Life Update:
A lot has happened since my last post in 2018. I was in a relationship with a guy who was a little bit older than me, I loved him so much that it tore me apart. It got to the point where I was crying almost every night. We had dreams of settling down, starting a family and getting married. Unfortunately these were only just dreams. One day he told me he wanted a break, and demanded I leave him alone until he returned from his lads holiday. It became apparent he was looking to cheat guilt free as my friends discovered his new tinder account. We broke up.
In the 6 years apart we had one failed reconciliation, I had dated two others, one being a much needed rebound that lasted only a year and my now ex fiancé, and this got me thinking, where is my ex? It turns out he's now happily married living out the life we planned together with someone else.
It's crazy how life works out. One day you're in your early 20's madly in love, the next thing you know you're a few years away from 30 wondering why you never got your fairytale ending, what life would have been like if you just made that toxic relationship work, because if it wasn't for the old messages and screenshots, you wouldn't have even realised just how toxic it was.
Time heals most wounds, but sometimes it makes them worse, time made me forget just how damaging my ex was for me, to the point I started to miss him. I don't know, I'm just thinking out loud.
