Isn't she lovely... (on break)

Transfem jax drawing i did for @trypophobicrabbit

"heya bunny! I knew your usually up late so i thought id ask- you wanna play dress up with me? Ive got some clothes for you to try! Nothing too girly,i promise."

They refuse to explain why they were holding makeup, despite not wearing any.

[ @zero-binary-0tadc . Set whenever you want idc. Just know that zero has clocked that this rabbit is trans. ]

"Hey, adults can play too! Everyone has to have fun once in a while. "

Zero grabs jax's hand and drags him out of his room and closes his door for him, and then drags him to their room. Its surprisingly organized compared to how it is usually.

"say, do you have a favorite color? We could work that into your outfit if you'd like. Oh, and try this on! I had caine make that for you. Forgot about it though."

"Uh I don't really have a favourite colour.." *he pauses.* "I suppose pink? Like a hot pink? Magenta maybe..?" *he knew his way around keys, not colours.*

"you look nice. "

Zero looks around for some other things for him to try. They turn around at some point and put a star shaped clip around one of his ears , and then turn back around looking for more accessories.

"i mostly wear cozy stuff,like sweaters and hoodies, but I've been try-[LOW TAPER FADE] trying to expand to some more styles lately. After all, we have all the time in the world to figure things out here, y'know? Worst thing that'll happen is we look stupid. And i look stupid all the time, so-"

Zero pulls out a jacket with pink and blue gradient, clouds going down its sleeves. They hold it against themselves, considering putting it on. They were playing dress up,after all.

They throw the jacket on and do a little spin, as if to show off. They then grab the eyeliner from before and go over to jax.they seem to pause for a second, inspecting his face.

" just so you know- if at any point you want me to stop,just like, grab me or something. I know people get all close to you makes you kind of jumpy. "

They put one of their hands on his cheek, steadying his face in their hands.

"just close your eyes and try to relax. If you can. If not, i can stop. No worries,ok?"

"you're not too bad yourself, when you're not pushing everyone away that is. "

They say it quietly, since they're already so close together. Their hand pets his cheek absentmindedly as they work away.

" i don't know what drives you to be the way you are, so i don't have a place in saying whether it's right or wrong. But i think you'd do well with a few friends by your side, y'know? Humans are social. We're meant to stick together whether we like that or not. "

They pause. Their hand moves to fix some stray lines. Jax can almost feel their breath against his face from the close proximity.

Then, they move.

"All done. "

"We should do this more often. You're very pretty!"

They pause, thinking

"... Or,uh.... Would you prefer handsome? Being the pinnacle of masculinity and all? "

Despite their own suspicion,they weren't exactly sure what jax thought of himself (herself?). To be honest,their own grasp on their identity was pretty loose.

"id offer to let you do my makeup, but i don't really have anything that works on my face....i guess you could braid my hair or something. Hehe, maybe we could paint eachothers nails? "

They pull out a couple colors of sharpies, a grin on their face. They sit on their bed and pat the spot next to them, as if saying 'sit down'

"you don't have to play nice or anything. I'm pretty used to being punched down, y'know? Literally and metaphorically. I can handle your ....less flattering traits. "

Zero gently grabs jax's hand , coloring her fingers with black and pink sharpies. (Alternating the colors with each finger)

"i guess that's why i got so attached to Caine. He didn't want to fix me or hide me away - he just wanted to make sure i was happy. If anything he was.... interested? In me? Which was....well,it certainly felt odd. But all new things do."

They still wondered sometimes if they were crazy for falling in love with the circus so fast. Especially considering how much it seemed to drive everyone else around them mad. It was just....so nice. To not be on edge for once.

" its kind of weird. Back home, i didn't feel like i had anything to keep going for. Other than my family, but they were growing tired of me too. So when i came here and everyone seemed to just.... fight to keep going,it was kind of strange. Even stranger having people fight for me to keep going. "

They let out a sigh, as if they were holding their breath and didn't notice

"having friends is weird,aint it?"

"And home? I understand.. everything is.. well.. Just.. better here.." *She pauses.* "You fit in here quite well if you ask me.. People here.. We aren't meant to give up.. we've.. no.. most of us all have proven that.."

They've always been a bit of an outcast. Calling them an alien among humans might not even be that far off. Maybe thats what drew Caine to them.

Still,it was kind of strange how easy things felt. Maybe the digital world just made it easier for them.

