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Thank You, Austin Dugar We were tasked with creating something that visualized wellness for the exam in my 8AM class. There was nothing more natural for me than constructing a #comic visualizing the journey from my Junior Year of High School to my freshman year of college. Naturally, there was only one figure that could pull things together within this piece. The first panel shows me in one of my worst mental states in my Junior Year alongside the yearbook signature of no other than Austin Dugar. It’s something I’ve never forgotten to this day as his words awoke something I’d never thought of. Nor had I ever realized how highly he’d thought of me or that he’d even noticed me on that sort of level. At this time, I didn’t think highly of myself and was in a depressive state without even realizing it. It was after my Junior Year that I began making changes in my life centralized in the pursuit of knowledge (seen in the #comics left panel) and listening/observing more (right panel) alongside a host of other things that couldn’t be depicted in one page with a 1 hour time limit! It was only when I heard the news that Austin had passed away and cried my eyes out that I took time to think about the man he’d seen and the man that id become. Someone who balances their darkness and their light (hence the gray outline on one side, and the yellow on the other) but never forgets the ones who saw it before he did. In truth, Austin helped point me to a truth within myself lying in who I truly was underneath rather than the lie I believed that I was. While I can never truly pin point the date where I decided to make my life something different, I will always remember how one man did so much in 19 years and brought so much joy to others. In sharing this with my class and even on social media, his actions live on in new faces that he never even met. Rather than just leaving a “Have a great summer!” he took time to give me something I’d always remember in what became the last time I’d ever see him. Such things can never be forgotten and I will never forget you, my friend. Thank you, Austin Dugar. https://www.instagram.com/p/BrJvJfIngSU/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1bgde6kfz1veq

Super Saiyan 19 While I could leave you all with some catchy caption to give you all the illusion of something else, I’m gonna tell you a story and I hope this brings a smile. Whilst eating dinner the idea sprung into my mind that I should get a selfie with the pretty waitress. The thought immediately brought anxiety, which was lessened with the outstanding chicken. After wondering what the heck I’d say to somehow get a selfie, I figured I’d put my plan into action when she brought my to go box. As she placed my box in the bag, I calmly asked if I could get a selfie since my mother feared I’d be alone on my 19th birthday. To no surprise, she was confused and asked if I wanted her to take one of me. As the nervousness creeped into my brain I tried explaining why the heck I was doing it. Finally, the words “I just think you’re very pretty and it’d make my birthday that much better if I got a picture with a gal like you.” popped into my mind as I walked home😂. What really happened was “Well...um...I thought it’d be cool, ya know? Since I turned 19? Uh...yeah...I don’t know?” To which she responded kindly “I’ll take a selfie with you.” It felt as if I’d became a Super Saiyan! I did it because it was what I feared doing. The type of thing that the old me would’ve thought about long after the encounter rationalizing the choice I made not to step out of my comfort zone. But in the end, I did something I thought I never could do. And that’s something I’ll always remember, and chuckle at in the days to come. In the end, I really don’t like making my birthday a big thing as I feel every day is great. But today was something different I really do dig that. I finally got to watch Trunks on DBZ, had chicken that made me wanna sing, read Chamber of Secrets, got a selfie with a story/a pretty waitress(a long time fear of mine) and I was greeted with very warm, kind messages from family and friends. Thank you all, cheers to new beginnings every day. The Bobby Rebirth continues... #19&up #19 #2019 #selfie #story #writer #birthday #dragonballz #bobbyman #blog #blogger #writing #supersaiyan #trunks #storytime #enterthebobby (at Backstreets Bar and Grill) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bq3jC6NFhG7/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=r38ykciupp7o

Leading Man Over the past month I’ve been seeking to develop myself in new ways that I hadn’t previously. In coming to Hickory, NC I have not changed in temporary states as I have in the past but I’ve sought something much different in asking the “Why Questions”. In the sense that I’m pondering why I do what I do. I don’t think we do this as much as we should, because most of the time we just let things pass us by. We don’t question our emotions, and we don’t seek to ponder new things. It’s quite common to not even consider a new idea because “our truth is the best truth.” right? November has been the month where I’ve realized that I am strong and capable in ways that I hadn’t previously. These types of realizations were the ones I jotted on notecards to read in the future, to remind myself of who I am. The same realizations I had when I was running, and even tonight when I ran without thinking of limits. Limits that were holding me back from my fastest consistent mile time. In the process becoming the most free id ever been. Limits that had me question myself when I was acting in the film as the lead actor. Yet, amidst these doubts I have to tell myself I’m great and I’m here where I’m at at this point in time because this was the only way it could’ve happened by God’s will. You may wonder, “why tell yourself you’re great? That’s cocky.” And to that I’d say, you have to believe in such things. If you tell yourself everyday that you’re a loser and a bad person, you’re upholding negativity at the forefront of your existence. In telling yourself that you’re great, strong, and capable you are reinforcing who you TRULY are rather than this lie you’ve told yourself. I constantly here Bruce Lee’s words “What was that? An exhibition?” as I seek to put away ego and allow my pure self to set in. To be great, is to be one with not only yourself but with others. To spread love, and the belief that we hold greatness within us all. Greatness of which God expects us all to do great things with the investment into our souls! Cheers to a great week ahead, shalom. #mondaymotivation #monday #mondayquotes #motivationalquotes #motivation #writer (at Geitner Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/BqWSh_rFgvl/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1rwbgeels1z1l

