sometimes things just hurt

YOU DON'T KNOW ME. independent & highly selective ᴀʙʙʏ ᴀɴᴅᴇʀsᴏɴ of the last of us franchise. by zanza. ( mature themes / 21+ )

MEET  THE  AUTHOR  !    acclaimed  author  carol  sturka  will  be  launching  yet  another  book  tour  to  promote  her  latest  wycaro  novel.   to  find  a  participating  store  near  you,   visit  http://caro1sturka.tumblr.com  sponsored  by  zanza, 21+ only, mature themes will be present.

– 𝐭𝐫𝐲   𝐭𝐨   𝐡𝐨𝐥𝐝   𝐢𝐭   𝐢𝐧,   𝐛𝐮𝐭   𝐢𝐭   𝐤𝐞𝐞𝐩𝐬   𝐛𝐥𝐞𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠   𝐨𝐮𝐭.   𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬   𝐢𝐬   𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭   𝐲𝐨𝐮   𝐚𝐬𝐤𝐞𝐝   𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐕𝐘   𝐈𝐒   𝐓𝐇𝐄   𝐂𝐑𝐎𝐖𝐍 ❞

" lauren, I got here as soon as I could - " he wasn't looking at her as he combed his fingers through her hair a little too forcefully, pulling back her face like a cat being pet too aggressively. the doctors clambering around the ER was a chaotic shift from his quiet department – scheduled versus spontaneous. what comfort he could provide her was probably already being dulled out by the echoes of absolute chaos. " it's okay, you did what you could. it was out of your control. "

casey's  done  everything  in  his  power  to  intervene  when  needed,   he'd  even  tried  getting  lauren  to  take  a  break   —   which,   of  course,   she'd  refused  to  do,   lest  her  emotions  catch  up  with  her   .     .     .   &   it's  not  like  he'd  only  tried  once,   either,   but  it's  been  maybe  an  hour  since  the  last  attempt.   maybe  that's  because  the  flow  of  patients  into  the  emergency  department  has  picked  up  again   —   they  both  have  plenty  to  do  without  him  hovering  over  her  like  some  worried  mother  hen.

it  goes  against  every  tenet  of  sobriety  to  bottle  things  up  like  this,   she  knows,   &   yet  it's  the  kind  of  lauren  o.  bloom  personality  staple  she's  never  managed  to  shake,   no  matter  how  hard  she's  tried.   physician  heal  thyself.   she  shakes  her  head  as  the  phrase  crosses  her  mind,   as  if  it'll  somehow  shake  the  thought  from  her  head  as  well.   both  luckily   &   unluckily,   she  spots  a  very  familiar  face  making  his  way  to  her,   an  intense  determination  on  his  face  all  the  way  up  until  he  realizes  she's  noticed  him   —   that's  when  he  softens  into  the  man  she  feels  lucky  to  love.   

so,   maybe  he's  a  little  overly  aggressive  with  his  affection,   but  in  lauren's  mind  that's  a  good  thing.   it  stops  her  from  falling  apart  altogether.   taking  kelly's  hand,   she  drags  him  from  the  nurse's  station  to  the  deserted  emergency  department  office,   &   when  they're  finally  alone,   she  speaks.     ❝     i  didn't  expect  you  to  come  running,     ❞    she  shrugs,   perching  on  the  desk  rather  than  settling  into  a  chair,    ❝     i  know  your  days  are  a  little  more  scheduled  out  than  mine  are,     ❞    a  sorry  attempt  at  a  joke,   one  she  doesn't  even  put  a  little  effort  into.   that  should  be  as  telling  about  her  mental  state  as  anything  else,   because  whether  it's  terrible  or  not,   lauren's  sense  of  humor  has  survived  some  pretty  rough  days  in  this  job.

with  a  heavy  sigh,   she  bows  her  head   &   shuts  her  eyes,   making  an  attempt  to  steel  herself  before  she  speaks  again.   it  doesn't  really  work,   because  she  can  feel  tears  stinging  her  eyes  even  before  her  mouth  opens.    ❝     i'm  gonna  be  fine,   kelly,   i  promise.   losing  a  paramedic  always  stings,   &   i've  been  friends  with  pete  since  i  was  just  a  med  student,   so  this  one  sucks  a  little  more  than  usual.     ❞

i deleted my old blog by mistake, so i’m revamping these!! if you want to reverse them, add a +, like so: [ PIN ] + and the roles will switch! these prompts are inspired by THIS MEME! they’re designed for all muses, regardless of whether they’ve interacted before or not!