"you've never really shared about your home life. Can't imagine it's anything good, considering your general additude. "

They switch to her other hand , doing the same thing as she did for the first

"i think i make everything sound worse than it was. My parents were good people doing their best with what information they had. It just wasn't enough. And...i don't really have an excuse for my brother. "

Their body glitches slightly. They have to rub off some marker off her fingers that smudged.

"i guess he just didn't like me. I was just....too much."

They sound a bit sad. Still,they have a relatively neutral look to them.

"thanks. "

They let go of jaxs hand's, closing the sharpie.

"i smudged them a little,but it adds character i think. I used to color my nails black all the time back in high school. Although,that probably wasn't very good for me. I bit my nails a lot. "

Its very clear when they put their hands out to be painted that they still do bite their hands. Just instead of poorly bitten nails ,its more cartoonishly big chomp marks all over their visible hands. They do not seem to notice how bad it actually is.

"i dunno. After developing all my disorders and shit i just got used to people telling me i was too much. Even if they didn't really mean it, when you hear something over and over you just start believing it. Even if it isn't true. "

They sigh

".... enough of that. Stupid gossip time. Did you know pomni is bald under her hat"

" apparently caine only recently updated her model to have hair. Before,it was just hat! "

Once again,the two become close, their faces next to eachother as jax colors zeros nails.

"mmm....i know girls usually talk about crushes during hangouts, but I've never been good at that stuff. Ugh, i still get kind of embarrassed thinking about when zooble and gangle accidentally spread the rumor around that i was into Caine. "

Girls. A girls hangout. Was that what this was? Zero never really specified other than saying they were "playing dress up".

Zero smiles when jax laughs. Even if it was kind of at their own expense,they were glad to be the clown if it made her happy.

"i don't understand why everyone is so insane about it. Don't even get me started on romance movies either. "

"I'll tell you something, The weirdest interaction I've had here, probably is when new people spawn, odd isnt it.. most of the others like it, new person more fun, yayadada, this also applies to when i first came here yayadada, You get it, but however, your not exactly.. the person I saw and had those thoughts about, you seemed cool since the day I saw you. Even if I did push you away just like everyone else.."

Zero grabs the sides of jaxs face , gently petter her cheeks with a smile on their face.

"heya bunny! I knew your usually up late so i thought id ask- you wanna play dress up with me? Ive got some clothes for you to try! Nothing too girly,i promise."

They refuse to explain why they were holding makeup, despite not wearing any.

[ @zero-binary-0tadc . Set whenever you want idc. Just know that zero has clocked that this rabbit is trans. ]

"Hey, adults can play too! Everyone has to have fun once in a while. "

Zero grabs jax's hand and drags him out of his room and closes his door for him, and then drags him to their room. Its surprisingly organized compared to how it is usually.

"say, do you have a favorite color? We could work that into your outfit if you'd like. Oh, and try this on! I had caine make that for you. Forgot about it though."

"Uh I don't really have a favourite colour.." *he pauses.* "I suppose pink? Like a hot pink? Magenta maybe..?" *he knew his way around keys, not colours.*

"you look nice. "

Zero looks around for some other things for him to try. They turn around at some point and put a star shaped clip around one of his ears , and then turn back around looking for more accessories.

"i mostly wear cozy stuff,like sweaters and hoodies, but I've been try-[LOW TAPER FADE] trying to expand to some more styles lately. After all, we have all the time in the world to figure things out here, y'know? Worst thing that'll happen is we look stupid. And i look stupid all the time, so-"

Zero pulls out a jacket with pink and blue gradient, clouds going down its sleeves. They hold it against themselves, considering putting it on. They were playing dress up,after all.

They throw the jacket on and do a little spin, as if to show off. They then grab the eyeliner from before and go over to jax.they seem to pause for a second, inspecting his face.

" just so you know- if at any point you want me to stop,just like, grab me or something. I know people get all close to you makes you kind of jumpy. "

They put one of their hands on his cheek, steadying his face in their hands.

"just close your eyes and try to relax. If you can. If not, i can stop. No worries,ok?"

"you're not too bad yourself, when you're not pushing everyone away that is. "

They say it quietly, since they're already so close together. Their hand pets his cheek absentmindedly as they work away.

