This is Me

I said last week I was still here. By Friday, that apparently included dancing in my parents’ living room until the early hours and ignoring every warning sign my body tried to give me. Friday started off very civilised, which in hindsight should have been a warning. Dinner with my parents, all very normal behaviour. Then somehow it escalated into dancing around their living room like we’d…

Spring is here and it feels like a good time for a proper catch-up. Before anything else, a quick recap of 2025… because honestly, it explains a lot. A rogue tooth decided to become the main character for a good chunk of the year. What started as “a bit of toothache” turned into months of pain, far too many painkillers and multiple dentist visits before I finally had it removed in July. A…

I miss me. I miss the me that felt full of life, the me that loved seeing people, going out, working in the city. The me that felt alive. The me at the moment, the me in the middle, if you will, struggles to leave the house to send a parcel, seeing people feels like a huge mental effort, working outside of the home fills me with a dread I don’t even understand. I feel like half a human most of…

I’ve been peeping behind the curtain of writing these blog posts again. I’ve toyed with the idea of starting a whole new page where I’m completely anonymous but I spent so long building this little blog, it seemed wrong to abandon it. Just because I’ve changed, it doesn’t mean that my blog can’t. Instead, I’ve decided that, for now, I want to keep the posts off of social media and keep to my…

I’ve written what feels like 7,000 drafts of blog posts over the last few weeks, and honestly, they all read like they were written by 7,000 different people. That’s what this rollercoaster of hormones does—it makes me feel like a different person every single day. Right now, in this moment, I’m furious. Furious at this whole menopause shit. Furious that I still haven’t heard back about my…

Last Sunday, I was bored.  I’d had a busy week and was really looking forward to having an entire weekend with the husband. We haven’t had a weekend of no plans since before our holiday in July. We were going to pop out to a few places, nothing too exciting, and I couldn’t wait.  Then the lurgy struck our house yet again. Thankfully, it wasn’t me this time. I don’t think  I would have coped…

It’s been way too long since I’ve posted a blog! I’ve written so many but never taken the time to publish them for one reason or another.  So, I thought I’d squeeze in one last 2024 blog post and not break the tradition of sharing my end-of-year reflection. I thought long and hard (about 5 minutes) to think of a word to sum up 2024. My initial thought was “Bleugh” because whilst it felt full of…

Happy New Year! 🥳 2025 is here, and if the social media posts were anything to go by, most people are glad to see the back of 2024, myself included. It’s funny because we all know we are the same people dealing with the same problems. Our troubles don’t vanish as soon as the clock strikes twelve. Yet, for many of us, the new year brings hope. Hope of less of what didn’t make the last year…

Today is the 8th Birthday of my little blog! Can you believe it?! So much has happened since I started writing this back in 2017! I got married, changed jobs, got the Tobes, and started a business.  This started as a hobby, something to do on my commute, but honestly, it has helped me learn so much about myself. Of course, I’m still learning, and I don’t think that will ever stop. At the time…

Hello Lovelies, Some weeks, I struggle for topics to write about, and sometimes a giant ball of inspiration strikes me out of nowhere. This week, it was definitely the latter. I’ve mentioned before that I’ve been part of Respin, and this week marked our final coaching session as BETA testers. As I listened to these incredible women sharing their updates, it hit me hard. For so long, I’ve been…

Last week I shared my June & July reflections and now we are in September I thought I would catch you up. When I started my notes for this post, I was still in Turkey, and the feelings of hope were yet to find me. My notes began with me being pissed off because a complete stranger, a man, had the audacity to make my uterus his business. Whilst minding my own business on the beach one morning,…

Admittedly, I’ve been slack in my blogging. I started the year off, as I always do, with grand plans of what and how I will be this year and of course it never pans out as I imagine. But I always find time to write when away on holiday, without the call of the washing machine, dishwasher, work or all the other daily tasks that need my attention. This time, though, my mojo eluded me, and it…

Hello lovelies, Last week, I read something in Amanda Goetz’s Life’s a Game weekly newsletter that really struck me. It’s no secret to my regular readers that I suffer from low self-esteem and self-doubt. Since starting HRT, things have improved, but I’m still working through it with my therapist. When I read Amanda’s email, her message hit me hard. I’ve seen similar quotes before but never…

Hello lovelies, I’m so sorry that my usual blog posts have been AWOL recently. Its been such a whirlwind! Before the lurgy had even left the building I began getting more work at Clare H Writes which is really exciting! I’ve been writing bits and bobs for my blog page on the side, but I haven’t had the time to give it the full attention it deserves. The good news is, I’ll be going on holiday…

Hello lovelies, The lurgy has continued into this week, not ideal in our mini British heatwave, but hey ho! I’m excited to share another post from my business page. If you know anyone who might benefit from my services, please do share this with them. Hopefully normal blogging can resume next week!  Last week, I introduced my new Business Support Services alongside my existing copywriting…

Just as I thought things were getting back to normal, life and the lurgy got in the way. I’ve been feeling too unwell to even write and I didn’t just want to throw some half assed blog post out there just for the sake of it. Instead, I thought I would share a post from my business page and if you want to help my little business grow, please do share!  Exciting News – Your Business BFF Just Got…

Hi lovelies, I’ve been so busy working that I completely missed my April check-in! 😅 To make up for it, this week, you’re getting a two-for-one blog post where I combine updates from both April and May. What’s New? The biggest highlight is undoubtedly my business website. I am so proud of what I’ve achieved. Challenges Overcome Didn’t rush just to tick things off my list. I resisted…