography anymore. I've learned to knit, though, and I love it. I have a garden that is still growing despite the insane Texas heat, though if it continues I don't know how long they'll last, we'll see.

(oh, hey guys, I know .... I haven’t written in a while... all that life stuff.... totally gets in the way...)

I’ll tell you what it says:

It says that women aren’t stupid. That we don’t blindly vote for someone because we have the same parts. That we think about issues. That we think about words like “establishment” and “status quo” and “entitlement” and “integrity” and “pandering” and that what someone says they stand for is more than just rhetoric. 

If Hillary Clinton had started out doing and saying and standing for the things that Bernie Sanders has, then I’d vote for her in a heartbeat. But she didn’t.