TheCurseOfKali

It's purely mind over matter at this point. If I didn't need the surgery I would just fuck off right now and have a burger. But if I do, I'm litterary fucked and I am not ready to give up on life.

It also doesn't help that food is everywhere and all over social media. So I can't doom scroll anymore as a distraction.

2024 started with me deciding that maybe I should try to be social. I experimented with meeting new people that I normally wouldn't spend time with. Becuse of that I decided to send a DM to a guy I never thought would answer. I simply said "Hi, you are so handsome, that's all I wanted to say 💜" to my suprise he answered. We met up and it felt like I've always known him. I'm not a romantic, or at least I didn't think I was. But I fell in love with the love of my life the first time I met him.

We have a lot of things in common but one thing I find to be kinda crazy. Is that he grew up in a house that I would pass every time my family whent to our summer house. For at least 20 years, I spent every summer just a stone throw away from the boy that would be the love of my life..

So after a few min of talking about something else. He sends me a video of him in his underwear, all erected. I asked him "why would you send this when I told you I didn't want to see? How did you think this would turn out for you?" his respons "not good"

Then he knows he fucked up so for some reason and this always happens, they go all in and just send the jerk off video. Because he knows I'm gonna block him anyways.