when i grow up

i hate that im on here everyday now just doing whatever because i cant handle the space im in. im so very over this shit. i cant do this anymore. i want to be happy and this person doesnt make me happy anymor.e 

I am so incredibly unhappy and so incredibly lonely and I ansolutely hate evrything about my life. 

I am so beyond frustrated and just fucking done. i legitimately want to be done with everything i am so done. i hate my fucking life. I hate that I love someone who doesn't give a fuck about me. I hate that I don’t know how to walk away. .I hate that I don’t have anyone to talk to. I hate so many of the circumstances that have made me who I am right now. I am so bothered. I am so hurt. When I was young and I used to think about my life it was never like this. I used to be strong, I used to be independent. I hate that my self-worth is tied into other people and their opinions of me. I want to get back to the girl that was fearless and bold and loved hard with no inhibitions. I am exceptional and one day someone is going to acknowledge me as such.