[ PIN ] : sender pins receiver against a wall.

[ HANDS ] : our muses’ hands touch. (anything from grazing past or the hand holding content we all deserve.)

[ GAZE ] : sender watches receiver from across a crowded room.

[ GUIDE ] : in order to guide the receiver, sender presses a hand against the small of their back.

[ INVITE ] : sender asks receiver into a private room with nobody else present.

[ TOUCH ] : our muses touching one another discreetly but intimately in a public setting.

[ LICK ] : sender licks something from their thumb or lips in front of receiver.

[ SLEEVES ] : sender rolls up their sleeves to reveal their forearms.

[ SMIRK ] : while interacting with receiver, sender can’t resist a smirk.

[ NECKLACE ] : sender fastens a necklace around receiver’s neck, leaning in close to do so.

[ CLOSE ] : our muses are in a position which leads to the sender stepping intimately closer to the receiver.

[ UNBUTTON ] : due to heat or stress or other reasons, sender unbuttons the top of their shirt to reveal their neckline.

[ DANCE ] : our muses dance together in close quarters.

[ DEFEND ] : sender physically intervenes between receiver and a source of unwanted attention.

[ TEXT ] : sender texts intimate content to receiver.

[ PHONE ] : while on the phone with receiver, sender flirts teasingly during the call.

[ BEHIND ] : unexpectedly, sender arrives close to receiver from behind, taking them by surprise.

[ WET ] : our muses find one another in a torrential downpour of rain, both soaking wet.

[ LEAN ] : sender leans tantalisingly close to receiver to retrieve something or catch their attention.

[ LOOK ] : sender initiates intense eye contact with receiver.

[ ALONE ] : our muses find one another alone in an isolated setting.

[ ASK ] : sender asks receiver if they’re single.

[ WHISPER ] : sender leans close to receiver’s ear in order to whisper something to them.

[ BRUSH ] : sender reaches forward to brush a strand of receiver’s hair from their eyes.

[ STEADY ] : sender steadies receiver by placing their hands on their waist when the receiver almost falls against them.

[ SMILE ] : sender begins to grin at something the receiver is saying, like a big unstoppable grin.

[ PULL ] : sender pulls receiver into their side as they’re walking together.

[ STRADDLE ] : while sparring, sender gains the upper hand and pins the receiver in place, straddling their waist in the process.

[ BLADE ] : sender, having been enemies with the receiver, places a knife to their throat, but does nothing else.

[ STARE ] : while the receiver is speaking, the sender’s gaze drifts to their lips.

[ UNDERCOVER ] : while pretending to be a couple for the sake of a mission or other purpose, sender and receiver find themselves giving a Remarkably Convincing performance that leaves them questioning how platonic they really are.

[ AFTER ] : sender has just impulsively and passionately kissed the receiver without any warning nor apparent reason. how does the receiver respond?

[ REMARK ] : after someone passes a remark on what a cute couple the seemingly platonic sender and receiver are, the sender casts a meaningful glance at the receiver, expecting them to say something about it first.

[ PHOTOGRAPH ] : as someone volunteers to take a picture of them on a day out, sender instinctively wraps an arm around the receiver to steady them, holding them close for a photo that turns out to be more romantic than they were expecting.

[ CHALLENGE ] : after the receiver teasingly suggests that the sender is a terrible kisser, sender immediately and fervently proves them wrong with a long, passionate kiss that leaves the receiver taking back what they said.

[ LANGUAGE ] : sender begins to speak seductively and fluently with the receiver in another language.

𝗖𝗔𝗥𝗢𝟭𝗦𝗧𝗨𝗥𝗞𝗔.     ᴀɴ  ɪɴᴅᴇᴘᴇɴᴅᴇɴᴛ   +   ᴘʀɪᴠᴀᴛᴇ   +   sᴇʟᴇᴄᴛɪᴠᴇ  ᴘᴏʀᴛʀᴀʏᴀʟ  ᴏғ  ᴄᴀʀᴏʟ  sᴛᴜʀᴋᴀ  ᴏғ  ᴀᴘᴘʟᴇ  ᴛᴠ's  ᴘʟᴜʀɪʙᴜs.    𝗕𝗬  𝗭𝗔𝗡𝗭𝗔.

