The fuck am I doing? I’m finally feeling like I’m recovering and able to lose the rest of this weight slowly, sustainably and with a healthy mentality. Eating 1-7PM, keeping an average of 1500 calories per day, losing 2lbs per week.

Starting 20:4 fasting today. My typical eating window will be 4-8PM but I can just shift that as needed. This will allow me to enjoy dinner and beer with my partner without drinking and eating until midnight.

First day back at calorie counting and eating whatever I want at a deficit and holy shit why did I ever stray from this? Nothing beats this. I ate what I wanted, had a couple IPA’s and ended the day under my calorie limit. Now to smoke some weed and go to bed satisfied.

I’m not losing weight and I keep having horrid dreams about animals. I used to be vegetarian and I started eating meat again for a low carb diet. But fuck that. Fuck keto.

Feels like I do keto as an excuse to binge eat/drink. I miss the control. I miss the excitement stepping on the scale. It’s not moving.

I will be at my UGW easily by June. Possibly even May if I keep my carb cheat days to once a month. Also, my teeth aligners are done on June 3rd.