DiorAddict

At some point or another in life. You will go through a period of hardship.

Whether it affects your mental, physical, emotionally and material health or even all the above.

If you stumble upon this period: understand that you are going to be in a hangman state for a period of time. Things will move slow, be difficult; the days/weeks/months/years may be long and dark.

It’s very important that you understand

1. That eventually it will come to an end

2. Making the right decisions can help you move forward and make progress when the time is right

What you will need to have to get through this period.

1. Recognition - what is occurring

2. Acceptance - you can’t change it immediately

3. Resilience - adaption/recovery from the hardship

4. Patience

What you will need to do to get though

Change, change, change

Try different things, the only way to move stagnant energy is movement/change.

Start with something small if nothing changes, change something else, and change something else, and change something else, and change something else. You have to keep changing until you see things are moving. Try different things and be resilient, and patient. This time isn’t meant to be easy, it’s meant to be transformative.

If you have anyone who is in your life that uses you as a punching bag, very important that you cut them off.

If you have several people around you, like that, distance yourself. Especially if it is your family.

You have to walk away from people and things that don’t serve you, or those to wish to hold you back.

If you grew up in an emotionally abusive household. You are being tested and you need to understand that you are being tested on those that are around you that are stunting your growth.

You will not be able to elevate in any way if you keep those types of people around you.

Your blessings will be held back until you find the strength within you, to recognize what is right in front of you, and choose yourself.

Be strong, once you get to the other side. You will be a better version of yourself.

The importance of self love.

Don’t underestimate the power of self love. Your self love can save you from bad situations.

Self love gives you the strength to leave bad situations, bad relationships, abusive relationships. Jobs where your being undervalued, underpaid and being treated poorly. Codependent situations that are keeping you trapped and stuck.

It will keep you from entering into situations that won’t serve you or that aim to drain you. You will see people for who they are, not who they have the potential to be.

your self love makes you walk away, because you know you deserve better and can do better.

your self love will have you chasing your dreams, and aiming for the stars, like you were always meant to do.

It can and will change your life, but only if you allow it.

I see now, the cure to my years of depression was self love.

I had to prove that I loved myself.

That’s the only thing that was powerful enough to counter act that dark cloud that engulfed me for so many years.

That dark cloud that wanted to keep me weighed down and feeling small, and worthless.

Put it in your mind that you want better, that you deserve better.

Love yourself today, it might just save your life.

Signed….TheDiorAddict

I absolutely despise transitionary periods.

THEY ARE SO HARD.

That’s when things really go downhill ,because you’re fighting against a deeply ingrained way of being. Pulling yourself out of an old of state is to die so, you can be reborn.

Your new desire is attempting to override your old programming and it is pure HELL.

Don’t let anyone fool you. A battle of willpower. Who will win?

What makes it’s all the more painful is, the decisions you previously made are what is showing up right now: the results of your old way of being.

The results of your new behavior won’t show itself for a while.

If things are falling apart that that state you previously lived in is dying, so that you can be born again.

Give yourself some grace, you will make it out on top.

Signed….TheDiorAddict

It’s official

I am back to working FT

I will be training this week and next week.

It’s been nice to be off, but I obviously I have bills to pay. I did take an easier job with less stress this time around.

It’s a stationary role, so mostly monitoring.

Which is nice; because I am allowed to bring my schoolwork and computer to work.

My boss actually encouraged me to bring my laptop so, I can work on my schoolwork.

Which is nice because then I won’t have to worry about studying as much when I’m not at work.

It’s killing 2birds with one stone.

I’m ready for a more mindless role.

I also will be getting paid every week, which I highly prefer. It just makes things easier for me.

There is also a cute little gym w/cheap membership $18/month-month. Which is nice, perk.

I have 6weeks of classes left, before a short break before fall semester.

I am still keeping my Amazon flex position. I will just probably work 10hrs week.

I am also still working on investing in myself.

I have now written my goals for Q3.

