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HAPPY AUGUST. I haven't really been able to blog about my life through music lately. All the experiences I have had has made me internalize my thoughts rather than writing it out lately. These past couple of months have been hard internally. There were days where I wanted to give up on myself, I felt neglected where no one loved me in the way I wanted to be loved (there are many ways to explain this concept in my head), and the uneasy thought of myself being alone in a country that I am not familiar with in 30 days. Scary? I don’t think scary can define the thoughts that are in my head every night before I sleep. Fortunately, there are days where I am able to get out of my funk and today is one of them. My experience at FYF last weekend helped me find my purpose in what I have been looking for these past couple of months: freedom within myself. Enjoying live music and just closing my eyes as my body naturally moves to the sounds was something I found so refreshing and that was the exact thing that I was looking for this whole summer, a free flow. These past couple of months have been constricting because I have given so much time to others rather than myself and I structured my life to have a strict objective on my day to day basis. I have been spending more time with myself this summer and it feels lonely at times, but I’m starting to embrace it now (again). This month’s playlist exemplifies how rejuvenated I feel and ready I am for the next chapter in my life (catch me at Italy, hopefully with Takis LOL). I am ready to let go and grasp a new experience that I was honestly not comfortable with partaking in a few weeks ago, but to let my life flow with no expectations (I just need to get my shit together for that to happen). Pray for me as this month will be a month of hardships and blessings.

Best,

Susan

Feeling extra thankful this week. Feeling thankful because of two reasons: Daylight savings beings this Friday (Spring forward motherfuckers woohoo!!!!) and the company I am so blessed to have. These past couple of weeks have been busy, hard, tiring and frustrating. I lowkey almost forgot myself and my purpose and what exactly my passion was. And it’s honestly tough now to live with no purpose. With two months of 2017 over, I already feel like so many events in my life have happened; both being good and bad. And now I sit at Portola doing Spanish homework (ugh this is so hip sorry LOL) just thinking about how so many individuals have impacted my life sooooosososososoooo much and they don’t even know it. Whether it be my family members (hey parentals), or SASA famz, my Greek famz, or my best friends from the homeland of BP (LOL), anybody I follow on a social media platform that will be undisclosed lol, or anybody that I have had the chance to have a conversation with, thank you. Thank you for being the subtle company that I need sometimes. Thanks for studying with me when I want to just watch Jane the Virgin. Thanks for listening to me whine all the fucking time. Thanks for actually laughing at my jokes LOL. Thanks for taking narcissistic quizzes about myself LOL. Thank you for always reminding me who I am and the individual I aspire to be. The small things are honestly beautiful and as of right now I’m feeling ok. And I’m going to embrace that I feel ok!!!!!! It’s honestly okay not to feel like your life is fulfilled to where you want it to be and honestly I’m never going to feel that way because I will always have a new goal everyday to strive for. From hating myself and my name to loving and embracing myself, it’s been a long journey lol. omg ok thanks for reading im a little to reflective rn LOL kbye (✿◠‿◠)

But enjoy the upbeat spring/summer tunes! It’s time to dance and not mope about finals!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KALI UCHIS - LONER

1. The last person you kissed screams they love you, you say… ~ YIKES lmao

2. Did you get to sleep in today? ~ yes

3. You never know what you got until you lose it? ~ true

4. Do you have siblings? ~ yes

5. How many kids do you want? ~ 3

6. Who was the last person you held hands with? ~ my niece my sister idk LOL

7. Did you stand on your tippy-toes for your last kiss? ~ idk LOL honestly im pissed i dont remember who i last kissed LMAO

8. Do you think if you died, the last person you kissed would care? ~ I DONT REMEMBER THE LAST PERSON I KISSED UGHHHH BUT PROBS!!!!

