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Im happy I get to go back

It feels so real??

I dont understand how its "just in my head"

I really hope my doctor can figure something out with the medication problems

I had some increased prolactin levels in my blood so I had to decrease amisulprid and its been hell

My psychotic symptoms are skyrocketing

My doctor told me to let him know if my symptoms got worse but I haven't been able to talk to him because I had the flu and was bedridden for a week and after that he cancelled our appointment because he got ill

My brain feels less scrambled and more whole.

Im able to focus more on conversation.

Im very nervous about that and I dont want to get my hopes up for nothing. But I cant help but hope that its going to work, lessen my psychosis.

But yeah I got discharged after a week (as planned) and things have been going downhill since.

My psychosis is taking so much space and everyone around me are worried.

Im 3 years clean of sh but last night I got so close to do it again just to get a break from everything. I ended up going to my mums place for the weekend and avoided ruining all the hard work of staying clean.

So yeah things aren't going well but somehow im still here, still fighting.

The psychologist threatened to kick me out in 2 days (im supposed to be here for 7) if im not following the program. He doesn't seem very keen on helping me tbh

They also messed up my medications so I only get one pill instead of three like im supposed to have when my anxiety peaks

Im going to talk to him about it tomorrow and hopefully he'll fix the misunderstanding

Kind off nervous because I have to wake up at 8 o'clock and I usually wake up between 10 and 11.

- 🪱 werm anon (he/him/his)

Thank you!