Gauri ♡

School life? One of his own friends betrayed him and the other two.

Love life? Never mentioned.

Family? Ousted him, disowned him and burned his photo from the family tree.

Majority of his life? Spent in Azkaban.

Only dream after escaping the prison? To have a normal life with his godson and he still didn't get that.

So the only comfort he ever got was the time he spent on his friends (Potter's) couch? How long was it anyway and not that it's surely mentioned.

You all can love and justify Malfoy's behavior all you want and no hate to him but it will always be Sirius Black for me.

nor you are the first person

I wished of forever with.

We have both loved and lost

and kissed with bruises on our lips.

I know loss like the back of my hand,

you look at me with strickening fear of grief precedent.

Yet our love crept amidst chaos

not in the darkness of night

to mask my loneliness.

That is how i knew,

every kiss tasted like forgiveness.

You cling to me like I'm your last hope.

I write sonnets where you bled once,

you stitch my heart back into one.

You sit there still,

outside my room of grief,

treating one wound at a time,

while i perform autopsy on memories of past lovers.

You're not afraid of my scars,

Mother, I did the dishes

Scrubbed them clean

Until my hands reeked of nothing but soap and regret.

As if those shining plates

could guarantee your forgiveness

for every test i took and failed,

ones that i lost to helplessness of my young age.

Last night

Your voice crashed with the door of your room

opening and closing for 16-

no, 18 times.

Accusing voices of you and father

fighting a war older than me

yet, no flag waved in sight for twenty-five years.

You picked a cheater,

called him a human,

dressed him as your husband

in front of others,

fed him forgiveness and love,

gulping his lies down your throat

All that, just for the show.

But he was just infidelity in person

behind closed doors.

Mother, I needed someone to fight for me,

maybe, I needed you.

He kept betraying

and you kept forgetting,

choosing a monster over me,

the one, only you couldn't see.

You saved your marriage,

perhaps that is good,

perhaps that is what adults are supposed to do.

But mother-

I was just a child,

not a wife,

and i needed saving too.

जब वो गुस्से में सारा घर

सिर पर उठा लेने वाला,

किसी की भी बात

ना मानने वाला,

मेरे आगे झुक कर सारी

शर्तें स्वीकारता है,

बिना शिकायत मेरी हर

जिद को मानता है,

वो जानता है,

मैं नासमझ हूँ थोड़ी,

इसलिए बिना कहे मेरी

हर बात जान लेता है |

कब, कहाँ, किससे, क्या

कहना है,

सब पता है उसे,

फिर भी मेरी बातें

चुपचाप सुनता है |

उसके हाथ में त्रिशूल,

सिर पर चन्द्रमा नहीं,

फिर भी अर्धनारीश्वर सा

अपनाता है मुझे |

मेरे सोलह सोमवार के व्रत सा दिखने वाला,

हर ज़हर मेरे लिए पी जाता है,

कभी एक जगह स्थिर न रहने वाला,

मेरे माथे पर वो चाँद सा ठहरता है,

शायद इसलिए मुझे उसमें अपने शिव दिखाई देते हैं |