This and That and Everthing in-between

I think maybe I’ve been lost for so long, I’ve forgotten who I am.

I’ve been focused on growing, being better and trying to change..and in the process, got so far away from me that I lost part of who I am..

The deep, soulful stuff that made me who I am, inspired me, pushed me to be great.

As I say that, it sounds kinda silly- how can you lose yourself while you’re trying to grow?

Because you’re changing, evolving- while you’re trying to reinvent yourself and make everyone else happy, the things that made me different, amazing…I lost sight of them somehow.

I don’t even know who I am anymore and that scares me to death- how do I find my way back?

How do I remember who I was?

Truth is, I don’t know.

As I sit in the dark, cloaked by the solace of the night, the heaviness settles upon me and I try not to cry.

I used to be happy, used to believe, used to know what I wanted.

Now?

I just want to make it through tomorrow smiling for a whole day.

No, I’m not sad or depressed, I absolutely have a great life and much to celebrate ..

But I’m lost and don’t know the way home.

It’s sad, scary and different, all at once.

You know just what I’m taking about, don’t you?

So we sit at the quiet crossroads of a life changing and just think.

What to do, think and feel.

I’m going to start simple and go from there.

Wake up, be thankful and look for my whys:

Why I’m here, why I do what I do, why I’m a good person, why my tomorrows will be great.

Making sure the person I am is none of the things I never wanted to be.

Starting there, I’ll see where I end up.

Who knows?

I might just end up at a better version of me.

And being me is just where I want to be.

See you there, friend.

|ravenwolf

Interesting.

Easier said then done.

Good morning ❤️

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