For those who came across my blog for the first time, a few explanations:
I am otherkin, a spirit that has incarnated in a human body. My name is Ainu, and I have several aspects - masks, one of which is, of course, human. My human mask's name is Maria. My spirit form looks like this:
I appeared in cosmos and was abandoned by the force that created me, after which Lucifer took me, changed me and gave me self-awareness. So I'm basically Lucifer's adopted child.
I've been communicating with Lucifer (sometimes i call him Helel) for several years now, trying to develop my abilities with varying success. He is my emperor, my friend, and my father. I'm an artist, so I sketch many of my visions.
Since all my stories are based on my communication with Lucifer and my visions, I warn you, everything further is a HUGE UPG!
Whether you believe it or not is up to you. I'm posting this because maybe one of the practitioners will recognize familiar places or moments. If this resonates with you, please let me know.
Yesterday I was finally able to stay at home alone and decided to do a reading with Lucifer.
I've been having sudden mood swings lately and had nervous breakdowns, so as expected, reading didn't go well. Lucifer told me to work with the angels. Not that I was against it, I love angels, but it caused me a wave of fear. What if our bond with Lucifer weakens? I have a tendency to focus on only one entity in my practice, so I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to pay as much attention to Lucifer as I do now. I know how stupid this sounds, he's my father after all, but my trauma of being an abandoned child surfaced at that very moment. Lucifer tried to calm me down, first with words, then with hugs, but it didn't work, I even succumbed to paranoia at some point and thought that someone was pretending to be him. In general, I seemed to have a tantrum, so Lucifer had no choice but to just roughly crush me with his energy and not let go until I calmed down.
"I never leave my children" - he said in a low voice. This phrase will probably stay with me forever. Because I believe him.
I slowly calmed down, after which Lucifer decided to show me my home for the first time. You know, I used to learn about Lucifer's dimension from my fragmentary and vague memories. But it was the first time I was there in real time.
What immediately coincided with my memories was the fog. Lucifer's estate was nearby, I had never been inside i think, but from the outside it seemed to be made in Rococo style or something similar. The estate was surrounded by gardens. Architecture was intertwined with nature, as if it were one organism. The sounds really didn't match those of earth, the plants had a sound like cracking glass for example.
I'm an energy weaver, so my gaze immediately shifted to the threads of space. The fog showed these threads perfectly for me. Some of the threads were narrower, some wider. Lucifer smiled slightly as I looked around, and then, with a wave of his hand, he began to move these threads, swap them, and the flowers in the garden that these threads matched began to change color and size. After a sly glance in my direction, he began to tell me what I was doing in his dimension before incarnation. I used weaving to create and change the surrounding objects, to create passages to other spaces. I worked in tandem with Ibis, we were colleagues and always worked together. Now Ibis is my friend, he often accompanies me. When I was weaving something, Ibis harmonized it, implanted created objects or entire zones. Ibis is an air elemental and often uses the image of a Chinese soaring dragon to appear. I've been mostly in my true form all this time, too, but sometimes switched to a human.
My brain was flooded with understanding how it all works, it was wonderful!
I asked to see someone I know there. Lucifer took me to a silver swing, where a girl with white hair and wings was swinging, and I immediately recognized her as Hillella. @hislittlestar
She was glad I finally got home, and even patted me on the head. And it must have looked weird because I was in my true form with my masks and so on 😂 But I liked everything. Hilella told me to come to play when I have time.
Lucifer and I walked on, Hillella followed us, I think out of curiosity. Lucifer began to tell me how he brought me to him for the first time, I was horrified and fled to the edge of the dimension. I made a "house" for myself there. Although Lucifer said it was just a hiding place. We were moving fast, and Ibis even joined us. It turns out that my speed when I move along the thread is very high and I seem to slip through space. At first, I thought I was seeing a forest because I temporarily switched to a human mask. But it wasn't a forest. There were vertical threads, like a glitch that passed through space. As strange as it may sound, it was like an energy gradient between a dimension and, I don't know, emptiness? other dimensions? I don't know how it works yet, but since we later use it to navigate, the boundary between dimensions is very arbitrary.
My house looked like a black ball suspended among these threads. We climbed inside, it was empty, there was a minimum of extra energy and it was something like a pocket space. Lucifer told me to lie down and I curled up on the surface. He put my masks on his lap, Hillella sat next to me and began to stroke me, and Ibis in the shape of a dragon wrapped around me. I've never felt so good before, I felt like I was part of a family, and I can't let go of the thought that this was my therapy 😂
We stayed like that for a while. Then I finally asked what Lucifer said about angels. He said he wanted archangel Michael to teach me and that he was going to introduce me to him. We all got out of my "nest", I said goodbye to Hilella and Ibis, and Lucifer and I stood at the very edge of the dimension. Lucifer grabbed me by the threads on my head and pushed me forward, and it was a very unusual feeling, as if I was being stretched and narrowed at the same time. My physical body started shaking and my head started to hurt.