9. Last person to talk on the phone? ~ mom???? idk

10. Did anyone watch you the last time you kissed someone? ~ no

11. When’s your birthday? ~ February 7

12. Remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed? ~ on my BED I DONT KNOW .-.

13. What kind of phone do you have? ~ iPhone 6s

14. Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants? ~ a onesie LmAo

15. Are you a different person now than you were 5 years ago? ~ YES

16. What were you doing at 4 am? ~ sleeping?

17. Would you rather write a paper or give a speech? ~ depends on the topic

18. Are you lying to yourself about something? ~ probably

19. Last night you felt…? ~ cool

20. What’s something you cannot wait for? ~ going back to SChoOL or turning 21

21. Ever told your parents you were going somewhere but when somewhere different? ~ all the time when i was younger lmao 

22. How many hours of sleep did you get last night? ~ a lot

23. Are you a morning or night person? ~ night

24. What did you get your last bruise from? ~ i dont know where my last bruise was

25. Do you reply to all of your texts? ~ nope LmAO

26. Your phone is ringing. It’s the person you fell hardest for. What do you do? ~ YIKES keep it casual but be petty LOL

27. Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed? ~ probably LMAO

28. Anyone you would like to get things straight with? ~ YES!!!!!!

29. How many months until your birthday? ~ LESS THAN 2 FUCKCKACKKKKKK

30. Favorite thing to eat with peanut butter? ~ green apple

31. Did you like this past summer? ~ YES

32. What were you doing before you got on the computer? ~ went to target and bought a facial mask that i didn’t use LOL

33. Your ex is sitting next to you, with their new partner. What do you do? ~ talk to them both lmao

34. What is the last thing you said out loud? ~ “really”

35. Your mood summed into one word? ~ OK

36. Are you doing anything else besides taking this survey? ~ listening to feeling ok by Best Coast LmAO

37. What are your initials? ~ SMP

38. Are you a happy person? ~ for the most part lol

39. Do you still talk to the person you liked 4 months ago? ~ I DONT KNOW IF I LIKE HIM IVE BEEN CONFUSED FOR LIKE THE PAST 6 MONTHS

40. Where do you want to live when your older? ~ pasadena

41. Have you had your birthday this year? ~ yes

42. What did you do yesterday? ~ christmas

43. What will you be doing tomorrow? ~ tennis, then bday party

44. How late did you stay up last night? ~ like 3am

45. Is there anyone you would do anything for? ~ yes

46. Is it hard to make you laugh? ~ no i laugh at anything lmao

47. Do you believe ex’s can be just friends? ~ depends on the situation but yes but not like besties but more like acquaintances

48. Do you think any of your exes will eventually want to be with you again? ~ UGH

49. How many people have you had feelings for in the year of 2012? ~ like 1 idk

50. Do you wish your ex was dead? ~ sometimes

51. Have you ever dyed your hair? ~ yeas

52. Would ever take back someone that cheated? ~ NO

53. Was New Year’s Even enjoyable? ~ i dont remember

54. Bet you’re missing someone right now? ~ yes

55. How would your parents react if you got a tattoo? ~ they’d be mad

56. Sleep on your back or stomach? ~ back

57. If you could move away, no questions asked, where would it be ? ~ ooooh idk im ok with where im at lmao

58. What would you change about your life right now? ~ boif probs LMAO

59. Has anything upset you in the past week? ~ i think so

60. Are you on the phone? ~ no

61. Today, would you rather go forward a week or back? ~ forward

62. Would you take $40,000 or a brand new car? ~ $40,000

63. Have you ever talked to someone when they were high? ~ yeah

64. Ever cried while you were on the phone with someone? ~ yes

65. Have you ever copied someone else’s homework? ~ yeah

66. Are you the type of person who liks to be out or at home? ~ home

67. Do you automatically check your phone when you wake up? ~ yeah

68. Have you ever stayed up all night on the phone? ~ yeah

69. Could you use some sleep right now? ~ a little

70. Are you going to have a baby by the time you’re 18? ~ no

71. Does it bother you when someone hides things from you? ~ yes

72. What’s your favorite color? ~ white

73. Have you ever slept in the same room with someone you liked? ~ yes

74. Have you ever been looking for something and it was already in your hand? ~ yes

75. Do you get annoyed easily? ~ depends who

76. If someone liked you, would you want them to tell you? ~ YES

77. Do you have a person of the opposite sex that you can tell everything to? ~ yes

78. Does anyone call you babe? ~ no

79. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? ~ like 4.......lemme think lemme think ok 4 or 5 lmao actually like 6