⋆｡‧˚ʚ💋ɞ˚‧｡⋆ 𝐲𝐨𝐮. 𝐦𝐞. 𝐧𝐨𝐰. (VERY USFT!!!!) 𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 - send ‘reverse’ for the sender and receiver to swap. adjust wording as needed!

[ grind ] sender straddles receiver’s lap and starts grinding against them, slow and intentional

[ whisper ] sender leans in and whispers exactly what they want to do to receiver in excruciating detail

[ wristgrab ] in the middle of a heated moment, sender pins receiver’s wrists above their head

[ needy ] sender pulls receiver into their lap, desperate and breathless, kissing them like it’s not enough

[ tease ] sender drags their lips and tongue down the length of receiver’s stomach, but stops just before going lower

[ undone ] sender undresses receiver one piece of clothing at a time, dragging it out with loaded glances

[ taste ] sender drops to their knees and starts kissing up the inside of receiver’s thighs

[ lapfull ] sender drags receiver onto their lap in the middle of a conversation, their hands already wandering

[ control ] sender takes full control, guiding receiver’s hands, body, and every motion

[ tug ] sender grips receiver’s hair and yanks their head back to kiss them roughly

[ choke ] sender wraps a hand lightly around receiver’s throat while their lips are barely apart

[ lipbite ] sender bites down on receiver’s bottom lip while grinding against them

[ praise ] in the middle of it all, sender whispers praise between every movement "just like that," "you're doing so good," "don’t stop"

[ beg ] sender makes receiver beg for it

[ mouthy ] sender licks into receiver’s mouth mid-kiss, messy and aggressive

[ suck ] sender sucks a mark into receiver’s neck, possessive and without shame

[ edge ] sender brings receiver right to the brink, over and over, refusing to let them finish

[ wrecked ] sender has one goal: to leave receiver trembling and ruined beneath them

[ needy grind ] clothes still on, sender grinds against receiver until they’re both panting, desperate for more

[ between ] sender slips a hand between receiver’s thighs while whispering, “you’ve been wanting this, haven’t you?”

[ ride ] sender pushes receiver down and climbs on top, holding eye contact the entire time

[ spit ] sender leans over and lets spit drip into receiver’s mouth before kissing them hard

[ mess ] clothes scattered, sheets ruined, bodies tangled—sender and receiver didn’t hold back

[ slow ] sender draws everything out. every stroke, every breath, every motion unbearably slow

[ possessive ] sender fucks receiver like they’re trying to make sure no one else ever will

[ overstim ] sender keeps going even after receiver's already shaking from release

[ grip ] sender grabs receiver by the hips, holding them in place while taking full control

[ hot & heavy ] sender and receiver go at it somewhere they absolutely shouldn’t

[ control freak ] sender lets receiver think they're in charge… until they flip the roles mid-way

[ lips everywhere ] sender kisses every part of receiver’s body.

[ breathless ] sender doesn’t let up until receiver is clawing at their back, gasping for air

[ all night ] sender makes sure receiver doesn’t sleep... again, and again, and again

[ tongue ] sender slides their tongue along receiver’s skin, taking their time tasting every inch

[ dark corner ] they don’t make it home! sender drags receiver into a shadowed corner and gets to work

[ eye contact ] sender holds eye contact the entire time they’re going down on receiver

[ mirror ] sender takes receiver in front of the mirror so they can both watch

𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐮𝐞

❝ i want to hear every sound you make. don’t hold back. ❞

❝ get on your knees—now. ❞

❝ you’re not leaving this bed until i say so. ❞

❝ look at you. all mine and dripping for it. ❞

❝ you said 'just one more time' last time, remember? ❞

❝ keep quiet, or they’ll hear. ❞

❝ is this what you wanted? me, like this, ruining you? ❞

❝ you’re shaking—already? we’ve barely started. ❞

❝ i haven’t even touched you yet, and you're already begging. ❞

❝ be good for me and spread your legs. ❞

❝ don’t you dare finish until i tell you to. ❞

❝ you’re going to be the death of me, but i’ll die happy. ❞

❝ say it. say you need me. say it louder. ❞

❝ i could do this all night. want to test me? ❞

❝ if you want more, use your words. ❞

❝ you look so pretty when you beg. ❞

❝ you’re not shy now, are you? ❞

❝ take it. like that. good. ❞

❝ tell me where you want my mouth. ❞

finally kissing the person you’ve been pining for.

