Queer Satanic Eco-Left Anarchist

getting an evil spirit put inside you without your knowledge or consent is basically a classic childhood experience

"misandry is real it's just not institutional/systemic" is such a funny statement to me. like misogyny is a systemic force of patriarchy. it's a described Thing, and you can point at obvious evidence such as wage gaps, history & law, rape/sexual assault statistics and a whole lot of other stuff. misandry is when women are mean to me on the internet

if it is not a systemic force you can point at examples for then it functionally does not exist for the sake of feminist discourse. you have named a thing that isn't a problem and doesn't need us to take action

Like I was trying so hard to climb out of this spiral over the last couple days and now Im just right back in that dark place. Because I got proven right. On the fucking vent post about how people only see racialized transfems as useful when we're doing emotional labor for whites? Are you SERIOUS. Like I want to scream and tear my own hair out. You talk a big game about how men constantly hijack women's posts and then you do the same fucking thing to racialized transfems making their posts about white people? fuck you. Will you ever see racialized girls as people who feel pain just like you?? Will you ever see our pain as something to be cared about rather than something to exploit??

How am I supposed to stop being angry when everything is constant torment for us all the time.

no no i promise THIS time the trans woman was gross and icky and deserved to be terminated for all that gross and icky stuff she did. i know staff is sometimes transmisogynistic and sometimes they ban trans women for no reason but i promise this time it was a real ban and they did it for a real reason. *rinse and repeat for every trans woman that gets banned*

Something neuroscience-y that helps with prose: attention is selective. A character will not notice everything in a room. They will notice what matters to their goal, fear, desire, training, wound, or obsession. A jealous character notices hands. a hungry character notices food. A soldier notices exits. A lonely character notices pairs. Description becomes character when attention has a bias.

fuck im 3 pages into this book and im hit with the line "The dirty little secret about growing up as a boy is if you're not any good at it, they will torture you daily until you have the good graces to kill yourself"

How can you say that and not say what book it is??

Dreadnought by April Daniels.

sometimes to escape a relationship you have to chew off a part of yourself. or you can chew off a part of the other person but then you have to carry it with you forever.

no yeah thanks for welcoming me to womanhood again but like yeah this man is in fact currently following me home can we maybe address that aspect

no yeah like I totally see how that was traumatizing and why you would feel threatened by the sight of someone like me in the same bathroom as you. um but can I please get to the sink so I can wash my hands

no right it does sound especially bad for you in ways I could never understand. I will say though I'm not sure if I agree that revealing to the man sexually harassing me that I'm trans would have made me safer actually

no you don't have to call the cops you're right I'll just use the men's. no yeah I should have just listened to you when you said men will just harass women if they share a bathroom. no yeah I'll hold up a sign saying I'm trans so they know not to hurt me

no yeah it sounds devastating not to be able to get pregnant. no you're right I'll never be able to understand what you're going through

no you're right, I should just dress masculine so men don't harass me, it's my fault for dressing this way

no sorry yeah spaghetti straps probably are too much. no sorry I didn't think about the possibility there could be children

no you're right sorry I should have told you I was trans right away. no yeah it does sound really scary and upsetting to find out about my genitalia you're right

no yeah I'm sorry for trying to trick you. um but I really did just wear this makeup look because I thought it would look cute, that's all

no like this isn't a performance sorry I just threw this dress on to run to the pharmacy. uh but thanks for saying I'm slaying boots the house down becky. drag race? no I haven't seen it

no right sorry I didn't realize there was a gender neutral bathroom available. you're right sorry I should be hiding my presence

no sorry yeah I'm being irrational, he probably was just trying to be nice. I'll stay quiet next time

no sorry like I was actually thinking I'd just keep my shorts on in bed till surgery. no yeah I'm aware there's risks. no sorry I already know I don't want to, I don't need to try it "just once." um are you interested in other parts of my body or...?

no yeah thanks for letting me know I'm trying too hard with this skirt. I just thought it was cute is all sorry

cuz it got wiped from the internet: transfems it's so cute to want to be cute. do what you think makes you cute, it's ok if you feel awkward that's cute too. you can be yourself, even if you don't think that's very cute, you will still be the worlds cutest girl. i love you

dudes will call you a doomer for believing transmisogyny is real then turn around and say "no-one on earth believes any trans person is the gender we say we are, ever. :]"

i do think what gets ignored about carrie as a character is that she’s an incredibly easy target to bully; she’s a chubby, sheltered acne ridden teenage girl who wears frumpy grandma clothes and regurgitates the jesus freak shit her violently abusive mother tells her. she has violent thoughts about her classmates and is uncomfortable to be around. she’s far more interesting being a victim that’s somewhat uncomfortable to be in the head of than a tragic waif. she’s not a martyr, she’s a child and a child who’s been victimised her whole life shouldn’t have to be kind and angelic to be recognised as a victim. suffering teenage girls shouldn’t just be presented on screen as toned down glamorous thin ophelias, suffering teenage girls can be fat and poor and think violently. i do think we need to examine why culturally we need teenage girls to be beautiful and kind to valorise their suffering and treat it as bad