leash me and send me hunting

The ideal crying with sex is before, during, and after. If there’s no crying it implies some sort of consent is happening and that’s against God. Or at least some of the ones I know

thinking about how hot it would be to make each other worse. horribly intense switch-for-switch relationship where we both just keep pushing and pushing, using every dirty trick in the book to get the other to agree to this week's fucked up scene... until we don't even recognize ourselves.

Triggering my victim’s cues during a breakdown, causing them to go into a never-ending spiral, and making them dependent on me. Because I’m the only one that can fix their problems, and undo their pain.

I really want to corrupt someone and force them to watch immoral and disgusting porn till they like it.

Unfortunately, an older paraphiliac partner that encourages my behavior is what I want in my life.

NEVER HEAL indulge in self sabotage romaniticize self isolation ALWAYS QUIT reject your potential never break the cycle let the curse win

Psychological torture is so much better when it's deeply personal and not just strangers on the internet offering generic harm

It's probably unhealthy that I kinda want him to use all my insecurities and triggers against me. He knows them and he knows about the shit I've done and how I see myself and how much it fucks me up and he probably knows just how unstable I am, too. I kinda want him to interrogate me about it. To validate all the shit I think. I think that's probably unhealthy but what do I know

Like I know if he did that this other guy would probably physically kill us or something but idk it's still appealing on some level. Yeah tell me I'm a dirty predator. Tell me I fucked her up forever And she's scared of me and she hates my guts. Tell me you know deep down I don't regret it. Tell me you know I thought about doing it again. Tell me you know that if I knew I could get away with it I Would do it again. Do it do it do it do it

imagine finding a programmer trained in manipulation tactics, a programmer who is skilled at reading people, a programmer who knows all my tells and all my triggers, a programmer who knows things about me that i couldnt even begin to think about....