My hand is around you neck. How did it get there? Why is it there? What am I doing?
Your eyes are starting to bulge, your face an angry red, and your nails claw into my skin.
I can't feel it. I can't feel anything.
What's going on? I want to ask. Nothing comes out. It doesn't even get caught in my throat. It just floats around in the air unasked.
Your turning purple now, tears streaking down your face and your trying to say something.
What are you saying? Why can't I stop? What's happening to me?
My hand loosens slightly. Yes! I'm regaining control.
"Stop!" You wheeze, "Please..."
I'm trying, you have no idea I am trying. But it's as if everything has been disconnected. Nothing works. Nothing responsed.
"Would you like me to kill you slower, baby?"
Who is that? Is that my voice? What am I saying?
Your crying and shaking. It's hours later before you stop.
Oh the things I did to you...
I can't do anything. I can't cry, or scream or lash out or anything. I am stuck. A horrified and violated observer.
My body moves to the mirror.
I look horrific. Blood drenched, bruised, and covered in mud. I am missing a chunk of hair and there is a butter knife sticking out of my bicep.
I just want it to stop...
I look at myself in the mirror and wink, "Fun is only getting started baby."