Moon thoughts

I wish my mom would see more than my body when she looks at me.

2024 in: Setting boundaries.

We want to dress each others wounds and let our own rot. I think that's what will break us.

Healing starts with being honest. I just don't know if I can be.

perpetually dreading

I lost a lot the past year and I don't think that empty spot in my heart has entirely regrown.

Aren't there certain things that are better left unsaid?

I erased all the flaws you could find within me. Now I am nothing but the outline of a sketch.

What is life for, if not the tug at your heart from nostalgia.

You call me closed off. You think what I'm hiding from you are fields of flowers with a little bit of rain. If I let you see the endless landscape of burned destruction inside of me, I think you would change your mind.

I am constantly enduring.

At fourteen, instead of having my first kiss, I was severely depressed. Maybe that affected me a little more than I'd like to admit.

It is only now that I realize not getting the help I need, is on no one but me.