random night i suddenly blocked most of my closest moots

what do i even say?? yea i miss u too, i've already come to conclude that i regret it. if u hadn't noticed i'd have undone it a few days later. and hypothetically i could give it a shot n reach out first n apologize n fix it now. or at least give u a parting msg for closure. but i won't.. because i'm a coward. still undone it but ball's in ur court if u wanna reach out (contrary to the defensive shit i thought b4, i wouldn't blame u for not doing shit since i did technically abandon u. it was actually just about me & abandoning my own life but how would u know that if i never said it)

even though i did it, i wanted to take it back by the next day. but it felt too late. feels like everyone already hates me for it (and at the end of it all they're completely valid for it)