tripped laces

Empirically housing is a human right and no one should be able to profit from providing shelter to another person. In our current lived reality, it is unfortunately true that 1) being a landlord has historically been a path to economic mobility for POC (especially immigrants) who have been excluded from other avenues and 2) show me the biggest scumbag landlord you have ever met and I guarantee you that they have at least one tenant who would be sleeping under a bridge if that dirtbag wasn't renting to them. But all landlords are probably bastards. And large property owner corporations should obviously be burnt to the ground.

he resents him because luca is literally just what shane was as a rookie but white. shane was begrudgingly accepted because of his talent, but there was always the underline there that you aren't one of us. luca has always been deemed lovable, partially because he's shy and partially because of his skill. but shane had that shyness, and shane exceeded that skill, and he wasn't lovable. he was weird. shane didn't have anyone to look up to in his early years, and he didn't have anyone else to fall on if he wanted his team to be good. he had to do it, and he had to do it by himself. luca had himself and everyone else.

I can't decide if this is, like, humble bragging or trauma dumping, but I've been in a position professionally a bunch of different times to extend the ladder for someone else in the way that I wish had been done for me, and it actually kind of made me mad as hell. Because it doesn't make the feeling go away. One time this guy told me he just really wanted to thank me for everything I'd done to support his wife's career and I was like, "So ... just shoot me with a gun, actually."

Anyway! What this actually and more relevantly reminds me of is something I've talked about before: I think Shane will absolutely die mad about how it's a slow march toward progress when it comes to being gay in hockey.

We don’t talk nearly enough about which guy on Friday Night Lights was part of Shane’s gay awakening.

I am devastated to report that only three seasons of Friday Night Lights had aired by the summer of 2009, which means it is just not canonically possible that the answer is Vince. Terrible news. Almost makes the whole exercise not even worthwhile. I guess maybe the reason we don't talk about it is that it's pretty obvious that the answer is just Tim.

I feel like this goes back to the whole thing with the fandom broadly misunderstanding Shane’s sexuality crisis. He is not afraid of his attraction to men. He’s not confused about it. He knows he likes men and seeks out multiple male partners and almost certainly watches gay porn.

Shane has comphet. He’s trying to force himself to be attracted to women too. One of my headcanons is he watches a lot of MMF or MFM stuff in an attempt to force himself to feel attraction to a woman.

Shane’s comphet is interesting because it isn’t fueled by either of the things that people (especially straight people) associate with comphet by 2016 and definitely by 2026. He’s not experiencing either religious pressure or explicit immigrant family pressure. (You can make a case for the latter in the show, I guess? But I feel like Yuna’s ‘You’re a role model!’ thing is more broad and less personal. She’s not telling him he needs to, like, carry on the family line.)

Anyway, this is funny and tragic because I think what this means is that hockey is both Shane’s shame-based evangelical religion and his old world family.

There’s something very, very tangentially related to this that I’ve been chewing on about how playing professional sports puts you in a kind of arrested development, and how that’s sort of funny because then being a professional athlete would make you gay in, like, a Freudian sense. But then I googled “homosexuality arrested development” to confirm my recollection that that’s a Freud thing and since Google sucks now all the results are about whether it’s problematic that Tobias was cluelessly gay on the show Arrested Development, which … lmao.

I feel like this goes back to the whole thing with the fandom broadly misunderstanding Shane’s sexuality crisis. He is not afraid of his attraction to men. He’s not confused about it. He knows he likes men and seeks out multiple male partners and almost certainly watches gay porn.

Shane has comphet. He’s trying to force himself to be attracted to women too. One of my headcanons is he watches a lot of MMF or MFM stuff in an attempt to force himself to feel attraction to a woman.

Shane’s comphet is interesting because it isn’t fueled by either of the things that people (especially straight people) associate with comphet by 2016 and definitely by 2026. He’s not experiencing either religious pressure or explicit immigrant family pressure. (You can make a case for the latter in the show, I guess? But I feel like Yuna’s ‘You’re a role model!’ thing is more broad and less personal. She’s not telling him he needs to, like, carry on the family line.)

Anyway, this is funny and tragic because I think what this means is that hockey is both Shane’s shame-based evangelical religion and his old world family.

There’s something very, very tangentially related to this that I’ve been chewing on about how playing professional sports puts you in a kind of arrested development, and how that’s sort of funny because then being a professional athlete would make you gay in, like, a Freudian sense. But then I googled “homosexuality arrested development” to confirm my recollection that that’s a Freud thing and since Google sucks now all the results are about whether it’s problematic that Tobias was cluelessly gay on the show Arrested Development, which … lmao.

Showing up to the neighborhood of a new fandom and building a TPE lifestyle 24/7 D/s dynamic from first principles is a canonical fandom event. Not really my thing, but the person who does that is my cousin, it would be weird if I showed up to the family reunion and they were not there.