pulling them in for a kiss while showering together.

a kiss shared during a game  ( truth or dare,  spin the bottle,  etc ).

kissing your lover to show you forgive them.

a coy, chaste kiss meant to say thank you.

an intimate kiss full of relief the second you're finally alone.

wiping away your lover’s tears as you kiss them.

a kiss muffled by laughter in a library, hidden away among the shelves.

lazy kisses on the sofa while the television runs.

kisses while wrapping your legs around your lover.

a quick peck on the cheek as one party rushes off.

a kiss to prove you don’t have feelings for them.

a kiss to convince them not to leave bed in the morning.

a kiss to distract them from stitching a wound.

a parting kiss before one party goes away for a long time.

biting their lip amidst a kiss, drawing blood.

heated kisses while tugging on their hair.

abruptly kissing a stranger to scare off the people following you.

an emotional kiss bringing one party to tears.

a bruising kiss full of desperation and urgency.

distracting your lover from a task by kissing their neck.

standing on your tiptoes to kiss their forehead.

kissing down the column of your lover's neck, leaving marks.

a kiss while being reunited after a long time.

kissing your lover in a moment of sheer joy.

a dutiful kiss with no true feeling behind it.

kissing your lover to take away their pain.

colliding with a wall, then each other's lips.

a kiss placed over their freshly bandaged wound.

a kiss while slow dancing close and intimately.

sharing a spontaneous kiss with a stranger.

an abrupt ,  heated kiss during the middle of a fight.

a kiss motivated by a dare from a third party.

an adrenaline-fueled kiss while standing on the ledge of a rooftop.

kissing them to shut them up.

urgent, messy kisses as both parties scramble to undress.

a kiss to wake your lover up in the morning.

sharing a kiss in a heavy downpour of rain.

kissing your lover just above their waistband.

kissing your partner to seal a marriage.

pushing your love down onto the bed to worship their body with kisses.

a possessive kiss to stake a claim.

a kiss to resolve suppressed ( romantic / sexual ) tension.

a kiss attempting to convince the other party to stay.

kissing the top of their head as you hold them.

a risky kiss between forbidden lovers.

a kiss while hiding away from flashing cameras.

a kiss that means absolutely nothing.

kissing the swell of your lover's breast.

a kiss that leaves lipstick stains.

a kiss shared on a rooftop while the sun ( sets / rises ).

a flirtatious kiss on the back of the hand.

sensual kisses down the length of their back.

kissing them to confess your true feelings.

sneaking off to a public bathroom to make out.

a kiss to forgive one another after a fight.

a kiss on the forehead as the other sleeps.

an  ( accidental / mutually )  drunken kiss.

an unexpected kiss during a fake dating scheme.

kissing your partner after they've given you head.

caging your lover against a wall with your arms to kiss them.

a kiss after receiving good news.

an emotional kiss, relieved to find your lover alive.

crowded, heated kisses in the backseat of a car.

a tentative ,  exploratory kiss between friends.

a kiss shared between enemies during combat.

a kiss that smears blood everywhere.

kissing them even though you know you shouldn't.

kissing your lover after believing you’d lost them.

a kiss after a devastating event ,  meant to comfort.

a possessive kiss in front of a jealous third party.

kisses while pulling them into your lap.

a heated kiss while holding them by the throat.

kissing your lover under the night sky while stargazing.

a kiss to seal a promise that you just made.

kissing your lover lazily first thing in the morning.

holding your lover by the jaw to kiss them.

holding their face, kissing the tears from their cheeks.

a kiss to your lover’s stomach as you travel down their body.

an abrupt kiss that you melt into after a moment of hesitation.

sleepy ,  domestic morning kisses in the kitchen while making breakfast.

a rushed kiss before one party leaves for work.

i   am    THE   GIRL   with   the   big   ass   gun,     and   one   by   one   I   am   going   to   blow   you   all   to   hell.      wynonna  earp  of  syfy's  wynonna  earp,     curse  broken  by  zanza.