I have been a full-time carer of my father, who suffered from multiple heart attacks and strokes. My father had various illnesses and sicknesses - he needed full-time care. Centrelink refused to pay me the carer's pension, even though I looked after my father for more than 5 years. When he passed away last year, Centrelink refused to help me - they were suppose to give me a bereavement payment and payments for funeral costs. They said "because you weren't on a carer's pension, we can't help you. You'll have to find the money elsewhere".
It is not my fault that Centrelink doesn't do their jobs properly. It wasn't my fault that my father got sick and died. Centrelink thinks otherwise, even though Common sense proved them wrong.
A month or so after issuing the challenge, I was sent to Castle Personnel. Centrelink stated "you will visit this program and attend their appointments, once every 3 months". I actually asked for it to be put in writing and I was told that there was no need, "we can be trusted". This was said 1 year before my father passed away.
It has been almost 2 years since I was placed on the program. Castle Personnel forced me to visit them weekly and sometimes fortnightly. Castle said they would help me with getting a doctor and qualified specialists, they would help with anything I needed. Because of my father's passing, I have to move out of the home we rent privately. I explained this to Castle and said "how can I be expected to do anything if I'm homeless". They said "that is true. We'll work on getting you a place with the Dept of Housing or a related department".
Castle Personnel has done nothing to help me. Now that we're coming to the end of the program and they have to earn their full payment, Castle actually has to do some work.
From the start, I had problems with Castle Personnel. They placed me with a consultant who was disrespectful, bias and lacking in any personal contact. The woman told me that I couldn't stay home to look after my sick father, she said that Centrelink was wrong and I had to do whatever she wanted. By the end, she had pushed me too far and I was willing to protect myself by any means necessary - her exact words were "you're not suppose to be at a funeral, you are obligated to be here. You signed a contract stating you'll be here. So, how long until you will be here?" How many of you have had a parent pass away? How many of you have had to bury or cremate that parent? The consultant at Castle Personnel did not want me to attend my own father's funeral, nor was I allowed to be a part of it. I was expected to be at Castle Personnel, how rude and arrogant of my father to just die suddenly, without any warning.
A manager took me aside and asked what had happened. I explained everything and then said "there won't be a problem if you can connect me with someone who I get along with". He checked around and found a consultant named Shane, who's not only similar in race but also in culture as well.
Shane had tried to do what he can, even with limited resources. Every time we made an agreement to work on something, his own colleagues would fail him. Shane had explained about a colleague who had medical qualifications, he thought that the colleague would return his phone calls but it never happened. Shane left multiple message and voicemails, in hopes of getting a referral to the doctors and specialists that I needed. When that didn't happen, we moved onto the next problem. Because Shane didn't receive any support, he was unable to help me when I needed it. So, he can't be blamed for not helping me, when his own network has failed him.
Last week, I had an appointment with Shane but it never happened. I visited the office and was on time for my appointment, but was lead elsewhere by a female stranger. The stranger explained that she was some sort of manager for Castle Personnel and wanted to speak to me. But what she doesn't understand is, there's a big difference between speaking and traumatising someone.
For over 20 years, I have suffered from physical problems that have no cure but also causes immense pain daily. Anyone who suffers from or knows what arthritis can do, would know that winter is the hardest time of the year - the cold freezes up the body, stiffens the joints and bones.
Anyway, the female manager obviously has been wrapped in cotton wool all of her life, not realising there's consequences for what we do in life. As much as anyone would like to control it's power of persuasion, Karma will not be tamed. The female manager went on to ask why I was too sick and disabled to attend my previous appointment. Even though there's more than 20 years of medical evidence to answer her question, she still needed to hear it from me. The entire conversation consisted of her putting me down, running me into the ground, disrespecting my family, culture and background. I was lectured on Centrelink's protocols and Castle's procedures, not knowing that I have actually spent more time doing those programs than she's probably held that managerial position.
I know what the programs are about and I know that I cannot do everything they want. So everything that happens, is what they're doing to me. The female manager then went on to lecture me about my attending appointments instead of my father's funeral. I continuously repeated "I did not come here for a lecture, I know how it all works. I also know that you have done nothing to help me. So, what is the point of my coming here? What is the point in our talk?" She repeated herself on the procedures and protocols of how it all works. She belittled me and made me feel worthless and useless. For her to continuously repeat herself, maybe she wasn't sure of how it works. Either that or she has no common sense... Would you tell a butcher that he's not suppose to work with meat? Would you tell a dentist that he's not suppose to work on teeth? No you wouldn't, you wouldn't want others to think that you have no sense, let alone common sense.
