ex-boyfriend ajax x reader
(Ĺsfw; fem!reader, cussing, slight?angst, ex!childe, finger-fucking, semi-public sex, unprotected sex, makeup sex, gagging, intoxication)
authors note: my second post ever !!! hope you guys enjoy hehhh, nothing is canon nor relates to the actual lore, just something for fun!Â
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âAnd what? Is that it? Youâre just gonna keep me second in your life every goddamn time?! Iâll never be your first option?âÂ
âOh come on! You knew itâd be this way when you met me. Fuck- I enjoy you, alright? Itâs justâŚâ
âJust?? Just fucking what, Ajax?â
âWell- YâknowâŚ.. My loyalty to my duties⌠It comes first. IâŚâŚ. I-I canât keep having my feelings for you get in the way of things.âÂ
âRightâŚâŚ. Right.âÂ
That was pretty much it. Thatâs how you and your first ex-boyfriend ended things. Itâs all pretty much blown over now, after all, itâs been a year or so? Youâre so over it. Onto bigger adventures, bigger side quests and better men. Not sulking about some stupid wannabe solider who canât even put you first.Â
All the red flags were laid out for you, he warned you from the damn start. Something in you just wanted to believe that in some way or somehow, youâd be an exception.
That youâd mean everything to him.Â
Yet it ended so embarrassingly one-sided.Â
âPlease Iâm over it. Whatâs the worst that could happen tonight? Iâll just ignore him the entire time.â You complained into your phone that was pinched between shoulder to ear.
âYeah⌠because I totally believe that.â You could practically hear Xiaoâs eye roll on the other end. Â
âLook I know itâs your first time seeing him again since the whole breakup but just try not to cause too much trouble? Itâs Ningguangâs party, letâs keep it classy.â He huffs pinching his nose bridge.Â
âOkay youâre right. I donât care that much- itâs just- ugh. Fuck him.âÂ
You arrive to Ningguangâs opening party for the brand new chamber. In your favourite dress and looking feastable. As soon as you enter, just some friendly greetings with familiar faces and the hostess herself of course.Â
âThere you are.â You turn your head at the familiar voice and see Xiao making his way towards you.Â
âBrought you a glass of your favourite cocktail from the bar. Extra shot.â He bluntly hands you the glass.Â
âWow thanks you didnât need to I was just on my way over-âÂ
âOh I brought it because I know youâll need it. 3 oâclock.â He subtly points.Â
Slowly. You turned your head then caught a glance.Â
And some random girl with her hands all over him while they laugh.
Your head whips back to face Xiao, you couldâve sworn you heard your neck crack. You toss your head right back the drink following with you, leaving that burning sensation straight down your throat.Â
âI need another one.â You choke out, wiping your lip.Â
Xiao puts a hand on your shoulder, closing his eyes and you notice a slight smirk across his lips. âThisâŚ. Is all you now. *pat. pat.* You⌠Are on your own.â He exits back into the party crowd.Â
âWhat?! Oh you are so fake-â You bite back but no real anger behind it. Just all the more excuse to abuse that open bar.Â
You stay by the bar counter tossing back a couple more glasses, before finally feeling⌠goodâŚ? Yeah. Good enough.Â
One last drop, head tilted back, bottoms up and swallow.
âJeez you still drinking that girly stuff huh?âÂ
The sound of another empty glass hitting the surface next to you, accompanied by a familiar voice.Â
Your heart drops to your stomach and suddenly the biggest lump just formed in your throat.Â
You tilt your head back down, glass hitting the counter. Your eyes met with those same blue eyes you swore you could drown in.Â
âWhy are you speaking to me?â Your voice coming out more drunken than you expected, youâre not gonna play nice or casual, not right now.Â
âDonât be like that. Iâm just⌠checking up on you.â Gosh he hasnât changed, fuck maybe heâs gotten even hotter, you could see the outline of his biceps through his red long-sleeve, how tight his white vest was to his toned chest and abs. Even down to his cologne, it was all too familiar.Â
âHow considerate I must be up somewhere on the ranking to be worth checking up on.â You reaped of sarcasm.Â
âGo entertain a woman whoâs actually interested. You clearly have many options.â Your hand tightens around your empty glass before letting go and deciding to just walk off. Nope. Not dealing with his shit tonight.Â
You stomped through an empty hallway, trying to find somewhere- anywhere to calm down. You fanned yourself to prevent the tears from falling, alcohol in the system has all the old feelings and thoughts that lingered running, your heels echoing with every step.Â
âI couldnât care less. I am not the same woman. I am not weak- YELPâ Your blabber to yourself was suddenly muffled when a gloved hand slams over your mouth, another gripping your wrist, and both pulling you into a dark closet.Â
The door shuts and the lock clicks.Â
You try to push the hand off your muffled sounds of panic before a light turns on, and Childe was in front of you clear as day.Â
âIâm gonna move my hand. Just please- please. Donât scream and⌠Hear me out.â His expression soft and genuine, you almost actually wanted to believe it, believe him.Â
He slowly lets his hand down and before you could make a smart remark you bit your tongue and just shut your mouth.Â
âFine.â You said softly in attempt to keep the volume down, finally giving him a chance.Â
âLook I know how bad I fucked up with you alright? You donât need to go acting all cold to rub it in my face some more.â He admits as he scratches the back of his neck. Â
âYou donât have the right to speak to me and act like nothing happened-âÂ
âLet me get there.â His gruff voice cuts you off.Â
âIâm not asking for you back, I know weâre way past all that shit. I just owe you an apology and some closure.â Now youâre listening.Â
âI was a complete idiot. I let temporary priorities get in the way. My pride, my ego, my needs and my selfish ways⌠It all caused a good, and strong woman like you to walk out my life.âÂ
âYou did not just quote a Bruno Mars song on me and thought it would work.â You began rubbing your temples but let out the smallest laugh.Â
