dirt enthusiast
Monterey Bay Aquarium
#extradirty
TVSTRANGERTHINGS
DEAR READER
I'd rather be in outer space 🛸
Mike Driver
let's talk about Bridgerton tea, my ask is open
ellievsbear
PUT YOUR BEARD IN MY MOUTH
🪼
@theartofmadeline
PR's Tumblrdome
2025 on Tumblr: Trends That Defined the Year
taylor price
shark vs the universe
AnasAbdin
Misplaced Lens Cap
Aqua Utopia｜海の底で記憶を紡ぐ
seen from Brazil
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from Italy
seen from United States
seen from Australia
seen from India
seen from Malaysia
seen from United States
seen from Malaysia
seen from Germany
seen from Singapore
seen from Brazil
seen from Türkiye
seen from United States
seen from Indonesia
seen from United Kingdom
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from Azerbaijan
@umbrasystem
~Welcome to the Brothel~
Bodily 28 - currently no collective name - He/Him exclusivly across the system
In a full sys4sys relationship with @multiple-maniaxe 🩵
Lower communication, highly sexual system, most alters having something to do involving sezual trauma or sexual responses. Not many posts are gonna be sex related or nsfw. Will tag any that are. Many fragments.
Switch often between using "I/We/Us/Me" ect - most of us are non-human
Alter list, Stances, and TW below the cut
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
Free to watch • No registration required • HD streaming
I like it when people commit to the bit
Its been such a bad eating day for me :(
The sensory of eating just feels awful and almost exhausting all day, ive had to kinda force myself to eat, and while its stiff I like, couldn't truly enjoy it, because ot was literally just "i need to eat something"
Clawing at you | source
What im learning is tumblr loves a "does this to you" type post
“A Symbolist necklace, by Charles Boutet de Monvel, circa 1900. Composed of gold, silver, opals, glass, rubies, pearls and diamonds. ©The Richard H. Driehaus Museum“ from here.
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
Free to watch • No registration required • HD streaming
Cocsa spaces feel ... idk... not inviting to those who don't have sympathy for their abuser/abusers.
I lived in fear and still do of these people.
I dont have sympathy for the group that gang raped me, multiple times. I dont have sympathy when those same kids moved away and would COME BACK to my subdivision to assault me, for YEARS, into double digits! From being fucking 5! I dont have sympathy for giving me countless UTI's, the fear of running into one of them in my HIGHSCHOOL (whos father is a skin head nazi). No sympathy because every day of my childhood id sit and think about what they were doing to me, what i was participating in, sitting with the idea at young ages that eventually I would have to tell my parents when "i started having sex"..... no sympathy for aiding in how I turned out, a sex object. Who made it EASIER for the adults to abuse me too.
If youve read this far, I have sympathy for some of the kids. I was abused by ALOT, low income subdivisions are like a revolving door. I have sympathy for my cousin, because he wasnt set out on hurting me, I think his dad started setting things up. It wasnt malicious. Im mot scared of him. Hes a good dad. He's a good person.
I spent YEARS AND YEARS, forcing myself to have sympathy, forcing myself into believing i forgave them- and it did NOTHING. It didnt heal me, it didnt help me, forgiving them made me feel more broken. Ive had other victims tell me "thats normal, kids are curious!" When I opened up.
Kids getting another kid to give them a blow job, or eat them out, or participate in penetrative sex, to participate in anal, where the boys REFUSE to do anything to each other because its gay, but will force the girls to do things to each other. Urine drinking. Using objects. None of that is normal child curiosity or development and it FUCKED ME UP. Never mind any of the adults involved. Which there was plenty.
I will not forgive those who have hurt me, or give them sympathy, not even "for myself" - because it doesnt help me and victims shouldnt feel forced to forgive anyone. No matter the circumstances. If you did and it helped you? Great. Dont force others to if they dont wnat to.
One of the perpetrators, the one with the nazi father, who would come back to me for years, who refused to do anything with the other boy(s), because "boys dont do that", was in my highschool. Friends with people I knew. Saw me. Who had every opportunity to speak to me or apologize?
Looked at me with disdain. Was it because I turned out to be a boy? Was an apology not deserved because his abuse and assault made him "gay"?
Out of ANY of them, he had every opportunity to apologize to me, or do ANYTHING to show remorse, and he didnt.
Just looked at me.
I'm broken, i can't be fixed.
dog teeth #119 // do not reblog unless you’re a csa/cocsa survivor
dont reblog if youre not a csa/cocsa/abuse survivor. don’t remove my caption.
I told you no.
♧♧♧♧
Vent abt my own cocsa trauma inspired by @honeybee-scribbles beautiful peices and art.
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
Free to watch • No registration required • HD streaming
Cocsa spaces feel ... idk... not inviting to those who don't have sympathy for their abuser/abusers.
I lived in fear and still do of these people.
I dont have sympathy for the group that gang raped me, multiple times. I dont have sympathy when those same kids moved away and would COME BACK to my subdivision to assault me, for YEARS, into double digits! From being fucking 5! I dont have sympathy for giving me countless UTI's, the fear of running into one of them in my HIGHSCHOOL (whos father is a skin head nazi). No sympathy because every day of my childhood id sit and think about what they were doing to me, what i was participating in, sitting with the idea at young ages that eventually I would have to tell my parents when "i started having sex"..... no sympathy for aiding in how I turned out, a sex object. Who made it EASIER for the adults to abuse me too.
If youve read this far, I have sympathy for some of the kids. I was abused by ALOT, low income subdivisions are like a revolving door. I have sympathy for my cousin, because he wasnt set out on hurting me, I think his dad started setting things up. It wasnt malicious. Im mot scared of him. Hes a good dad. He's a good person.
I spent YEARS AND YEARS, forcing myself to have sympathy, forcing myself into believing i forgave them- and it did NOTHING. It didnt heal me, it didnt help me, forgiving them made me feel more broken. Ive had other victims tell me "thats normal, kids are curious!" When I opened up.
Kids getting another kid to give them a blow job, or eat them out, or participate in penetrative sex, to participate in anal, where the boys REFUSE to do anything to each other because its gay, but will force the girls to do things to each other. Urine drinking. Using objects. None of that is normal child curiosity or development and it FUCKED ME UP. Never mind any of the adults involved. Which there was plenty.
I will not forgive those who have hurt me, or give them sympathy, not even "for myself" - because it doesnt help me and victims shouldnt feel forced to forgive anyone. No matter the circumstances. If you did and it helped you? Great. Dont force others to if they dont wnat to.
ghosts
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
Free to watch • No registration required • HD streaming
The Ghoul of IC 2118
Credits: Casey Good/Steve Timmons