Castle Personnel said that Centrelink was lying, when they told me that I would only attend Castle's program once every 3 months - like all of the other programs that I have attended in the past 20 years. Apparently everything I was told and went through before Castle, was wrong.
I have never ever given Castle Personnel permission to traumatise me, or to cause any permanent physical, mental and emotional disabilities. This coincides with my previous posts of not giving anyone permission to do any of this to me, my life and/or my family. I am determined to find the best help possible, for what they've done to me. I won't stand in Karma's way, as it is life!
I have multiple, reoccurring problems that will never be cured. When I first started visiting Castle Personnel, my physical, emotional and mental injuries and sicknesses were:
Back:
⢠A few slipped discs
⢠Arthritis
⢠Scoliosis
Hips/Legs/Knees/Ankles:
⢠Gout
⢠Arthritis
⢠Weak Ankles
⢠Chipped Bones
Arms/Wrists:
⢠Gangleon
⢠Arthritis
⢠Constant Fractures
Emotional/Mental:
⢠Anxiety
⢠Social Anxiety
⢠Depression
⢠Psychotic Depression
⢠Suffered A Past Traumatic Experience
⢠Split Personality
⢠Agoraphobia
Past Illness/Sickness/Injury:
⢠Suffered All Forms Of Abuse
⢠Suffered Domestic/Spousal Abuse
⢠Agoraphobia - Couldn't leave the house or walk around my own yard, for almost 3 years.
Current Illness/Sickness/Injury:
⢠All of the above and more...
Because Castle Personnel forced me to do things beyond my actual physical and mental capacity, I am suffering from problems that I never had beforehand...
⢠My body is giving up on me - I have always had problems getting out of bed and/or off certain chairs. But with the constant weekly and fortnightly visits, I can hardly move at all.
⢠Trauma - I have previously suffered a traumatic experience in the past but it has never affected my abilities to do anything in life, until now. When you've had people bringing you down, putting you down, disrespecting your family, culture and way of life, it can change who we are. Because of the constant put downs and disrespect towards my father, I will never ever trust agencies again. It also makes me wonder if this is just how people are in general, which also changes my attitude towards others. Castle Personnel has now helped me to see:
⢠No one can be trusted
⢠Everyone will put you down
⢠Everyone will treat you like crap
⢠Everyone will make you feel like you should no longer be living
⢠People are just out to harm others
⢠People just want to hurt you mentally, physically and emotionally.
⢠People will use and abuse you, then throw you away like a piece of rubbish.
⢠The world is out to get me
I thank Castle Personnel for opening my eyes, teaching me how people really are and how they can be. I also thank them for making sure that my body is decaying rapidly, for forcing me to do things against my own will and knowing I suffer from disabilities that will worsen with too much pressure. Instead of having certain pains once a year, I now suffer from them daily. Castle does know that I will seek any future compensation and support, for anything that I can't do - they caused the problem knowing the consequences of their actions and what permissions I gave. But they also know that the permissions were only given if they abided by my official declaration. They cannot say that they did not know, as I gave them the URL to the website which holds that information. Because they carried on and continued to cause these ailments, they cannot say that they didn't accept my declaration. Common sense is: if they weren't willing to take on those responsibilities and liabilities, they wouldn't have forced me to do what they have so far.
I tell this life event, so others know
⢠What I've endured
⢠What I have been put through
⢠What others will be put through
I also tell it because some people think they can treat others a certain way and get away with it. Little do some of these people realise, there are certain people who like to tell others of what they've experienced. It is similar to how a an abused person would report their abuser...
I did everything Centrelink said and wanted, as they are the people who pay me. I did everything Castle Personnel wanted and got nothing but trauma in return.
How can anyone be so heartless and critical? Do they not realise that a coloured person has the exact same rights as those of any other colour? It doesn't show how a person's work ethic is, it only shows what type of person they really are. Again, I never asked to be treated like that, nor did I give permission for it!
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