Pierced.Tattooed.Alternative.Horror-Lover

I don't think I'll ever be able to process this, I know it sounds silly because he is a fictional character but he was so central to the story and to Carries life in the original show and to take him away so quickly and suddenly it just hurts, very deeply.

I sat in shock as I watched this happen and I struggled to get through the 2nd episode of his passing and his funeral etc...

I feel for all the characters as they knew him in their own way and for the fans who did too.

It hurts to know Big is gone

It hurts to know that John is gone

I genuinely hope at the end of all this, it was a dream for Carrie, but I fear that it wasn't....

What breaks my heart even more is the song at the end of the episode is the same one as when Carrie was happily skipping down the road at the end of season 6 ( An American Girl in Paris, Part Deux ) talking to Big on the phone and he told her "The house is on the market, Look out New York I'm coming!

Song was - You Got the Love (feat. The Source) 😪😪😪😪 Thank you Chris for giving us this character, we all had moments when we loved and hated Big at the same time and that's why he leaves such a huge gap in the SATC universe!

Tony - Vito Atlantic City, forget it.

Silvio- Why the change up?

Tony - I can't keep fighting Phil on this. Our businesses are all entwined. You gotta pick your battles. you want your no-show jobs, Vito's gotta go.

Silvio - It's the right move, T.

Tony - All those weeks in the hospital, surgeries, constant pain, for what? Come out here and get shot over something like this? I'm sorry. If Vito wanted to pursue that lifestyle, he should have done so quietly.

Silvio - He was, wasn't he? Anyone in particular you want to give this to?

Tony - Carlo had the biggest problem with it, let him handle it. It's Vito's own fault. why couldn't he stay wherever the fuck he was?

Silvio - Don't beat yourself up about this. I'll tell Carlo to be at the mall.