The Lost Baka/LostBakaTV

https://youtu.be/Bx9fqqng4To

So, a couple-ish months ago, I moved in with my mother and had to quit my job that was located near my father because of distance. I said to myself that I would try to find better employment in the area to try something new and unique. That’s till I remembered that I have surgery to extract my wisdom teeth the day after Christmas. I have no idea HOW I forgot that existed, but hey, I remembered. So, I said to my mother that I was not gonna find a job till the extraction was over and she agreed that my decision was a smart one. So, I said to her that I was gonna try to be a streamer for a platform called Twitch, and my mother thought that it sounded like a good idea because of my previous success of an old YouTube channel that was taken away from my father for his and my siblings’ own gains. So, I was thinking of how to do everything and I was thinking of a schedule and how to stream after school and after family time at night. I had a thing in mind and tried to keep with it, but there was a few things that was keeping me from it... 1) My brother talks loud on the phone and I do not want him to get all hissy at me and yell for my mother

2) My head has been hurting on and off for a while and it’s possible it’s a result from my wisdom teeth

3) Tiredness

4) Lack of willpower

5) Financial downsides To talk with #1, I have got a new microphone that I invested in that can cancel out my brother but I still feel uncomfortable of streaming when he’s in the room, so I’m still trying to figure out that. He has recently got a job at a medium-end department store and he goes to the gym every night, so I’m free for an hour or so till he’s back home and yelling every 20 seconds. How fun! #2 problems (yay), recently my head has been hurting worse and worse in the past few months and it usually happens when a front or a severe storm moves through the area, but this seems to be worse than what I remember. I know I have a former co-worker that follows me on this platform and I think I would complain to her about my head (no idea, correct me if I’m wrong) and that would affect how I work in the long term. That does apply to me streaming on Twitch or making highlights for YouTube. My headaches and migraines does affect me from working on what I want to do. That makes me sad because I really want to do this but my head is preventing me to do so... I hope when my wisdom teeth are out that these headaches stop. I also got new glasses (thanks, Mom and Grandma!) that has blue-light protection on them, so I hope they can help with my problems as well~

#3 (it seems like all I do is complain about this to my friends, but here we are), I have been extremely tired after I get done with the day. I do have a sleep disorder and it wakes my body out of REM sleep every half-hour to an hour, limiting that 7 hours to like 3-4 and I just feel like I drag on with the day. When I sit on this computer, I feel like I should sleep and not do anything. Just relax with some friends and play a video game or watch a video. Something like that. However, this has been getting worse because I would be nearly falling asleep on a call with my friends and them telling me to go to bed because of it and I feel REALLY BAD about that, and I don’t want to be caught falling asleep on stream as well, so I don’t stream when I’m tired... This has been a normal occurance and I feel bad to myself and to some people who may want to watch me stream. I am getting this slowly-but-surely resolved by getting bloodwork done this Monday to hopefully figure out what I need to balance my sleep and I have been taking naps in the middle of the day to get my body rested up for that several hours I have left within my waking day.

#4 is kinda a weird one (and probably the shortest rant I have), but sometimes I have the lack of willpower to stream? Now, this can be due to many things. It can be related to everything I have been explaining to you right now but it could be also life things. The biggest one of that is StreamLabsOBS not working with me and crashing every 20 seconds while I try to set up a game. I just give up and not stream for several days in hope that it will fix itself, but that just steals from time I could be streaming. However, I’ve been working with this lack of willpower issue and have been trying to think of a better thinking method to take this problem, and not the whole “well, I give up” thing that I’ve been doing for 18 years of my god-forsaking life. #5 is kinda the begger help one, but it’s about finances! As I explained, I quit my job and with that is a lost of a lot of money into my pockets and the first couple weeks had been nothing but spend, spend, spend. I think I spent nearly $800 to get everything resolved against my father. This was mainly phones and cell service to get that away from my father (and no one else had money for god-knows why) but that has put me into a more conservative stance on buying video games that I know I can handle on SLOBS and my computer and what I can do on a daily basis. I do get a form of an allowance from the government, thanks to SSA, but that’s not enough to handle what I want to do with streaming in general. I do want to save up for a new gaming laptop so I can stream better games like Cities:Skylines, Transport Fever 2, or even some GTA V without the funny glitches caused from it. I was hoping that streaming was able to get me like $1 a day, because that dollar helps a long way, but I don’t like to promote it because it sounds too needy. I also have a Ko-Fi page that I used to support my friend when I had my job that I want to promote but can’t due to the same reason... It’s also hard to justify the reason why I go on my computer at night without that financial gain. That sounds so greedy and I HATE THAT but, it’s kinda the truth.... I’m now going to do some promotion links on the bottom, but before I do, I want to say this. I want to say thank you to EVERYONE who has and still is supporting me on what I want to do, it means a lot to me. Without you guys, I would be lost in this adventure of being a Twitch streamer and I will keep everyone updated on what I’m doing and planning on doing on Twitch and YouTube through Twitter or on this here Tumblr page~ Now, here’s some promos... <3 <3 <3 Twitch Website (it’s where I accept donations on stream) Ko-Fi Twitter Discord