" i don't know what drives you to be the way you are, so i don't have a place in saying whether it's right or wrong. But i think you'd do well with a few friends by your side, y'know? Humans are social. We're meant to stick together whether we like that or not. "

They pause. Their hand moves to fix some stray lines. Jax can almost feel their breath against his face from the close proximity.

Then, they move.

"All done. "

"We should do this more often. You're very pretty!"

They pause, thinking

"... Or,uh.... Would you prefer handsome? Being the pinnacle of masculinity and all? "

Despite their own suspicion,they weren't exactly sure what jax thought of himself (herself?). To be honest,their own grasp on their identity was pretty loose.

"id offer to let you do my makeup, but i don't really have anything that works on my face....i guess you could braid my hair or something. Hehe, maybe we could paint eachothers nails? "

They pull out a couple colors of sharpies, a grin on their face. They sit on their bed and pat the spot next to them, as if saying 'sit down'

"you don't have to play nice or anything. I'm pretty used to being punched down, y'know? Literally and metaphorically. I can handle your ....less flattering traits. "

Zero gently grabs jax's hand , coloring her fingers with black and pink sharpies. (Alternating the colors with each finger)

"i guess that's why i got so attached to Caine. He didn't want to fix me or hide me away - he just wanted to make sure i was happy. If anything he was.... interested? In me? Which was....well,it certainly felt odd. But all new things do."

They still wondered sometimes if they were crazy for falling in love with the circus so fast. Especially considering how much it seemed to drive everyone else around them mad. It was just....so nice. To not be on edge for once.

" its kind of weird. Back home, i didn't feel like i had anything to keep going for. Other than my family, but they were growing tired of me too. So when i came here and everyone seemed to just.... fight to keep going,it was kind of strange. Even stranger having people fight for me to keep going. "

They let out a sigh, as if they were holding their breath and didn't notice

"having friends is weird,aint it?"

"And home? I understand.. everything is.. well.. Just.. better here.." *She pauses.* "You fit in here quite well if you ask me.. People here.. We aren't meant to give up.. we've.. no.. most of us all have proven that.."

They've always been a bit of an outcast. Calling them an alien among humans might not even be that far off. Maybe thats what drew Caine to them.

Still,it was kind of strange how easy things felt. Maybe the digital world just made it easier for them.

"you've never really shared about your home life. Can't imagine it's anything good, considering your general additude. "

They switch to her other hand , doing the same thing as she did for the first

"i think i make everything sound worse than it was. My parents were good people doing their best with what information they had. It just wasn't enough. And...i don't really have an excuse for my brother. "

Their body glitches slightly. They have to rub off some marker off her fingers that smudged.

"i guess he just didn't like me. I was just....too much."

They sound a bit sad. Still,they have a relatively neutral look to them.

"thanks. "

They let go of jaxs hand's, closing the sharpie.

"i smudged them a little,but it adds character i think. I used to color my nails black all the time back in high school. Although,that probably wasn't very good for me. I bit my nails a lot. "

Its very clear when they put their hands out to be painted that they still do bite their hands. Just instead of poorly bitten nails ,its more cartoonishly big chomp marks all over their visible hands. They do not seem to notice how bad it actually is.

"i dunno. After developing all my disorders and shit i just got used to people telling me i was too much. Even if they didn't really mean it, when you hear something over and over you just start believing it. Even if it isn't true. "

They sigh

".... enough of that. Stupid gossip time. Did you know pomni is bald under her hat"

" apparently caine only recently updated her model to have hair. Before,it was just hat! "

Once again,the two become close, their faces next to eachother as jax colors zeros nails.

"mmm....i know girls usually talk about crushes during hangouts, but I've never been good at that stuff. Ugh, i still get kind of embarrassed thinking about when zooble and gangle accidentally spread the rumor around that i was into Caine. "

Girls. A girls hangout. Was that what this was? Zero never really specified other than saying they were "playing dress up".

Zero smiles when jax laughs. Even if it was kind of at their own expense,they were glad to be the clown if it made her happy.

"i don't understand why everyone is so insane about it. Don't even get me started on romance movies either. "

"I'll tell you something, The weirdest interaction I've had here, probably is when new people spawn, odd isnt it.. most of the others like it, new person more fun, yayadada, this also applies to when i first came here yayadada, You get it, but however, your not exactly.. the person I saw and had those thoughts about, you seemed cool since the day I saw you. Even if I did push you away just like everyone else.."