15 years since I started this account
I don’t really use this anymore unless I’m feeling nostalgic and I can’t believe how much everything has changed. The age of this account is just about half my lifespan.
My life has changed so much since I was an angry teenager. I can’t even think of how many times I posted on here that I wanted to die. I wish I could hug my younger self and tell her it’s going to be okay. That it’s actually not her. It’s not her fault.
I wish I could show my younger self her future so she could just unclench her jaw for even a second. I want to show her that she gets to do so much. I want to show her all the cool places she’s going to travel to and live in. I wish I could tell her that her possibilities in life are endless.
I wish I could tell her to take care of herself. Because she doesn’t know she’s going to become an award-winning pastry chef with her own company, which means unfortunately, she doesn’t know that at the height of her career she’s going to get injured and have to stop baking forever. But it’s okay! You will heal! You will somehow get a corporate job that doesn’t even remotely stress her out.
I don’t know what my own future holds but I wish I could hug every past version of myself and tell them it’s going to be okay and we are so much stronger than we ever expected.
