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My brain feels less scrambled and more whole.

Im able to focus more on conversation.

Im very nervous about that and I dont want to get my hopes up for nothing. But I cant help but hope that its going to work, lessen my psychosis.

But yeah I got discharged after a week (as planned) and things have been going downhill since.

My psychosis is taking so much space and everyone around me are worried.

Im 3 years clean of sh but last night I got so close to do it again just to get a break from everything. I ended up going to my mums place for the weekend and avoided ruining all the hard work of staying clean.

So yeah things aren't going well but somehow im still here, still fighting.

The psychologist threatened to kick me out in 2 days (im supposed to be here for 7) if im not following the program. He doesn't seem very keen on helping me tbh

They also messed up my medications so I only get one pill instead of three like im supposed to have when my anxiety peaks

Im going to talk to him about it tomorrow and hopefully he'll fix the misunderstanding

Kind off nervous because I have to wake up at 8 o'clock and I usually wake up between 10 and 11.

- 🪱 werm anon (he/him/his)

Thank you!

But things aren't going that well.

I had therapy today and she said my schizophrenia is getting worse and she suggested going to the psych ward for a bit but im not sure.

First night here

I got put a a new medication to sleep and it works, so thats nice

I definitively haven't missed the uncomfortable beds

Im not doing good but the staff are kind