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The Wires and Stars Series: by tatterdemalionAmberite and @titianarchivist

Initiation * Incipisphere Intermission * Consummation * Apotheosis

Chapter Summary/Preview:

You are golden in the dark but no less golden for it, pure and clean and steady. You are his core and center, your beloved; know the sparkings and banked whisperings of his power as it flows through and around him. You are contained and subsumed and sustaining and your every beat is love, made for and of him. And in your strength and your simplicity you buoy him up, and you know joy.

And as long as you float free of him, suspended behind his spine, in-reaching – ropey arteries tie you to him, warm and full and laden-gold – you’ve been here before, seen him like this before, where have you –

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Astris has a daymare.

Chapter Content Notes:

So I herd u liek self-hating starships. Suicidality, PTSD, daymares, hallucinations, body horror, helmsman stuff, severe mental illness. You know all those communication issues and codependency tags from previous chapters? Yeah, that stuff comes to a head here too.

Other Notes: Discord party ongoing!

The Wires and Stars Series: by @tatterdemalionamberite and @titianarchivist

Initiation * Incipisphere Intermission * Consummation * Apotheosis

Chapter Summary/Preview:

Your fingers have crept from the cushion to press into the flesh of your thigh through your jeans lit up like scarred and guttering candles, and you let your head fall back with a pillowed thump, and fuck, you don’t know how you ever even pretend to think about anything else, pallid satellite reflecting in his orbit that you have been for a perigee now – thoughts that stray too far from the shape of his face are slippery like membranes over void.

Astris discovers the time-honored practice of jacking off when one feels bad, with mixed results.

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Chapter content notes: PTSD, codependency, body dysphoria, masturbation, hints of suicidal ideation.

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The Wires and Stars Series: by @tatterdemalionamberite and @titianarchivist

Initiation * Incipisphere Intermission * Consummation * Apotheosis

Chapter Summary/Preview:

You thought you’d buried this, thought you’d sublimated it into cheerful pitch slapfights with KK -

Anything but that you’d feel these phantoms, the memory of salt-burnt skin and wire-riddled limbs and the outcry of hull sensors, some sick kind of comfort wrapped in the memory of holding onto Astris’ pain for him, that it was something he gave you, and you’re suddenly all aching cavernous desire, breath trapped in your throat with the need for pain and overload and how much you want not to want it.

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1. I think we’ve mentioned somewhere in extended errata that a lot of important character development happens during sex, yeah? 2. and also that we’d deal with the flaming trainwreck that’s Sollux’s traumatically-attached-kink-guilt complex slamming straight into Astris’ self-hatred and codependent insecurity? 3. anyway we’re here. Welcome to the next ~5 chapters. Buckle up.

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The Wires and Stars Series: by tatterdemalionAmberite and @titianarchivist

Initiation * Incipisphere Intermission * Consummation * Apotheosis

Chapter Summary/Preview:

  "Sollux, I –"

– Ancient echoes of his own locating pulses, eons ago –

“– I’m off course, I’m sorry –”

The thing about trauma is that sometimes you’re doing fine until, suddenly, you aren’t. And then everything grows more tangled in the aftermath.

The Wires and Stars Series: by @tatterdemalionamberite​ and @titianarchivist

Initiation * Incipisphere Intermission * Consummation * Apotheosis

Chapter Summary/Preview:

The Psiioniic tries to practice normal troll behavior: such as getting dressed by himself, getting undressed with his matesprit, and cross-examining his matesprit’s moirail. These efforts come with a few surprises.

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“…Right, and I said I’d go see FF later too,” Sollux says, looking at you as if expecting a wince. “I’ve been thinking of some questions for her, for when…” Sollux opens his mouth around a reassurance against your imagined wince, leaves it hanging open for long moments of the real you failing to oblige – “Don’t look so surprised! There are a lot of crucial policy details that watching someone devour your mortal enemy’s beating heart doesn’t tell you…Maybe I’ll come with you,” and you’re only a little bit startled to find that you mean it.

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Chapter content notes: body dysphoria, kawaii awkward troll pity sex, cataplexy, difficult conversations about the consequences of policy decisions, pants.

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The Wires and Stars Series: by @tatterdemalionamberite​ and @titianarchivist

Initiation * Incipisphere Intermission * Consummation * Apotheosis

Chapter Summary/Preview:

The Psiioniic tries to practice normal troll behavior: such as getting dressed by himself, getting undressed with his matesprit, and cross-examining his matesprit’s moirail. These efforts come with a few surprises.

~~~

“…Right, and I said I’d go see FF later too,” Sollux says, looking at you as if expecting a wince. “I’ve been thinking of some questions for her, for when…” Sollux opens his mouth around a reassurance against your imagined wince, leaves it hanging open for long moments of the real you failing to oblige – “Don’t look so surprised! There are a lot of crucial policy details that watching someone devour your mortal enemy’s beating heart doesn’t tell you…Maybe I’ll come with you,” and you’re only a little bit startled to find that you mean it.

