so many ways to lose

theres always something going on behind the scenes of this stupid show (hateful) god i just remembered the concept of vancouver wasian raver. slavicphile…. french and spanish speaking… this genuinely fries me to this day

problematic sudoku solving skills gap

ok note to self i gotta leave the house regularly so that i dont feel like im slowly transforming into an evil fucking shadow clone of myself

So as it turns out your sense of self doesnt exist in a vacuum. You gotta actually use it and bounce it off of other people like echolocation to see where you are as a person and shit. So if you dont regularly interact with other people the echoes just get weaker and weaker and before you know it your personality is a blurry fucked up fog clone of its former self. which it sucks because this makes it really hard to interact with people again but yknow

and another thing when pip had that whole monologue abt trying to place ppl in the morally gray and she said abt elliot that oh well hes somewhere in the middle hes not an evil man even though he killed a teenager + had a relationship with a student that attended the high school this 40 plus year old man was teaching at (that his own daughters attended) + kidnapped some girl from the street and kept her locked up in a house for 3 years. like i dont think its that complicated actually i think YOU CAN put him in the unequivocally bad person box. and right after that putting max in the no nuances box which yeah fair, hes a rapist but so is elliot . he had a relationship with a high school student . why is that not acknowledged as rape

like this was insane why is there so much gaslighting in ya books