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I want to die. I want to die so badly.

I wished passive death on myself, hoped I would die from an accident or something just as unfortunate.

They say manifestation gives you what you want but it did not bring me the death I wanted.

Maybe because I do want to live.

Maybe I want to live and see all the small things in life.

The little smile brightening my day when I see a guy giving his girlfriend a flower, or when I hear some some kannadiga talk tamil, or when my friends tell me they love me.

Maybe I do want to live for all the little things, which keeps me going.

But this little hope is enough to live just one more little day.

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and that’s the thing, one moment you feel hopeful, a weight lifted from ur shoulders, like living could be a good idea. and then the next, you are on the floor, a simple slip and you have remembered all the reasons you don’t want to be alive.

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What am I supposed to do when I can't stop spiraling? To be in a constant battle between wanting to live for the people you love and wanting to die?

What if I am a burden, and that my existence only hurts the people I love? What if ..

To be constantly torn between wanting to not exist so the people you love will be better off and the thought that your presence never mattered to anyone.

What if no one cares if I die? What if the people who I think cares about me, actually don't? What if they finally realise, that I did nothing else than hold them down? That, me dying was their way to have a better life?

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my last image of you would have been a happier one.

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