The Universal Scat

Life is to short to not dream.

For so long I have pushed my desires aside for fear of judgment and pushback, but it only served to hurt me more. And waiting for someone to save me, or discover my worth didn’t work either. There are so many facets of me still left unexplored. And my goal is to find out more about myself through them.

Relying on the outside to show up the way you want it to is a very tenuous way to go about life. It is not a sure fired way to succeed, it just serves to be an unreliable way of attempting to feel good. Relying on outcome and others, holds no stability, no consistency, and no accountability. The only person that can do that is yourself.

I am the only person I can rely on for a true, and honest result of happiness. And the fact that I’ve been suppressing my own dreams just to save face is something I can’t live with anymore.

So I will dream. And I will try new things and go back to old things that I connected to in the past. But I refuse engage with them in the same way. I will be honest about the things that I want and that I feel that I deserve. I will find my soul family. I will work happily, and with people who are trustworthy and kind, and who honestly support me, and who believe in my abilities and potential. I will find and connect with these people. But first, I will find and connect to that part of me again.

If other people can dream, why can’t I? If other people can have things that they want, then why can’t I, regardless of how they view me and what kind of perceived success and prestige they may have? I am human, and I am the same as anyone else. My feelings are valid. And I can give myself permission to feel good about the things I love to do again, regardless of the circumstances I find myself in, and how disconnected I am from my goals.