in between
or, the Twelve & Benjamin sad meetup
(922 words, not beta-read) (bc I liked how this turned out but I donāt want to spam the DW AO3 tag)
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They find each other again in an asteroid halfway between Jupiter and Mars. Their heads are grayer; their faces bear more marks.
āAre those pajama pants, Doctor?ā, Benjamin asks, standing by his side on the cold ground.
āI am an old man, Benjaminā, he answers. His hands are stained with asteroid dust. āI won the right to wear whatever I want from here to the death of the universe - and beyond, I think. Been there a few weeks ago, actually.ā
āStill being invited to the big events, I see.ā
āA side effect of shaping most of them.ā He leans back on the TARDISā door, careful not to open it. āAnd look whoās talkingā, he retorts, eyeing the striped slacks, a little too large for Benās frame, and the red shirt with long sleeves.
Ben rolls a pebble under his foot, kicks it. They watch it roll, roll, roll, under influence of the low gravity. āIām in the middle of two big crisesā, he says. āThe pajamas seemed appropriate.ā
āAlfie?ā
Ben nods, staring at the black sky.
The Doctor studies the boyās pensive brow. He looks ready to rip open an entire galaxy. Such a fantastic Time Lord he would have made, the Doctor thinks, for the hundredth time. A female voice in his mind, which he doesnāt quite recognize (but one he is sure he would have known, once upon a time), replies with a sarcastic āwow, bitter much?ā.
āAn accident with the equipment during his last expeditionā, Ben starts. āOne moment, everything is fine; next thing you know itās all gone. Tools, machinery. Scientists.ā He keeps looking straight ahead as he speaks. āIāve stumbled upon a future where I find him. And, of course, itās one where he doesnāt even acknowledge I exist.ā A bitter laugh.
The Doctor doesnāt feel the usual inclination to warn against tampering with oneās future - heās travelled with Ben long enough to know he wouldnāt listen to him if he said anything, anyway. Instead, he says:
āHeās probably doing that - will do that - to protect you.ā
Ben turns his head and blinks at him. He goes on:
āWhatever swallowed him and his crew must be threatening your safety as well. So he is - he will cut all contact as a way of protecting you.ā He scratches his nose. āYou two always had a propensity for getting mixed up with terrible romance tropes. Iām surprised this one took that long to show up.ā
Ben wears the unimpressed look on his face better now, but the Doctor knows heās considering the possibility. Some people seemed to have their lives guided by storybook rules - Amy was one of them. So were Benjamin and Alfie.
āSpeaking of terrible romancesā, Ben diverts. āHowās River?ā
The Doctor twirls the sonic screwdriver once, twice, then points it to the ground and turns it on. The chosen setting opens a small hole between the rocks and the dust.
āLeft for the Library hours ago.ā Another hole, right beside the first one.
āAhā, Ben says. There isnāt much else to add.
Around them, the asteroid insists on being silent and gray. The sky looks endless, with small stars shining white and orange and blue against a black backdrop, and the Doctor wants to say out loud it isnāt - heās been there, in all the points where the sky ends and Nothing takes it place. He wants to list every single spot heās ever been and every single fact heās learned until he can unearth what heās been made to forget - the one whose face is painted on the TARDISā door, whose voice remains in his head, the person standing just out of reach.
Around them, the asteroid insists on being silent and gray, and the Doctor says nothing.
A moment later, he feels a bony hand on his shoulder. He looks at it, and then to its owner.
āYou knowā, Ben says. āHow about you give me a lift?ā
āI thought you had a time vortex.ā
āDoctor.ā Benās expression tells the Doctor heās beginning to have fun with this. āI am a man in the middle of two big crises. Donāt you think I deserve to be comfortable while travelling, at least?ā
The Doctor side-eyes him, more for the principle of the thing than out of real annoyance. He dusts his hands off, but makes no effort to do the same for his feet. The TARDIS will have to deal with asteroid dust for a while.
āYouāre not touching the consoleā, he says. āRiver did something to the keyboards and I havenāt rewired them back yet.ā
Benjaminās only answer is an āI wouldnāt dream of itā that sounds far too innocent.
Heās typing as he enters the TARDIS. The Doctor doesnāt make much of it.
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Clara has a small smile on her face as she leans over the console, cellphone in hand. Me could try to snoop over her shoulder and find out why, but Clara would start dancing around the cabin to block her view of the screen and Me canāt be distracted right now. Besides, she has a good idea of what could have made her glow like that.
āIs he fine?ā, she asks, turning a knob.
āHeāll get there, in time. An old friend found him again.ā
āGoodā, Me says. āCan we go now?ā
āCanāt leave Jane waitingā, Clara smiles. Itās a bit strained, and Me doesnāt comment on it.
She turns the knobs in the console, instead. The call of adventure never stops, and theyāve made it their duty to answer.









