Mary

Hi, so also bpd, I’m just wondering if you’ve been Medicated at all? I know how hard it is to live with this disability. It’s not easy, but I will say there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I made it there, and I hope you can too because I don’t want to see others like myself take the path to no return when I’ve learned what I’ve learned. There are still hard days, but I’ve made it so far as to not let my mind be in control. I don’t know how old you are, but I’m in my mid 30s now. I didn’t get diagnosed until I was 30 and at my worst. It feels like everything and everyone is against you, and the paranoia could eat you alive. Your own brain is the enemy half the time if not all of the time. I am sure this sounds like preachy or whatever, but I just wanted to give you some home from one borderline to another. I still crave human connection in a way others don’t understand because of the abandonment, but I’ve found those who appreciate the type of love and caring I give who don’t take advantage of it. I learned my boundaries and my worth, which sometimes is still hard to keep in mind that I have so much worth and value in this world, regardless of how small others have made me felt. You do too. ❤️

Is it that hard to just notify when you're not doing well and need some time and space instead of just disappearing?

Having a favorite person is literally a living hell for both sides... Like-

"Your mom does love you… She just doesn’t know how to handle stress, and maybe she feels comfortable enough with you that she uses you as a place to dump all that stress."