I actually accomplished some of the goals that I wanted to for the most part in Q1, Q2. Now I’m working on writing down my Q3, Q4 goals.

Signed….TheDiorAddict

It’s time for me to get control of my finances.

I have not been taking the necessary steps that I need to keep or even manage my money. I have been living hand to fist for so long that I just have accepted this way of being.

I have always been reckless financially.

I learned from the best……my mother.

I have the exact same financial habits as my mother.

It’s time for me to grow up and do better.

I’m tired of living like this.

Time and time again.

The good news is.

I have started again.

Very small, super meager.

I will build upon the small savings.

I will only add little by little because whenever I aim to high, that’s when I fail.

Looking back anything I’ve started small I have succeeded at. It’s just more sustainable that way.

As far as I’m concerned that money doesn’t exist. It’s out of reach to me.

I guess it’s like training a muscle, takes time, but it can be done.

I’m ready for this shift.

This time is different. I can feel it.

I have literally prayed to reach this point, because I know that’s the only way I will change.

I know it’s different because I am sick of my own behavior.

That’s the only time that I change is when I am really really sick of my own behavior.

Change only comes when your desire to break the habit is stronger than your desire to continue on with the habit.

Finally.

I have been waiting for this moment.

I’m wondering if the money spell has something to do with this.

I did ask for change when it comes to me and how I view and manage money.

Here’s to being responsible.

Better late than never.

Signed….TheDiorAddict

I’ve come to the realization that the type of men/man I attract.

I DO NOT LIKE.

Nor, am I really attracted to them.

I attract men who want to humble me.

I can see it very clearly, the pattern has been recognized.

I believe it’s a combination of my looks and personality. I am a genuinely happy-go-lucky person. I am also conventionally attractive.

Now that I am very aware of that, I am making the executive decision to cease all dating and/or accepting love offers.

As in, I am not accepting any love offers or not taking them seriously I should say.

I will go on dates so I can continue to analyze men, and pay attention to them.

Pay attention to what they say, how they react to certain things.

Basically I’m in a mission to test my intuitive skills. I need to develop them.

I also, need to work on changing my energy. I’m not yet in a space where I would find my ideal partner.

There’s a part of me, that resonates with this energy and I don’t know why that is, but I intend to work on it and heal it.

I still work to do.

Happy Hunting!

Signed….TheDiorAddict

I did a money ritual this past weekend.

Apparently if you want material wealth, or more money you need to ask for it from your Water Ancestors.

Also, it needs to be done at a sight with a stream of water, not wear stagnant water resides.

My left hand has been itching a lot. Personally for me that means money incoming.

I know most people it’s the right hand, but if my right hand itches money goes out, always.

Anyways, I was trying to be slick about it, while I was at a public family park. Just cause it was really busy and kids were jumping all around.

I also, would like permission to actually share the ritual with the person who I got it from. Don’t want them to be upset or offended. I did pay for it though.

I will update with results; I would say within 30 days.

Signed….TheDiorAddict

Omg, I’m so mad rn

I have an infestation in my apt.

Apparently my upstairs neighbor place was fumigated last week.

Well, they should’ve done mine to prevent what’s happening to me rn. Now, I have a beetle infestation. All they did was move downstairs.

Gosh, I’m so angry. I can’t stand critters. ESP ones that like to climb everywhere and have no respect.

they better send someone soon.

This makes me not want to renew my lease here.

Like dude wtf.

They are under my desk, climbing on my couch, all over the carpet. Bathroom, kitchen, curtains. I don’t understand how it spread so fast.

My desk, I don’t feel comfortable sitting at my desk. There are so many under there, nor do I want to be on my couch.

I also regret watching that YT video of the girl in NYC with a roach infestation that came from her neighbors.

I feel like I brought this upon myself for watching that video!

Le sigh…just when things were looking up or so I thought.

Update.

They came and sprayed. Fingers crossed that does it. They said it’s some kind of beetle, coming from outside, due to me being on the ground floor.

Signed….TheDiorAddict