~~~

Chapter content notes: body dysphoria, kawaii awkward troll pity sex, cataplexy, difficult conversations about the consequences of policy decisions, pants.

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Five smutty, smutty years later I can report that somehow miraculously @titianarchivist still likes me in real life, now lives a short drive from my house, I’ve saved her life at least once and she’s helped restore parts of my personhood to functioning in ways I didn’t know were possible. (Including… I now have a jorb, thanks to her efforts? And am not dissociating and freaking out every time I go in? What is this witchcraft!)

Tumblr, on the other hand, still breaks angle brackets on mobile, or did the last time I tried to use one so I’m not risking it.

The Wires and Stars Series: by tatterdemalionAmberite and @titianarchivist

Initiation * Incipisphere Intermission * Consummation * Apotheosis

Chapter Summary/Preview:

Astris tries flying outside the hive with Sollux, and also interacting with other trolls. Not all of these things go equally well.

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You grip his wrist and pull yourself to standing, shivering as you uncramp your legs, and you know he’s right, that you’ve spent as long as it is wise for you to stay in a place that belongs even in some small part to death, that you are vulnerable even when you don’t feel it.

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My blog is flagged NSFW and thus will not be accessible after the 16th. I have archived its contents through last month and may create a Wordpress backup on my own domain but have not yet done so.

After this, to RELIABLY find me, follow me at:

Dreamwidth (Amberite) | AO3 (Amberite)

Email (tea.cosy.of.rassilon at gmail dot com, please tell me who you are if you contact me this way)

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You MAY also be able to find me at:

Twitter (outliersgeorg) | Pillowfort (Amberite) 

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I might rarely be found on:

Discord (Amberite #4779) | Facebook (by request, if I trust you) 

My Tumblr sideblog, where I will also be directing most of my posts and reblogs between now and 12/16.

HURRY UP PLEASE ITS TIME

Goonight Bill. Goonight Lou. Goonight May. Goonight.

Ta ta. Goonight. Goonight.

[image text: maybe there’s a plot path / bad end /unconventional good end where the pc gets too close to the nature god and becomes a sleepy photosynthetic plant person who’s in a constant state of dreamlike edging from the sunlight

bonus points if they wind up being on the council in their orgasmic tree person state, wherein their role is waking up rarely to say wise things]

ANYWAY IF YOU EVER WANTED AN EROTIC GAME WITH SUBVERSIVELY EMPOWERING BAD ENDS WE

are still in that amorphous period between concept stage and development stage where you write a bunch of stuff in a pre-code format and make spreadsheets and story outlines and stuff but

u can get eggpreg or infested with lewd parasites on purpose or inflict them on others or have potentially allergenic sex pollen flowers grow out of your arm, among other Fun Activities

all for high class aesthetique and metaphysical reasons of course

welcome to Carcosa

http://amberite.dreamwidth.org

Hi all! In case of tumblr apocalypse you can find me as titianarchivist at dreamwidth, pillowfort, and (most likely to actually be active) AO3.

I might make a flarping account at some point too. I have no plans to make a fandom twitter, but I’m open to joining discord servers.

I’ve been dumping my likes into the queue of a sideblog, @aestheteofrage, but if this account goes that goes too so that isn’t very helpful.

Dreamwidth - titianarchivist

AO3 - titianarchivist

Discord - Titian #4064

Pillowfort - titianarchivist

Hi all! In case of tumblr apocalypse you can find me as titianarchivist at dreamwidth, pillowfort, and (most likely to actually be active) AO3.

I might make a flarping account at some point too. I have no plans to make a fandom twitter, but I’m open to joining discord servers.

I’ve been dumping my likes into the queue of a sideblog, @aestheteofrage, but if this account goes that goes too so that isn’t very helpful.

[image text: maybe there’s a plot path / bad end /unconventional good end where the pc gets too close to the nature god and becomes a sleepy photosynthetic plant person who’s in a constant state of dreamlike edging from the sunlight

bonus points if they wind up being on the council in their orgasmic tree person state, wherein their role is waking up rarely to say wise things]

ANYWAY IF YOU EVER WANTED AN EROTIC GAME WITH SUBVERSIVELY EMPOWERING BAD ENDS WE

are still in that amorphous period between concept stage and development stage where you write a bunch of stuff in a pre-code format and make spreadsheets and story outlines and stuff but

u can get eggpreg or infested with lewd parasites on purpose or inflict them on others or have potentially allergenic sex pollen flowers grow out of your arm, among other Fun Activities

all for high class aesthetique and metaphysical reasons of course

welcome to Carcosa

http://amberite.dreamwidth.org