A Goddamn Disaster

if i cant kill myself i guess i just have to make art and cook good meals and listen to music and dress up pretty and hope it will be all worth it to be doing something to distract myself forever

hey sorry it's just that i don't think i'm very good at being a person. thanks for letting me try with you, anyway.

I like calm men. Men who don’t shout or break things when they’re mad. Men who tell you exactly how they feel. Men who communicate. Men who talk you in a gentle, low voice telling you what made them mad or what you did wrong, but never blame you and make you feel bad about it.

if anything else happens to me i’m not enduring it. somebody else do that

i’m such a “i want your attention” but “won’t bother you” kinda person