80. What do you prefer, relationship or one night stand? ~ relationships, but one night stands with cute boys are fun too lmao

81. What colour hoodie did you wear last? ~ green

Do you swear to tell the whole truth and nothing but the truth? yes Where were you last night? i was chillen at home with fam and i finished Samurai Champloo cries What is today’s date? December 27 Who was the last person to call you baby/babe? yikes idk lmao When you’re at the grocery store do you use the self check-out? yes, but it has gotten annoying since the new proposition passed because the self checkout machine doesnt know and so the keep asking if i wanna bag my item and i obviously can’t bag my item if i don’t have bags and i’m not willing to buy them??? Anyone crushing on you? idk guys are fucking stupid What is your relationship status? single Who do you text the most? hard question i rarely text people :/ How do you make your money? graphic design shits LMAO How do you feel right now? ok

Do you look more like your mom or dad? mom Are you scared of flying? YES Is there something bothering you right now? a little

Where do you wanna go for vacation? italy Who last sent you a text msg? jocelyn What would you say is your favorite food? cinnamon rolls What color is the keyboard you are currently using? black Would you rather write a report or type it on a computer? type What color was the last jacket or hoodie you wore? yellow and orange LOL Do you receive more compliments or insults on a daily basis? compliments Do you own any dresses? If so, what colors are they? yes, too many colors Would you say you drink more pop / soda than you should? no i hate soda Do you have your ears pierced? If not, what do you have pierced? yes, i have like 10 piercings

the person i like and why i like them. ok i dont even know if i like this individual because idk???? like one day i think he’s interested and then one day he’s salty and im like uh wtf do you like me or not? and if hes not interested idk if i should be interested idk? hes a cool dude and all but if he doesnt try idk if i should try because i honestly dont know if i want to pursue any relationship and idk if im heart eyes and honestly i dont think im heart eyes??? idk I DONT knOW a famous person i’ve been compared to. fuck idk Guy Fieri the best thing that has happened to me this week. seeing my dad happy something that makes me sad when i think about it. my dad talking about my mom

something i do without realising. take a nap lol

lyrics that apply to my current situation/mood. Wake up, you know I feel ok Go to sleep, it's just another day I know, someday I'll find it Where I, I least expect it post a picture of myself. no thanks my longest relationship and who it was with. 3 y someone i’d like to be for a day and why. Justin Baldoni’s wife just so i can fuck him LMAO

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OMG HELLO AGAINNNNNNNN LONG TIME NO TALK! I haven’t written anything on this blog for such a long time, I am sorry. I am still making playlists on the weekly basis, so check it out at https://soundcloud.com/susan-phommasak! I just curate anything that fits my mood for the week, so enjoy that! BUT YAAAA 2016 has been the year of emerging producers and artists and I’ve been listening to new content right and left, but I still find myself going back to old things, so I’m going to mention some notable albums that I really loved even though it was not newly released this year hehe. BUT YEAH KEEP READING IF YOU WANNA KNOW HOW MY 2016 WENT DOWN!

Sincerely,

Susan

Greetings and salutations,

I’m sorry for being MIA on the blog :/ I’ve been really busy and just haven’t had the time to post any playlists via Tumblr or any of my summer ventures with music. Don’t think I’m writing anything tonight due for a  Fast and Furious marathon (LOL), but it’ll come soon, I promise! <3

Sincerely,

Susan

Greetings and Salutations!

Can you believe it? I can't. It's actually been a good ol' year since I have started this blog. I've been really shitty updating it, but hey it's still alive! Here's some summer tunes and more posts coming up soon!

FAVES.

March 1, 2016

THE DRUMS

Sincerely,

I STAY FANGIRLING FOR SOSUPERSAM

TSOT 5 YEAR ANNIVERSARY

MARCH 4, 2016

MORE DETAILS TO COME

Sincerely,

March 26, 2016

AMPLIFY 2016 Featuring: Chainsmokers, DJ Snake, and Dillon Francis (woohoo!) More details of that night to come! :)

Sincerely,