i h̶a̶t̶e̶ like my body

Zucchini noodles with tomato paste (100)

Spinach and chickpea rice wrap (90)

Cucumber and hummus (110)

Medium sized egg poached (73)

Protein One bars (90)

Small portion egg drop soup (105)

Steamed cauliflower rice w/veg (120)

Boca "chicken" nuggets w/ mustard (160)

Sugar free flavoring in almond milk (55)

Spinach, black bean, and vinegerette salad (150)

Celery sticks w/ low fat cottage cheese (92)

1/2 Naan dipped in Tikka Masala (200)

Protein shake in almond milk (140)

Fiber one brownies (70)

I went out to eat and got something I've never head before and the shitty menu didn't list calories but I guessed it was like 800 which would have been fine (bc I wasn't going to eat for the rest of the day) but later I looked it up and that motherfucker was

1,450 CALORIES

Thats fucking:

Insane

250 over my highest planned days

Nauseating

But wait, there's more. . .

So I tell myself that I'm not going to eat for the rest of the day at all and what do I do? Binge on 780 calories like a fucking fatass.

So I went on a long run, cleaned for an hour and will probably do some home workouts. However, with my BMR and exercise subtracted I only went 283 calories over my total expenditure which is less than 10% of a pound of fat so I think I'll be okay.

I decided that I'd do a 24h fast and go for both a walk with my dog and a run tomorrow to for sure put me in the negative.

https://vm.tiktok.com/J6PXnfQ/

Breakfast:

Coffee with creamer (30)

1 egg (63)

Total: 156

Lunch:

Panda Express veggies and half serving of rice (165)

Total: 165

Dinner:

Two slices of cheese pizza (500)

Three stouts (660)

Total: 1,160

Snacks:

Coffee with creamer (15)

Total: 15

Exercise: 0

Net calories: 1516

I had a great fucking day today. Somewhere after lunch my mindset shifted and I had a blast with my co-workers today. I laughed so much my stomach hurt and sand along to some jams with three of my co-workers.

After work I just. . .idk. I felt so sad that I'd been restricting so much the last few days and I decided that I was going to binge in a healthy way. I don't want to eat like this all the time but I got my Forbidden Beer and a cheese pizza. I just wanted to feel full and happy. I worked late, so I just spent time after dinner watching funny tiktoks and enjoying the moment.

Day 2: