12.15.13

you are not a failure

you are not a waste of space

you are loved

you are wanted

i believe in you

HAIRMODE No.695 issue 

So yesterday I saw The Force Awakens again and finished the novelization. Just another day in the life of a hopeless nerd/trashy shipper. 

I’m sure someone else has done this already, but I gathered all of the Kylo Ren/Rey quotes from the novelization in order to share. I included only what I thought contained insight into their relationship and the way they felt about each other/thought about each other, but that ended up being almost everything. What I excluded was pretty much just clear-cut descriptions of physical actions.

A quick note about the novelization: it’s clear that a lot of last-minute changes were made to the script (maybe during filming) and that A LOT was cut/deleted. So the novelization made for a very interesting read. With the exception of just a couple of things, the changes were definitely for the best. In the quotes below you’ll see a few things that it would have been nice for us shippers if they kept - Snoke accusing Ren of having compassion for Rey, Ren reacting after he leaves Rey’s interrogation, Leia and Rey having a brief discussion of Ren at the very end (which probably would have been the last dialogue exchange of the entire movie though obviously not the last scene, and the novelization’s description of how Leia feels towards Rey during that part is VERY interesting), and other things too. The one thing I didn’t include in the quotes is Ren falling to his knees after he kills Han (but before Chewie shoots him). The novelization makes it pretty clear that Ren has an “Oh f—k what did I just do” moment, and instead of feeling better like he had hoped - having clarity - he feels worse than ever before. 

Without further ado:

Without the slightest hesitation, the cloaked figure of Kylo Ren emerged and strode forward to join the battle. A stunned Rey could only track him with her eyes. She had seen this man before, in a daydream. In a nightmare.

“If you ever left me I’d tear my heart out and never put it back.”

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Neither Rey nor Kylo realize that they need a balance.

It’s not the light side versus the dark side.

It’s BOTH.

Together.

The Force is trying to teach them that, and the Force knows the two of them can bring that balance.

They almost got it, but not quite. It wasn’t Snoke that gave them that vision… maybe he twisted it, but they missed the point. It was the Force that gave it to them. They keep seeing it their way; right or wrong; black or white. There’s so much more, like Luke stated.

They’re seeing the Force Vision in the WRONG way. They’ll both turn but in a different direction once they’ve accepted that it doesn’t have to be just one way. They NEED both the light and the dark. They shouldn’t change one another… they shouldn’t have to rule anything, but instead of ruling the “Galaxy,” they need to bring BALANCE to it.

I believe the saber blew up because once again they were trying to pull it in two different directions. It shouldn’t be pulled apart, but instead, PUT TOGETHER with a piece of both of them. The Force knows exactly what it’s doing. And once they realize this as well, they’ll come together one more and put that balance back into world.

she is life in an otherwise dead world

I CANT STOP.