Had a great time on our first day of filming with a nice view on a breezy autumn day. It’s nice being able to do something a bit different in challenging myself with a different type of character. Which is always good because in this type of newness it brings about the opportunity of pushing past ones limits and onwards into the void of endless possibilities. Stay tuned for more on #theshadowofnormanbanks #lrfilmclub #film #filmclub #filmphotography #filmmaking #filmcamera #filmmaker #films #filmmakinglife #movie #movies #ishootfilm #filmphoto #filmset #filmshoot #filmmakers #filmdirector #filmfeed #filming #filmcommunity #filmcrew #actor #actorslife #actorlife #actors (at Geitner Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/BpdJGrmHOVL/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1dvlecseiy19h

The Godfather With the Large Corndog As I watched my little cousin and uncle waiting in line, I looked over to the dragon ride🐉. Up until this point I hadn’t really thought about a time so many years ago when my Godfather, Ed, brought me to the fair. Where id rode that fun little ride. Everything was so much bigger then, Ed was too. Not only in stature but also larger in than life in what he’d brought to mine. At this point in my life, I’d never seen my father before. But I had seen Ed, the man who bought the largest corn dog at the fair, and who’d taken me on all the rides. The things me and my father had never done, the faceless figure I did not know. Yet here was Ed, walking around a little boy that wasn’t his own and making sure he was happy and well fed on a day filled with many smiles in the early morning of Autumn with The Godfather. As I looked back to my cousin and uncle sitting on the ride, it brought a great smile in knowing that those moments are some she’ll never forget in a world that seems so big with a guy who really is. In a place filled with such large attractions to a child’s small eyes, in the end they’re always smiling and waving to the folks on the outside, whoever they may be. Whether it’s a kid waving at their dad or that fatherless boy waving at their Godfather with the large corn dog. Who in the end, didn’t feel too fatherless after all🐉🎢 #alettertomyfather #author #scstatefair #southcarolinastatefair #scstatefair #thegreatest #thedragon #southcarolina #writing #writer #writersnetwork #writerscommunity #poet #nostalgia #adidas #adidasshoes #nasashirt #food #fairfood #foodie #foodies #fair #fun #child #childatheart #fatherhood #dad #thegodfather #justtoseeyousmile (at South Carolina State Fair) https://www.instagram.com/p/BpLYkOFHIKg/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1nazzl2gm3u92

The Godfather With the Large Corndog As I watched my little cousin and uncle waiting in line, I looked over to the dragon ride🐉. Up until this point I hadn’t really thought about a time so many years ago when my Godfather, Ed, brought me to the fair. Where id rode that fun little ride. Everything was so much bigger then, Ed was too. Not only in stature but also larger in than life in what he’d brought to mine. At this point in my life, I’d never seen my father before. But I had seen Ed, the man who bought the largest corn dog at the fair, and who’d taken me on all the rides. The things me and my father had never done, the faceless figure I did not know. Yet here was Ed, walking around a little boy that wasn’t his own and making sure he was happy and well fed on a day filled with many smiles in the early morning of Autumn with The Godfather. As I looked back to my cousin and uncle sitting on the ride, it brought a great smile in knowing that those moments are some she’ll never forget in a world that seems so big with a guy who really is. In a place filled with such large attractions to a child’s small eyes, in the end they’re always smiling and waving to the folks on the outside, whoever they may be. Whether it’s a kid waving at their dad or that fatherless boy waving at their Godfather with the large corn dog. Who in the end, didn’t feel too fatherless after all🐉🎢 #alettertomyfather #author #scstatefair #southcarolinastatefair #scstatefair #thegreatest #thedragon #southcarolina #writing #writer #writersnetwork #writerscommunity #poet #nostalgia #adidas #adidasshoes #nasashirt #food #fairfood #foodie #foodies #fair #fun #child #childatheart #fatherhood #dad #thegodfather #justtoseeyousmile (at South Carolina State Fair) https://www.instagram.com/p/BpLYkOFHIKg/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=x6y57er2q5fw