I was slacking for a while. Maintained a 5lbs loss for about a month, but I'd spike up and now multiple lbs a week. Finally I got my shit together. The past 3 days I've lost 5 lbs. The best part is I'm not even hungry. My sadness, confusion about my feelings, and keeping busy has helped. Hit my first goal. Can't wait to see him again in May. I don't want him back, i want him to see why he should continue to be sad he fucked up.
Random unrelated life rant following. Feel free to ignore just like to keep a diary of events for myself:
Side note, I may have cancer. I have another tumor. Haven't told anyone but I can feel it in my lymph nodes. Last year I had a growth behind my ear. Went to the derm and she told me it was a cyst. I had researched it a lot beforehand and told her I thought it was a tumor. Sent me to a surgeon because regardless, the cyst was big enough to warrant it.
Surgeon told me the day of that it didn't look that big. I should just leave it and go home. I told him I was already there so might as well do it. I'm awake for the procedure. As soon as he cuts me open he states that it's not a cyst. It's in fact a tumor on my lymph nodes. Removed part of my lymph nodes and the tumor. It comes back as benign.
Fast forward to a few days ago, I felt another bump behind my other ear. Could be a cyst, but I really believe it's a tumor again. I've never had a cyst though so I'm not sure. I haven't been feeling well for about a year now. It's weird it keeps happening. I don't even have time to get it check out as I have so much to do.