We found ourselves in a new place, it looked like a huge golden fantasy-alien cathedral. There were no typical religious symbols, just patterns on the arches and soft ringing and music. Lucifer immediately called Michael, he spoke in a language from which I apparently understood 20 percent of the words, but only because I just felt their meaning.
Well, Michael... This man was huge, I think he was 5 times bigger than me. He looked a bit like Lucifer, but his hair was dark and his eyes were honey-colored. I didn't see Michael's full armor, but his clothes were strange, like a robe with armor elements. There was fire circling around him, and when that fire was behind him, I caught a shape like wings, but I didn't get a good look so I'm not sure. Michael greeted me and picked me up in his arms, which made Lucifer laugh. I think I even heard Lucifer say that Michael was "showing off".
I can compare Michael's energy to cold fire, burning, but refreshing and cleansing. In the comparison: energy of Lucifer feels like a hot sun to me, more nourishing. Michael touched my head and my migraine went away without a trace.
Lucifer reminded me that if I feel bad, I can always come back and call him, and then he disappeared.
Michael carried me through the golden hall. His voice had a slight echo. He noticed that Lucifer likes to pick up abandoned spirits, and Michael respects it. He asked me what I want from our interaction. I said that I want to be a warrior capable of defending myself. I feel like a fragile instrument that feels bad from any fluctuation of energy. Lucifer also seems to want me to be a leader in human life, but I clearly lack the courage, so I asked Michael to help me with this.
Michael agreed and said he would teach me. He even promised that we would make me a weapon. He also warned me to use it only to clean the space and protect myself, otherwise he would stop me. Michael made a very warm impression on me. I like him. We talked for a while, after which we said goodbye and I found the thread Lucifer had left to slip back home.
3. I've been hired again 🪡
Ibis was waiting for me near my house. He asked me how I liked Michael, and that he wouldn't mind seeing him either. And also that after Michael, I smell like ice cream. I laughed and asked if he knew what ice cream smells like, Ibis replied that he didn't, he just voiced my association. We went back to Lucifer. He was leaving his estate accompanied by another spirit. They were talking about something. That spirit looked like a pale man with long black hair, and he quickly left when Ibis and I arrived.
Lucifer said he had a task for me. He has a meeting with someone the other day and we need to prepare a place. I asked why it was all so sudden and one day, and Lucifer replied that he thought I was ready and that he wanted to heal me of my deep-seated self-doubt. So yes, a job...
Lucifer described what he wanted to see and took us to the garden. Ibis and I started working.
I traced the existing threads, moved them and changed their properties. I also wove new objects. I made a round table, four carved chairs, obelisks on four sides, at the ends of which there was a concentration of elements. There were flowers like peonies all around. When I finished the weaving, the Ibis enlivened the garden, harmonized the structure and the garden became really beautiful.
Lucifer made a couple of corrections, after which he praised us for our work. I finally felt useful! Next, Lucifer noticed that my physical body was literally shaking with tension and energy, and sent me back to my body. But before that, he showed me a place through which I could make my way back home. It turns out that there is a space above the fog. There is a gazebo with a spiral stair and a beam going up. Lucifer smoothly returned me to my body as I rose up.
I was overwhelmed with emotions, and to this day, knowing that I can finally visit home and do something useful fills me with confidence and happiness.
I got home through the gazebo, as Lucifer showed. I continued to explore the dimension. This time I decided to go without father.
I trace the threads of the roads there. I vaguely remember some of them. I saw little spirits and a red-haired woman who lives near the fire. She noticed me, and I immediately cut the connection with the thread. I don't want to draw attention to myself yet.
I rose above the fog again, and in addition to the gazebo I knew, I could also see the top of the mountain.
I slipped to it, and saw that there was something with the concentration of negative energy. There were also a lot of spirits, and I glided over them, trying not to be noticed. I was afraid of being attacked. Ibis came for me and we hurried to get out of there. He said that not all places are worth visiting, this is one of them. It's generally better not to go there without father.
As I understood it, it was place related to his responsibility as the devil.
Also, at the end of one of the threads, I saw a strange arch that leads to a cliff. There's probably water behind it. Most likely, there is a passage to another dimension area behind the arch.
It seems that Lucifer's dimension is located at a crossroads between different additional dimensions, where his allies live. So it's like a nexus.
I've been in my "house" again.
It's really empty, like a piece of space inside a ball. There's something like a star there now, it's round and hot, and I can hug it and feel warm and good. The energy of this star interacts with mine and distracts me from the rest of the world.
After resting in my nest, I quickly slipped back into my body.
I plan to ask father where I can and cannot go. And maybe I'll be able to visit his estate.
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