viriditas

Your power is found in facing the parts of you that believe you don’t have any. The simplest way to recognize them is this is to notice what triggers you. What you procrastinate on. What you avoid. What feels too big, too uncomfortable, too exposing. That’s where your power is hiding and these reflections will typically come in the form of another person. In the things they say, the patterns they mirror and the emotions they activate in you, what you tolerate. Not because they are the problem but because they are revealing where the work still is. What you feel strongly about in others is often pointing you back to something in yourself that’s ready to be met

lots to discuss w myself in shower therapy tonight

Harrison Ford hating playing Han Solo made him better at playing Han Solo because Han Solo did not want to be there doing those things either.

I can’t remember what talk show it was after TFA but the interviewer was like “Did it make you emotional putting on the [Han Solo] costume?” and Harrison Ford was like “No. It made me money.” which was like the most Han Solo thing a person could say.

I think some people forget that some literature and some media is meant to be deeply uncomfortable and unsettling. It's meant to make you have a very visceral reaction to it. If you genuinely can't handle these stories then you are under no obligation to consume them but acting as if they have no purpose or as if people don't have a right to tell these stories, stories that often relate to the darkest or most disturbing parts of life, then you should do some introspection.

people have said good things about you behind your back, without your knowledge. people have shared their love for you with others.

It's so easy to forget this is true sometimes. The same way people often think good, positive things about us and we'll never know because they don't express it vocally. We get so used to hate speech and judgement in our daily lives, we often forget that the inside of people's heads doesn't have to be a bad place. It can be a place of kindness and thoughtfulness and decency. We just expect the worst because we have been taught that way, and we forget there is another.

unsung benefit i think a lot of ppl are sleeping on with using the public library is that i think its a great replacement for the dopamine hit some ppl get from online shopping. it kind of fills that niche of reserving something that you then get to anticipate the arrival of and enjoy when it arrives, but without like, the waste and the money.

I hope you believe that you can still make a beautiful life for yourself even if you lost many years of it to grief, or darkness, depression, or a wound that wouldn't close.