âHey at least it did work. I knew I could hear that laugh of yours again.â Oh he needs to shut up.Â
âBut seriously. I was a damn idiot and I couldnât be anymore sorry. I mean it. I mean it all. I miss you.â His hand slips to your shoulders now, gripping tightly as if heâs pleading.Â
âYouâre drunk and you were with another girl earlier, so save it-âÂ
âOh please I brushed her off right after. There is no one in all of Teyvat that could touch me how you did.â Heâs leaned in much closer now, his well-toned body just barely brushing against your own, his breath hot against your ear.Â
He drags his tongue up your neck to the back of your ear, sending shivers down your spine. âPlease. Just let me show you how much I missed you.â
Fuck. Your mind was at war with either pushing him off and slapping him across his face like he deserves or dropping your self respect⌠and your clothes.Â
Okay he deserved that. His hand reaches up and ghosts over the red stinging sensation that now covered his cheek, his hair disheveled, and all he could do is smirk.Â
âWhat? Did you think Iâd forgive you just like that? Gosh I still hate you.âÂ
âHate me through it then.â A gloved hand slips underneath your dress, caressing your thigh. âGo on. Tell me how much you hate me and how I hurt you.âÂ
âYou were my first everything.âÂ
âI know.â His hand doesnât stop, his face inches just slightly closer.Â
âI just wanted to be your first option for once- or at least feel like I was one at all.âÂ
âI know.â His free hand holding your face now, his fabric covered thumb gently rubbing small circles against your warm cheek.Â
Before you could let out any real words his thumb swipes over your bottom lip as he looks down at it hungrily.Â
His lips crash against yours. Softly, gently, passionately, and so damn familiar. It takes a moment to adjust but you eventually give in and kiss him back. It starts off extremely slow, as if you were just relearning eachothers lips again. His hand stays cupping your cheek, with the other holding your thigh, which he lifts to wrap around his hip.Â
You could feel how hard he is through his slacks as heâs pressed up against you. Finally easing into him some more, temporarily subsiding your emotions, a hand tangles into his hair, another dragging up his grown arm muscles. It was like a map you once had memorized back in your arms.
As your kisses turned sloppier, he finally pulls back, out of breath, both your lips swollen. Youâre both panting, foreheads touching.Â
âThis doesnât mean Iâm gonna let it all go-â
He releases the hand that has been cupping your face and bites the tip of his glove that surrounds his index finger, slipping his hand out. That pale, slender-fingered hand. Man it was sexy. He grabbed his glove being held by his teeth and shoved it in your mouth.Â
âBite down when youâre struggling.â He whispered in your ear before placing a hot open-mouthed kiss on your neck.Â
Without warning, heâs moved your panties to the side and stuck two fingers deep inside you with his now exposed hand. Theyâre cold at first just like you remember. You gasp and bite down onto the fabric, as he begins thrusting his fingers in your already soaked cunt.Â
âSo wet for me already.â He smirks, satisfied knowing he can still get you like this with minimal effort. He uses his thumb to draw circles around your clit while the other two are at work. It only brings you more pleasure, causing you to tilt your head back against the door. Fuck heâs already bringing you close.Â
âMm thereâs your first orgasm.â He hums into your ear. âDonât be shy and cum on my fingers. Theyâve missed you. Iâll give you your reward and a second one right after, so please release for me.â He pleadsand you whine and whimper against the fabric still in your mouth, your back arching as you twitch.Â
After youâve come undone on his fingers he delivers a final pump and pulls out, covered in your juices, he licks them clean. You drop the fabric from your mouth, panting, trying to collect yourself and catch your breath. Of course you gave in. How could you not?Â
âFuck you Ajaxâ The name he only let you call him slipped out your mouth before you knew it, right as you were undoing his buttons and unbuckling his belt almost desperately.Â
He chuckles softly, helping you undress him. âOh please fuck me.â He whines.Â
âYouâre crazy.â As you peeled his boxers back to reach for his throbbing hard cock.Â
âI know.â He smirked as he picked you up to lay your back down on top some storage boxes behind him. He throws your legs over his shoulders once youâre laid down, lining himself up with your entrance. You could see every vein bulging out and the pre cum leaking from his tip.Â
âI just missed you so damn much.â He breaths out as he thrusts forward, burying himself deep inside you, nudging at your cervix.Â
Your back arches and you let out a loud gasp and moan, heâs moving slowly but gosh itâs like youâre feeling him inside you for the first time all over again with how it hurts so damn good.Â
One arm holds your legs up against his body, the other switching between fondling your breasts and drawing circles on your clit along with his hips thrusting into you at a steady rhythm. Heâs hitting all the right spots over and over again, fuck he remembers your body all too well.Â
Your back is arched up and head tilted back as you try to grip onto the storage boxes you lay on for any type of support right now, that second orgasm coming in strong and fast. The closet is filled with both of your moans, skip slapping, sloshing and heavy breathing.Â
âYou feel just as good as I remembered.â He pants between his now sloppy thrusts.Â
âYou fuck as good as I remember.â You let out roughly, ugh you hated that you were easing into him. âA-Ajax I-IâmâŚâ You whimpered out.Â
âI know baby. I know. Me too.â He responds grunting.Â
He collapses on top of you after youâve both finished. He presses a soft kiss to your forehead.Â
âI DIDNâT THINK WHEN I LEFT YOU ALONE AND YOU SAID âFUCK HIMâ YOUâD LITERALLY GO AND FUCK. HIM.â Xiaoâs voice shouts through your phone the next morning.Â