A pouchā¦? For food? But Iām not-
Your claws wrap around my wrist. I freeze on the spot. Yes, it is cold, and my skin is thinā¦and you are so painstakingly warm⦠The benefit of a winterās furā¦
Point made, just this once⦠You shouldnāt have to feel alone.
Iām anxious, watching muzzle and maw yawn wide before me, a cavern of muted pinks under the fill moonās glare. More looming than that-ivory fangs laced with a sheen I canāt ignore. An echo of finality whispers in my mind. I hesitate. You encourage a hesitant hand pushing in, letting me take things at my pace. I reach for a fang first, if for nothing else to ease my anxiety. You donāt bite down. The bone is hard beneath my hand and as large as my forearm.
Yes, they are sharp and scary, and I voice my knowledge that theyāre harmlessā¦but theyāre teeth. Big teeth. Itās very, very hard to not be afraid. I move away before the fear settles in too deeply. Your tongue is soft and rough all at once, eagerly lapping my fingers and drawing me further in. Itās almost honoring how much the muscle pulls, trying to coax me in. Your body is starving for me, begging with all its might for this easy prey, but youāre able to control the drive to snap down and devour me. Itās sweet. Weird, and grossā¦but sweet.
Iāve pulled back now, admiring the dripping, starving, loving vat of velvet heat before me.
āIām ready.ā The words leave my lips before I fully realize it.
I blink. At once you set into motion. Your mouth closes and presses into my fists. My knuckles sink into those lips, and I flex my fingers against the strange feeling of whiskers against them. Too, I feel your hitching breath. Familiar claws wrap around my wrists again. This is it. This time, I donāt brace.
My stomach drops as those ivory daggers gleam against the moonās glare. Your tongue greets my arms before I process your jaws opening wider, surging downwards. My mindās eye flicks to summer afternoons sliding down a slip-and-slide. The heat and humidity feel similar. It helps quell the rising wariness. Iāve gotten this far, canāt back out now.
I watch and feel my hands slip further into your maw, surrounded by your heat, your breath. Muscles flex, pulling me deeper, and I feel my body try to brace against the alluring warmth curling around my chest and stomach. Thereās nothing to brace against. My upper half is nearly fully inside your jaws, legs delicately covered by your claws. I feel my wrists reach the crest of your throat. Theyāre squished together, my hands pressing out in some animalistic need to escape.
Everything jolts forward. Instinctively, I gasp, and thatās the last breath of air I get as muscles crush inward. Itās pressure, so much pressure. I can feel heat and warmth and soft and pressure all at once, all-consuming. I canāt breathe oh god I canāt breathe, I canāt breathe and I canāt feel where I am and-
My hands push into open air. They feel around blindly as Iām held in suspension. Thereās another roll of motion before my face joins them, and my lungs greedily reclaim the oxygen theyād yearned for from the soupy air. Dizzy from the sudden rush, I fall face first into your gut with a grunt. Itās not uncomfortable, rubbery and soft, like an inflatable left too long in the sun. The walls shudder and mold around my fingers. I push out, trying to sort and ease myself inside of you.
Our discussion earlier rings through my mind, silencing any lingering alarm bells. An extra organ to hold⦠I am safe here.
The reminder is enough to ease some tension. I shift, push, wriggle myself into a ball, knees close to my chest, hands pushing out. I seek something solid, grounding, and find nothing. Thereās no stability in this living hammock. Nothing but you surrounding me, sloshing me around as we both situate ourselves. Somehow, I donāt mind. All I can sense is you. Your heat, your breath, each rush of blood and each groan of organs. Youāre a warm pool heated by the summer sun, rippling muscles like the surface of the water as I sink further down. Iām safe here, but I need something-
I push my hands out. Thereās a quiet drum, a rhythm amidst all the chaos. Something grounding. Itās quick for a moment. Then, slowly, it begins to draw out. It takes a moment for me to register the source.
āI can hear your heartbeat,ā I murmur, pressing my fingers into the rippling flesh, seeking the gentle drum. After a moment, I feel you press back. I feel myself relax. Stress I didnāt know I had drifts away, bubbling away to a sunny surface I can no longer see. Iām surrounded by you, someone I love, tucked away like a precious gem. And you, finally satisfied in a way I canāt understandā¦itās sweet.
Iām not worried, dear. Iāll stay with you tonight. You have my word.
Maybe we can do this again.