So, I've been replaying N's route lately and an epiphany came to me last night when I was playing the end of Book 3.
It's in Book 2 I believe that you can ask Nate if he's ever killed someone while talking to him about how old he is. He frowns for a minute and says, "Not with my own hands, no."
Weird, right? After what we see in the mirror at the carnival, when he says he got turned at sea, it's clear that the image in the mirror was of that time right after he got turned. He's covered in blood, surrounded by bodies while wearing a British Royal Navy uniform.
Originally, since Falk declared N Not Guilty, I assumed that perhaps N had come to terms with the reaction they had to being a newly turned vampire. I thought maybe they'd lost control and slaughtered the men of the ship, or perhaps they'd been attacked and defended themself. A sort of Jekyll + Hyde situation where N doesn't consider their frenzied state to be truly Them.
BOOK 3 SPOILERS AHEAD
And then we get into Book 3, and it's really clear that N has not been to therapy enough to not blame themself if they'd killed that many people. They're overprotective and selfless to the point of self sacrifice for the slightest inconvenience and they blame themself for any little inconvenience that befalls MC. Clearly, they are not well-adjusted enough to separate something that happened in desperation and fear from who they truly are.
This put me on the back foot, trying to figure out what that could mean. If you are dating N, they tell you about their brother, M*lton, who was killed by vampires. They tell you about joining the Navy to seek revenge or to at least find out what happened to their brother. Makes sense.
The moment that made my theory CLICK in my head happens at the end of the book, if you ignore Rebecca's idea and go alone to the auction.
So, you get captured and the auctioneer person tries to sell you off for your blood. Just like the other 3 routes, N will come to rescue you at the auction, and they have a brief spat with someone in the audience who tries to outbid them.
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This moment I originally thought was a pheromone thing. It doesn't seem like just a threat, as Nate seems visibly shaken and weakened by whatever it is he did. Also, the strange way the supernatural responds seems to suggest some kind of influence.
And then it hit me --- "Not with my own hands, no."
N's power is some kind of mind control / suggestion ability.
They never killed anyone with their own hands because they told the pirates / vampires to kill each other or kill themselves.
The theme of control comes up several times in N's route. N prides themself on being very in control of their body and their emotions, keeps their wants hidden and their true feelings locked firmly away beyond anything that is pleasant or kind. It makes me wonder if, aside from being able to influence people on command, if they can accidentally influence people when they get too emotional.
I also think it might require touch to really make the power work. They constantly keep their hands in their pockets and, while this is a normal enough idle motion, the fact that they touched the supernatural here and often put their hands in their pockets / withdraw touch when having a disagreement with someone suggests it might have something to do with it.
The amount of trust that UB must have in N when they have a power like that is enormous. It also sheds new light on the arguments that N and A often get into, as it seems that if N really wanted to, they could get their way every time via this weird power.
It also sheds new light on Rebecca's concern for N and MC. The assumption that MC is immune to this ability is there, but there's always the chance that they aren't, and Rebecca being worried about N forcing MC into doing things via suggestion seems to be very real.
It also makes me wonder if N has ever tested out whether their suggestion works on MC, or if they've thought about it with something small. Makes me wonder if we are entirely immune or if there's going to be some caveat like with M and their pheromones causing MC pain.
EITHER WAY, I feel like I figured it out. I'm losing my mind with the implications of it all.
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The Fernweh Saga: Book One is a 600,000-word interactive, romantic thriller novel by Aelsa Trevelyan. It’s entirely text-based, without graphics or sound effects, and fueled by the vast, unstoppable power of your imagination.
Return to a small town that you now feel a stranger in. It has been years since you were sent away following the tragic house fire that claimed your parents’ lives, but the death of your grandfather has brought you back. While grim circumstances overshadow the visit you never planned on making, there are also opportunities to reminisce, reconnect, and reunite with old childhood friends, rivals, and neighbors. Familiar faces are all around, but will they aid or hinder you as your return trip spirals into a dark mystery and you start experiencing vivid nightmares? Begin to unravel what is going on in this seemingly idyllic, forested town.
A feeling of unease grows with each sleepless night spent within Fernweh’s borders, but you can’t leave yet…
It won’t let you.
Play as male, female, or non-binary–with options to be gay, straight, bi, asexual, or poly.
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Y al final del día, a pesar de todas las nubes grises, quiero creer que el sol saldrá de nuevo, y que todo lo bueno hecho con el corazón traerá su recompensa.
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I found these gifs I made a while back for a site that’s not running anymore, so I thought I’d post them here. It’s a description of psychiatric symptoms and states of mind using a pink box and some other stuff.
Representación de Trastornos y Síndromes Mentales en Ilustraciones.
En octubre del año pasado es cuando los artistas de todo el mundo dan rienda suelta a su imaginación y creatividad por medio de Inktober; se basa en realizar ilustraciones diferentes por cada día del mismo mes de Octubre.
Sin embargo, el artista americano, Shawn Coss eligió un tema algo impactante para muchas personas: representar los trastornos y síndromes mentales por medio de ilustraciones.
DÍA 1 — TRASTORNO LÍMITE DE LA PERSONALIDAD.
DÍA 2 — INSOMNIO.
DÍA 3 — TRASTORNO DE RELACIÓN SOCIAL DESINHIBIDA.
DÍA 4 — TRASTORNO OBSESIVO COMPULSIVO.
DÍA 5 — SÍNDROME DE COTARD.
DÍA 6 — TRASTORNO BIPOLAR.
DÍA 7 — TRASTORNO DE LA PERSONALIDAD POR DEPENDENCIA.
DÍA 8 — TRASTORNO DEPRESIVO MAYOR.
DÍA 9 — TRASTORNO DE ANSIEDAD SOCIAL.
DÍA 10 — ESQUIZOFRENIA.
DÍA 11 — TRASTORNO DE ESTRÉS POST-TRAUMÁTICO.
DÍA 12 — ANOREXIA NERVIOSA.
DÍA 13 — AUTISMO.
DÍA 14 — TRASTORNO POR DESPERSONALIZACIÓN.
DÍA 15 — TRASTORNO DE DISOCIATIVO DE LA PERSONALIDAD.
DÍA 16 — SÍNDROME DE CAPGRAS.
DÍA 17 — AGORAFOBIA.
DÍA 18 — ESQUIZOFRENIA PARANOIDE.
DÍA 19 — TRASTORNO POR DÉFICIT DE ATENCIÓN.
DÍA 20 — ADICCIÓN A SUSTANCIAS.
DÍA 21 — TRICOTILOMANÍA.
DÍA 22 — SÍNDROME DE MÜNCHAUSEN APLICADO A OTRO.
DÍA 23 — TRASTORNO DE PÁNICO.
DÍA 24 — BULIMIA NERVIOSA.
DÍA 25 — TRASTORNO DE LA PERSONALIDAD NARCISISTA.
DÍA 26 — SÍNDROME DE ALICIA EN EL PAÍS DE LAS MARAVILLAS.
DÍA 27 — DESORDEN DE LA IDENTIDAD DE LA INTEGRIDAD CORPORAL.
DÍA 28 — TRASTORNO DE CONDUCTA.
DÍA 29 — MISOFONÍA.
DÍA 30 — DEPRESIÓN POST-PARTO.
DÍA 31 — TRASTORNO DE ANSIEDAD GENERALIZADA.
BONUS — TRASTORNO DE LA PERSONALIDAD POR EVITACIÓN.
