The Universal Scat

You must understand first the principles of order. The order of social hierarchy. The principles of kindness no longer apply to the world as we see it today when we are being controlled by persistent orders of fear based theories and practices. The fact is that we love being told what to do and when, allowing others to choose our destiny’s and following that we become subject to our own powerlessness. It’s easier to allow the tyrannical nature of humans to dictate our own lives and make our decisions so we don’t have to be accountable. Understandably so. The fear based have a solid plan, an agenda for the righteous. But in actuality the only people who benefit from these policies and actions are those who control, and wield the power.

Otherwise known as complimentary synergetic, symbiotic behavior, the yin and yang of social injustice, the codependency cycle of social behavior. There must be a winner, and a loser. The winner has the power, and the loser complies to the winner however irrational and cruel the ask is.

But it’s not always this cut and dry. They gain power in other ways as well. They coerce people into believing the promise of kindness. The promise of respect in exchange for their loyalty, the promise of love. And they dangle it, like a moldy, rotten carrot, dragging one who agrees along for a very lengthy and painful ride through the rocky terrain. Waiting, is the enemy of a person who wants to live. But hopefulness, is a powerful tool and weapon for the dictator of one who wants to remain in control no matter the cost to other’s lives. Leeching off the innocent, filling them with lies and empty vows, making them the patsies and the enemy is the key to survival and ultimately to victory and success. Winning is the key.

Tyrannical behavior has not died off entirely, unfortunately, (1527, the time of his death) after Machiavellian times. But it has become more than slightly obsolete to those who wish to live happily. And there is a reason why it’s so outdated. Because the people who abide by this ideology are misguided and miserable in their lack of love.

Regardless of the people who currently choose to traverse life in this fashion, in this day and age we, as a more conscious, civilized and responsible society, have more of an awareness of what true freedom is now. And that awakening into awareness has allowed us to rise above and live in a society where people get to choose how they want to feel, others forced opinions and actions be damned.

Let the Machiavellians live in their vapid power hungry black holes in which they can never fill or be truly satisfied. We have a choice in how we want to feel, and THAT, no one can usurp with the exception of ourselves, no matter how much form, or prestige, or influence they may be perceived to attain. We control our connection to the ultimate power from within ourselves; and that is our power of focus.

No one has control over how you feel. And that how you act in accordance to your feelings will lead you to the true freedom that every human being desires. It doesn’t lie in the acquisition of power, control or form. It lies in the ability to open yourself up to a greater source, and that source is where everything in the world is at peace, including you.

Do not allow the people who choose this either consciously or unconsciously to dictate how you feel about yourself if it’s to the detriment of you or others. No one has that kind of power unless you hand it over to them.

And don’t sit there waiting, wasting your life while you watch other people live, for someone to follow through with empty promises, no matter how sweet the faux offer, because they don’t want to. And they won’t do it. It’s a tactic to control. They may try to keep you on the back burner or no burner at all as a back up plan. Give yourself permission to live a full life NOW. Do not allow others to deplete your energy. If you have given a lot, allow yourself to give freely and move forward without the need for a mutual energy exchange. The need for a specific outcome from another or a situation looking and being a specific way THAT is what is holding you back from feeling good in the present moment. And you are the one who can make the change for the better, not anyone else. Do not wait around for someone else’s action or inaction to dictate the change. You make the change.

Feel into the love that is you now, and eventually you will become so engrossed in that feeling, the experience of feeling good, that you will look back (or not because you’ll be so happy why bother?) and realize that really what you were looking for all along was the love, now. Right now. Don’t hold yourself at bay to it. Because love is not a threat. Love is what we all need, no matter how we try to convince ourselves otherwise. 💗

Usually I allow the family or the individual to choose how much the information I can provide means to them, and they choose the best price that they can afford to pay. It seemed like a fair compromise, but now I’m not so sure.

I don’t feel the need to share that with everyone usually, because if you can afford the initial price I’m asking, and agree to it, then it’s a fair and even exchange. I feel like it’s a strong indicator of how much you value the service, and how much you’re willing to invest in it, and yourself.

Personally I feel like the price I initially ask for is well under what I’m worth to begin with for the amount of energy, experience, and focus I invest. The price I charge currently is what I was paying 20 years ago with my old teacher. She would incrementally increase the price yearly. I’ve never done that with anyone. I’ve noticed a pattern with myself that I have had a hard time standing up for what I’m worth.

Work, when it’s so personal, and so much a part of your individual creativity, is hard to put a price on. And to get people to see the value in what you do is also subjective.

You can be the best teacher, say and follow through with all the right things to garner true, real, stunningly amazing results. You can be the kindest, the most supportive and thoughtful person but you can’t necessarily get others to see it, and value it.

It’s also not my goal to keep students forever. I tell them that all the time. I’m not trying to milk them for money, or make them think that they can only do it with me helping them get there. My goal to get them stable on their own feet in the practice, so that they can see the value of the effort that we co-created together, in themselves.

I don’t have as many students anymore as I once did. Time has passed, and people value different things to invest in. And I understand that. What I don’t understand is some individual’s need to be cruel as they go.

One student I had just left for college abroad. I noticed that it was the first time I actually felt good about the parting of ways. She was honest and respectful. She appreciated my efforts as a teacher, and was mindful about how she left. I appreciated that. It makes the parting of ways so much easier. Paving your way with love always does that.

So, as I look for my next step forward, I will take it all into consideration. I will be mindful of my worth, knowing that I don’t need to give myself away; because my time and energy are valuable and important to me. And I can be kind and appreciative of those who work hard with me to create something deeper within themselves.

Life is to short to not dream.

For so long I have pushed my desires aside for fear of judgment and pushback, but it only served to hurt me more. And waiting for someone to save me, or discover my worth didn’t work either. There are so many facets of me still left unexplored. And my goal is to find out more about myself through them.

Relying on the outside to show up the way you want it to is a very tenuous way to go about life. It is not a sure fired way to succeed, it just serves to be an unreliable way of attempting to feel good. Relying on outcome and others, holds no stability, no consistency, and no accountability. The only person that can do that is yourself.

I am the only person I can rely on for a true, and honest result of happiness. And the fact that I’ve been suppressing my own dreams just to save face is something I can’t live with anymore.

So I will dream. And I will try new things and go back to old things that I connected to in the past. But I refuse engage with them in the same way. I will be honest about the things that I want and that I feel that I deserve. I will find my soul family. I will work happily, and with people who are trustworthy and kind, and who honestly support me, and who believe in my abilities and potential. I will find and connect with these people. But first, I will find and connect to that part of me again.

If other people can dream, why can’t I? If other people can have things that they want, then why can’t I, regardless of how they view me and what kind of perceived success and prestige they may have? I am human, and I am the same as anyone else. My feelings are valid. And I can give myself permission to feel good about the things I love to do again, regardless of the circumstances I find myself in, and how disconnected I am from my goals.