Let me make a few things clear here. First off, I am logging back onto this account to make an out of character comment. Something I thoroughly dislike doing. And being involved with the muck of this website and then this website’s role-playing community actually angers me.
But I would like to talk to you. To discredit your ideas of being stalked, victimized, or hurt? No. Irregardless of if those happened, I was involved with almost all the people you believed were tormenting you. Every one of them. Talking them through you.
Through your passive-aggression.
Through some actual aggression.
Through petty comments and knowing goads at them.
Did you really go to the hospital? Did you starve yourself out of anxiety and fear? Were you hounded by the dogs of war whom howled and bit at your ankles? Did you do nothing to provoke possible reactions?
I read many of your posts. With no tags and many deleted. You were aware of those watching you and aware of a loyal follower base you have. They help you through much. But if you truly were being attacked, dogged, and abused, did you ever reach out to these people to ask them to stop?
Before you respond, you did not. You continued passive tirades with no tags to allow yourself the ability to deny responsibility. I sat and watched as your words deconstructed and brought down people who wanted nothing to do with you.
Watched you set off depressions and anxieties these people never knew they had. Discussed the issues thoroughly and encouraged people to leave this site to avoid individuals like you. However, you were active and influential. That is a dangerous combination.
But let me make something very clear you- you are a bully. You have knowingly used that heft you have to chase people off this website, ruin the desire of writing many have had, and then cry victim when people have turned to say something.
And yes, I’ve watched you do it. You’ve been manipulative, undermining those you disliked for the sole purpose of? Making them paranoid and sleepless?
If these people you speak of were able to send you to the hospital because of being so nerve-wracked, then something went wrong. You should have reached out to them. And don’t tell me you did. You were eighteen, you hyped up that fact clearly. Eighteen year-olds do not make good decisions and rarely make diplomatic moves. And considering the people it was based with, no, you really didn’t.
I will not talk away from the idea you might have been hospitalized and afraid and sick, but that was a beast of burden you put on yourself. So you sit there, insulting and condemning. You, ma’am, are by no means an innocent victim in an intricate plot to tear you down. You are a bully. A bully with imaginary weight to throw around.
And for the last two years, you have bullied people and gotten away with it. Yes, you are a hypocrite, that is a fact. But your hypocrisy isn’t the issue. The issue is your terrible attitude and lack of care for others.
At the end of the day, I do not care about you. You do not matter to me. You are not something that keeps me up at night, ruins my day, or even crosses my eyes. You did now because you’re up to tricks you stopped a while back and have been relatively quiet on.
But it’s individuals like you that have added to the toxicity of this website, and the destruction of the role-playing community on it. One that does not acknowledge the damage it does and doesn’t care inversely.
So as you take hiatus, threaten to delete your blog, make passive-aggressive statements to defend yourself, remember this: If you feel like you weren’t going to reply to that comment, you could have.
You could have walked away and not drawn any attention to that post. That would have been the worst thing to do, completely ignore others. You could have taken that privately, unleashed thoughts outside of view and settle this behind closed doors. But you didn’t.
You posted in public. Reblogging the ‘Read More’ and putting several tags (Including the ‘deleting blog’ comment). Why did you do that? To defend yourself? No. To create attention and support for yourself. To allow others to give you encouragement and false love.
You have done this a lot. And you aren’t even the worst individual of this trend I have seen in the time I’ve been here, let alone time I’ve RPed. So before I log off again with no intention to come back, keep in mind, everything you’ve done here has been a grab for attention that has hurt someone. You have trampled under foot those meeker than you. Those whom have kept still their hands (and OH YES, they have). Where you have made nasty comments, threats, and power plays. You have whined about what has happened to you and used it to garner attention. Yet they have remained silent and sat their turn.
And it’s their turn. Enjoy.
