Mindless Nothings

Please help.

it’s so painful. she’s acting okay other than the stomach symptoms and loss of appetite, but she’s been eating these high calorie kitten supplements i found (she loves them, eats them so fast). otherwise she’s acting normal, her usual snuggling and sleeping and playing with her laser pointer. there was a day she was hiding more and i called the vet and got some pain meds while we wait for a diagnosis and better idea of how to move forward, and the meds have helped.

flit became my cat months after the abuse ended. and then i went to college and was away from her when bad things happened again. but she has never been with me when something bad has happened. she’s my protection, she is the world’s truest emotional support animal. she sits with me while the flashbacks and body memories and panicked racing thoughts build up, she’s groomed tears off of my face, she is there when i wake up from nightmares. she’s kept me going for a long time.

i don’t know how serious what’s going on is. i don’t know what decisions i’ll have to make for her. but i know that i’ve had people who were supposed to take care of me make horrible decisions for me that have caused so much pain and suffering and confusion, just for their benefit. and i will never do that to her. i will make decisions that put her first always, regardless of how painful they are to me. and for now, i will snuggle with her and play lasher tag and give her the treats she likes and just love her as fully as i can. this cat saved my life, and i will do everything in my power to make her life as good as possible.

and bigger than the whole sky came at a really poignant time for me. the people who follow me on my private instagram will likely understand why. the grief i feel that i feel no right to feel, but that i carry and that suffocates me anyways, that i feel so alone with as i celebrate my best friend with some exciting news for her that triggers the waves of grief and overwhelming sadness and loss for me. at this time of year specifically.

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If you feel alright sharing it, why does she have no teeth?

she actually can eat hard food, i guess most cats don’t really chew lol, but she eats it too fast and then gets sick so i give her a wet food that’s meant for senior cats (she will be 14 in december/january ish). i’m currently looking into switching her wet food actually to one that comes in the smaller 3oz cans instead of the bigger 5.5oz because she wants it as fresh as possible but doesn’t like it when it’s cold from putting some in the fridge. i also don’t want to microwave it and have the apartment smell like wet food lol.

we got flit when i was 13 in 2010 and she was probably like almost 1.5 at that point. prior to that she had been kinda an outdoor cat that my friend’s family took care of, and they took her inside when she was pregnant. my friend and her family moved overseas and my family initially was just taking one of her kittens, Miracle (who was my sister’s cat), and then we ended up taking Flit too. so prior to that i don’t think she’d had any veterinary care tbh. and the vet we used i just don’t think ever recommended a dental cleaning and exam! so when she came to school with me in the beginning of 2018 and i got her set up with a new vet, they did a dental and all her teeth other than one were needing to come out due to gum disease and other things, so they ended up taking them all including the one good one since that probably would’ve ended up needing to come out later anyways.

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