Dying ,

okay but first ... lets talk about the parallels between serena elizabeth carlisle and first treasury secretary alexander hamilton : they were both immigrants , coming from a rough household and forcing their way into the world , having to scream and shout to prove themselves to a world that was trying to push them out of it . ‘ alex, you gotta fend for yourself ’ serena has always done that as well , not just fending for herself , but for her little sibling as well . serena came from the bottom , and when she got her shot , took it and ran with it !! like serena was a wonder - kid , she had brains , beauty , strength !!! she had a good heart !

but there are also strong differences in that serena is incredibly soft - spoken , but when it matters , she won’t back down with her beliefs . SERENA WOULD NEVER CHEAT ON ELIZABETH SCHUYLER GET FUCKED A DOT HAM

shauna’s got a ton of similarities with eliza ; loving serena not because she was creating a fantastic life for herself , not because she was going to be famous , not because serena was the future champion in the making no doubt about it ! if it was for that , shauna would’ve easily fallen for calem first . but shauna’s affections are for the protag aka serena in this case !! serena , at her core , is a very scared , but determined , friendly , yet brutal woman . shauna basically took serena under her wing when serena didn’t know anything .

shauna loves serena for who she is at her core . not what the world created , not what serena created . 

the bad thing about that is that shauna would probably follow serena anywhere ????? when serena is also fundamentally very gray - morally . this can also be good though because shauna can remind serena of who she is ... the fact that serena actively chooses to be a good person and shauna is a good reminder of the reason why she does it , even when things get hard ...

shauna also understands who serena is ! she understands serena is justice driven , believes that the ends justify the means , etc , and can forgive serena for her mistakes . shauna knows serena is self - sacrificing as FUCK . serena proves it by dying for her and calem . and you can’t tell me shauna doesn’t know . that shauna didn’t immediately put two and two together but had no option other than to go .

literally all shauna wants is to be a part of serena’s life , no matter where that leads them . shauna’s love for serena is the purest love in her entire love imo !!

whereas calem’s love for serena is very ego driven , in a way , but getting serena to fall in love with him , it’s a win . calem’s is also very superficial ; serena is unattainable . she’s an angel , a goddess . she stole EVERYTHING from him ; not on purpose , but regardless . she also is someone calem can’t beat . and he when she leaves , calem is both upset , and thrilled . but he didn’t beat her .

the reason that calem is the one who ‘ lives ’ , is because in the end , he still isn’t the one who gets the glory , the fame .... even when he becomes champion , kalos still loves serena . serena is their heroine . he will always inevitably be seen as serena’s ‘ replacement ’ . calem gets to grow old , but he doesn’t preserve serena’s story -- he tries to forget . he later , begins to think the worst of serena and it’s only after he fully understands her that he’ll understand that the world was ‘ wide enough ’ for himself and serena . 

calem will ONLY understand and appreciate serena when she’s long gone , he will never be able to love her properly . 

shauna does . shauna is the one who would protect serena’s legacy . she’s the one who would give serena’s things to museums , tell her children about serena’s light , even when serena is long gone and no longer visits shauna anymore , shauna still remembers ; she tells her grandchildren . shauna is the one who lives the longest , the one who carries on what serena started ; making the world a better place .

‘ i ask myself what would you do if you had more time ? the lord in his kindness , he gives me what you always wanted , he gives me more time . ‘

THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT SERENA WANTS FOR HER . serena dreams of shauna growing old and being happy and loving life and having a bunch of kids and just ... god !! serena almost could’ve had that !! i bet the last time serena sees shauna before she dies she fucking tells her this too , tells her to live , tells her all this .

and shauna only ever wanted to bring serena peace . in a moment of panic , when serena was dying , when serena was recovering ; it was shauna who brought calm . shauna , who was the eye of the hurricane of her mental breakdown . 

serena just wants to die at the time of her death . serena is suicidal and has always wanted to die in such a fashion . it’s the perfect way for her to go . but you know who she thinks of ? shauna . she realizes her time is completely up , sees her friends and family when she dies , but when she thinks of shauna , she doesn’t want that . there’s a split second where she thinks , no !

‘ and when my time is up , have i done enough ? will they tell our story ? i can’t wait to see you again ... it’s only a matter of time ... ‘

shauna knows damn well she will see serena again , no matter how much time passes between it . 

shauna tells serena’s story . and serena is at shauna’s side when she dies . 

like i can imagine shauna dying with all her friends and her family around her , but they start to clear out , and eventually , there’s one person left .

and it’s serena . 

still looking the same way she did the day she died herself , and serena can help shauna and just !!! this is where i’m geTTING EMOTIONAL SERENA BEING THERE WHEN SHAUNA DIES AND HELPING HER STAY CALM AND TELLING HER ALL THE GOOD THINGS SHE DID FOR HER .........