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Kalakocetus aurorae was an early cetacean that lived during the Eocene, about 50-48 million years ago, in what is now the northwestern region of the Indian subcontinent.

It represents the (currently) most basal known branch of the whale lineage, with teeth that are transitional between the crushing herbivorous-omnivorous molars of the closely-related raoellids and the shearing carnivorous molars of later archaeocetes.

Only known from a lower jaw and teeth, its full life appearance is unknown — but based on the body proportions of other early cetaceans it would have been a roughly cat-sized animal, around 60cm long (~2'), possibly resembling a smaller version of its better-known relative Pakicetus. It was also probably similarly semiaquatic, wading into rivers to hunt fish and other small freshwater prey.

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Trans activist Jamison Green's passport photos before and after HRT. Left he's age 32 (1980) Right age 41 (1989) after being on testosterone for one year (x)

Mališa, otherwise known as Little One, is a pet pigeon owned by a conservative butler of the Austro-Hungarian aristocracy. She is loved, and she is pampered— until her owner is murdered in cold blood, and she is left to fend for herself in Sarajevo.

In the wilds of the city, she feeds from the poor, working nationalist radicals, and the vieux riches alike.

To Mališa, there are no ethical concerns. No politics. No burgeoning nationalism.

If you are a socially anxious person, you have to socialize. Your panic/anxiety attacks will only get worse and trigger more frequently if you constantly avoid contact with The Public. Not saying that you need to be a social butterfly- but there is a genuine problem with not being able to order your own meal at a restaurant. And it cannot be solved by always having someone else do it for you.

Years passed and i went thru a lot of new experiences and transformations - it's a long story - but one day tripping in a lake i realized that everyone who lives, leaves a wake behind them. There is no way to not have an effect on the world around you - we all connect, we all ripple through each other. I realized i had to accept that i would hurt some peoples feelings, that some would hurt mine, that sometimes id do something deeply cringey and I'd just have to own up to it, just swallow down the humiliation and move on - so why not do it with grace? It also meant that i could have the power to inspire, to move others, to encourage them to try scary things, just like some people had done for me by that time in my life. I had encountered random and senseless generosity from random strangers by this point in my life and i knew the power this had.

I accepted it then: that i will move through the world and accept the effects of my footsteps in it. I will learn to step in a way i liked and could be proud of.

At some point, I realized the connective power of simply learning to be curious about other people. Simply Looking and Listening - how easily most people opened up when they experienced acceptance and interest from someone.

It's been quite a few years now. I figured out how to make socialization energize and fill me. I now have the Power of the Introvert AND the Power of the Extrovert. I am well known in my local community, i am very well liked and trusted, and very very commonly receive the lovely compliment that i am "extremely charismatic".

I am proud and humbled every time someone tells me this. They think im Just Like This. Ha! They don't know how far I've come, but i do. That scared teen who couldn't look anyone in the eye, who was scared of someone's elbow accidentally touching him - that teen sees me and knows and is filled with amazement and hope every time.

Im sure this could sound tacky and dumb to someone in the throes of their worst self hate and social anxiety, but i promise you that it is deeply possible to turn your life around in ways that you'd never even dare imagine. Life, and YOU, can surprise yourself so much if you let it.