Sickened Sweetheart

I’m so disconnected from penetrative masturbation i’m like why are you guys putting fingers up your own pussy are you judt checking.

somnophillia is super funny like im honk shoo honk shoo having a good nights sleep and now you must pass the ultimate test of fucking me without waking me by knocking something over or stepping on a crisp packet i've left on my floor. can you finish your mission while my pet geckos judge you from their tanks? because they're not leaving the room okay the geckos stay in here. also the markiplier fnaf playlist stays on. i sleep better when he's screaming.

all kink stuff is playing pretend but with somno you're not playing pretend you're locked in you're comfy cozy you're snug as a bug in a rug and your partner is playing pretend instead

and like. if you're the one awake you're playing pretend so hard right now like ouuuuhhh look at me i'm a scary evil intruder or a demon or vampire or whatever we're doing tonight and now i just have to uhhhh okay shimmy the duvet off and shhh dontfucking breathe so loud and okayyyyy alright now. ah shit they're sleeping in the family guy death pose how the fuck do i get in there how. how do i. help. why are these geckos looking at me.

plus you have to not get too scared when freddy fazbear jumpscares you or else you're waking them up with your screams

oh great and this guy's here in the cuck box wondering if the screaming is me waking up or markiplier dying or toy bonnie throwing a tantrum

"Anti kink this" "Anti kink that" my brother in Christ you are so obsessed with what people are doing in the bedroom it comes off as voyeurism

i am very much a "pillow princess" for a lot of fetish things. the opposite of a stone bottom butch. i often feel like i have been put in the position where i am someone's "dominant" against my will so many times that it's not appealing to me anymore despite definitely having scenarios or fantasies that i enjoy that allow me to be. this also makes it pretty hard for me to engage with porn. it's hard for me to find pictures of say, someone having their feet touched or licked or paid attention to without the person who's getting that attention also being smarmy, or "dominant" about it. so many pieces of them insulting the person doing the action, or talking about how disgusting it is, or looking grossed out, or acting as if they're better than the other person. it really turns me off. it convinces me that the desire is "transactional." to get someone who WANTS to do those things for me, it implies i also have to be with someone who gets off to how "gross" it is, who NEEDS me to be mean to them for them to enjoy it. i hate that. it feels like the same type of fetishization everyone else has put me through. implies i'm not allowed to want something without also being like a Big Mean Butch Strong Dom Mommy Who Hates You.

so much feeder stuff focused on the idea of how gross being fat is, or how unpleasant it is, or how shameful it is. so much of it focused on peoples reactions or anger or upset. so much foot stuff focused on how disgusting feet are, how gross and unsanitary they are and how NO ONE would EVER find them attractive. so much hypno stuff focused on brainwashing you out of your politics, making you identify with patriarchal white supremacists beliefs. so much fetishism focused on the plastic surgery industry, or becoming "more conventionally attractive." so much hypno stuff based on shaming you, or turning you into something you're terribly ashamed to be (always fatphobic or homophobic or body shaming.) it's just really...... like it really puts me off in a lot of ways and makes a lot of porn essentially inaccessible to me.

so much feeder stuff focused on the idea of how gross being fat is, or how unpleasant it is, or how shameful it is. so much of it focused on peoples reactions or anger or upset. so much foot stuff focused on how disgusting feet are, how gross and unsanitary they are and how NO ONE would EVER find them attractive. so much hypno stuff focused on brainwashing you out of your politics, making you identify with patriarchal white supremacists beliefs. so much fetishism focused on the plastic surgery industry, or becoming "more conventionally attractive." so much hypno stuff based on shaming you, or turning you into something you're terribly ashamed to be (always fatphobic or homophobic or body shaming.) it's just really...... like it really puts me off in a lot of ways and makes a lot of porn essentially inaccessible to me.

pee stuff to. the enjoyment of making someone pee themselves is always focused on shame and gross out disgust and whatever and its like bro can we just have fun. can we just play. wtf is your fucking problem. you made me piss myself and now youre calling me gross? youre acting like im a child? YOU did that. i did that FOR you. PLAY WITH ME. ATTACKS KILLS.

i guess i wish that more porn existed within a Porn Universe. you know what i mean? i want hucow stuff thats as "casual embarrassing/casual bullying" as getting tickled. i want more stuff that DOES feel like play. and while furry stuff has that a LOT in it, i also... am not really attracted to furries. i am attracted to real people.

btw it's so fucking stupid you can be anxious physically in your body even after you've decided mentally you don't care. I'm supposed to be in charge here

i really like living clothes. portal clothes. especially undergarments. underwear thats really a mimic sucking your thang. a hat thats really a creature that mind controls you. a bra thats actually a portal and wherever it leads to, something keeps touching you.

dirk strider pissing himself because hes too much of A Man to admit he needs a pee break and he drank too many sodas

jakes really getting a kick out of being the one controlling dirks shame and embarrassment this time instead of the other way around he had no idea it'd be this easy. surely if his bro REALLY needed to take a piss he'd get up and do it, what is he, chicken? hey lets both shotgun one of these at the same time and see who finishes first!

Sometimes I get so horny I actually touch myself sexually

dirk strider pissing himself because hes too much of A Man to admit he needs a pee break and he drank too many sodas