MANNA

Hello anon, thank you for the kind words. Yes, I emptied my toyhouse a couple days ago (I was admittedly too lazy to go through the whole process of deleting an account). This was due to a multitude of reasons. Mainly the fact that I want to pull back from my whole online presence a little and no longer want to share my oc's so openly, or in that manner.

for a visual novel im working on with my boyfriend

hug

just a small vent thing to get it out of my system

I think that might fit the definition of parasocial, anon. We aren't friends, and never will be. And thats okay, you'll find much better friends than me, I'm a pretty unremarkable lady. I'm sorry if its mean of me to say, but recently theres been an upsurge of similar anons and it has been making me a bit uncomfortable, so I felt like I had to say something. I'm not interested in making new friends. Thank you for the support, though.

Thank you, I'm doing alright-ish. And of course.

Sure anon, make her really strange and unnerving.

Thank you, yes! I've been doing better. I fell in love with a person, so I've been wanting to draw happy things to encapsulate these feelings, hehe...

Thank you! I have plenty. I'd say pretty much everything I get attached to inspires me, I can think of a lot of videogames since thats my preferred form of media. First that come to mind are the McGee's Alice games, Yume Nikki (and various fangames. Yuque, Yume Tsushin, .Flow and Ultra Violet are some of my favourites), Silent Hill (mostly 1-4), Touhou, Final Fantasy, Dot Hack, Sengoku Turb, LSD dream emulator... I could probably think of even more.

i keep forgetting the smell of the warm summer air

Thank you anon, you made my day. I'll take this as an opportunity to write a little blog post of what I've been up to, hope you don't mind. I've been in quite the downwards spiral recently, thus the slower than usual output of art. Sometimes when I get into "episodes" like this, I feel like such a husk I can't even do vent art, because I have no feelings to put in it. Since a lot of my art in general is carried by those feelings, I feel like I don't have much else to offer and I end up just not drawing anything. Instead, I've been playing videogames and watching movies. My friend who is a film enthusiast has been showing me all kinds of stuff since I haven't seen many movies at all. Out of the ones we've watched so far, I liked Jacob's Ladder and Fight Club the most. And Twilight... but as a comedy rather than how it was intended to be viewed. We're currently going through all the Saw movies (this was my idea) which are also unintentionally funny. At least in my opinion. As for games, I've really enjoyed Clair Obscur: Expedition 33. Like, really enjoyed. I'm considering getting 100% of the achievements. I'm still in act 2, because I keep getting stuck in areas just looking around and listening to the music. I also started on this social rehabilitation program recently to help with my agoraphobia. So far it's been really difficult, but I'm pushing through. Just trying to take it one day at a time. Thats kind of it! Hopefully I'll get back of the swing of things sooner than later. I miss drawing more frequently, but it's better to not force it. It's almost winter huh? It should start snowing soon here in Finland. I'm looking forward to it.