One Door Closes

The alarm goes off and it already feels like I'm behind like the day started without me and I'm just trying to catch up

Coffee doesn't wake me it just reminds me I have to be awake

The sink is full again the laundry multiplies in the dark emails stack like accusations I haven't earned the right to ignore

everything is small and everything is heavy

a missed call a bill a text I don't know how to answer

None of this should matter this much but it does

It builds

Quietly steadily like water pressing against a door I'm pretending will hold

People say "just take it one thing at a time"

But things don't line up they come all at once talking over each other until I can't hear my own thoughts

I forget what I was doing while I'm doing it

Stand in rooms with no reason why

And even rest feels like failure like I'm falling further behind by stopping

So I keep moving not forward just…moving

Hoping motion counts for something

Hoping no one notices how close I am to dropping everything

To letting the door break

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