Snake? more like snack

Will post more art dumps here soon

on a hapy note i have a frog and toad panel as a shirt and i love it somuch,,, yay..

its not that I need a romantic relationship it's just that i need a relationship to which the depths of are only sociatelly accepted if ur in a relationshp yk?? i need to rely emotionally on someone's presence & need them to need to be around me too so it's double sided. so that we both need eachother. i need my first priority to also put me first. i need someone who also solely relies on spending time with me for their emotional welfare & i need to feel the same so neither of us is overbearing to the other

sometimes when I feel like making bad decisions I like to go on the unsent project and pretend all the messages there under my names are for me and delude myself abt stuff that happened

lowk i really really wish i spent my adolescent years in a community that didn't despise & ostracize me

also my grandffather's dead and im not going to his funeral. not entirely sure if it's the right choice & i feel kind of guilty but. it's only been two weeks its too soon. i dont want to start thinking of him as a dead man in my mind just yet.

sometimes i'm really struck by how everyone in my age group has lived more than me. even the other ppl like me. i know its because i'm not meant for relationships but it still feels kind of lonely yk? i wish i got the practice growing up or whatever

lowk wish i was someone's favorite person like mental illness style. please please please pick me i need to be codependent on someone who is actually dependent on me