I am an artist, writer, teacher, and lifelong student (at the time of writing this, I'm two weeks from graduating with my second degree). I've been writing since I was a kid, starting with fanfiction like many of my age; however, I didn't start writing seriously until 2022. I was tired of never finishing a single project, so I told myself I couldn't write fanfiction or start another project until I finished my primary project (Nightmares + Serenades). Romance and fantasy have always been the genres closest to me, but the dark Gothic side of life has grasped me in its cold embrace. One word that many peers and betas have used to describe my writing is "immense."
I'm a writer who loves:
🩸 All things Gothic: Horror, Romance, and Fantasy
There's something about the Gothic and Romantic era of literature, I have discovered in my studies, that so uniquely describes the human condition in earnest without shying away from what ugliness lies underneath. Gothic works, like Gothic Horror, Romance, or Fantasy, excavate the coffin from the earth, and even in the face of death, they hold the truth with such tender embrace. The most inspirational authors to me are Mary Shelley and Nathaniel Hawthorne.
💀 Themes on Identity, Corruption, Memory, Beauty in the grotesque, Forbidden knowledge, Worship, devotion, and sacrifice, Multiplicity of truths, and Moral ambiguity
🧛 I adore the arts: writing it, studying it, annotating it, reading it, creating it, listening to it...
I’m fascinated by:
🕷️ Mythology; Psychology; Theological worldbuilding (specifically Pluralistic Polytheism); and Philosophy
I devour:
🕸️ angst with payoff; complicated characters making terrible choices; dangerous romance; soft moments amid brutality; poetic gore; dark academia; and slow burn (painfully slow)
🕸️corruption arcs; vampires / fae / celestial beings; morally gray love interest; and enemies to lovers
On this blog you’ll find:
🌑 writing thoughts
🌒 excerpts & worldbuilding rambles
🌓 aesthetics & art
🌘 personal notes & inspiration
If you’re here, welcome. I hope you find something worth staying for.
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Since I only have 3.5 books left (not counting Dracula bc I'm really not that far in it) I figure I'd add the rest of my TBR (aka the books I own but haven't finished or read yet) (and actually, I dont even own Cursed by the Dawn saurrrrrrrr............. 2.5 books lol) in no particular order
Phantom of the Opera
We the Animals by Justin Torres
There, There by Tommy Orange
Lone Women by Victor Lavalle
I really like Romantic/Dark Romantic/Gothic books, so if you have any recommendations, let me know. I've been considering The Count of Monte Christo, but I know it's crazy long...
I have finally finished The Picture of Dorian Grey. The second half of the book was fantastic. A good 7.5/10 probably
Now, I shall return to Low Red Moon.
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I’m half way through this book and still I haven’t made any notable annotations outside of vocabulary. Which this, not annotating, is highly uncommon for me.
Idk if it’s the book and it feels too simple to me (outside of its elaborate prose) or if the stress I have outside of the book from life is making it difficult.
Usually I note things of social and historical importance which seems it would be relevant here. However since I feel as though Lord Henry is basically a Reddit ragebaiter trying to make his bad ideas sound enlightening with flowery words, I don’t take anything he says seriously which is …. 80% of the book.
That’s not to say I don’t enjoy the book and find it easy to continue reading, because I’ve stopped much more digestible books sooner. Though it does make my key joint hobby of annotating difficult.
If anyone has a differing view or a tip on what I should annotate please let me know.
Life’s got me messed up right now so there hasn’t been any literature or art posts 🥲
I’m thinking about revising my curriculum to be bi weekly to accommodate for that instead of weekly until I find myself a new job that frees up my schedule.
I've been using an old a6 sketchbook split in 3 parts for my note-taking: personal, work, and writing. im nearly out of pages for the work section, so im looking for a new (maybe a6 or a5) (faded) dotted or graphed journal.
I really think i'd like a softcover one that's either refillable or could fit into a travel journal cover. either a fat book that lays flat or multiple thin ones i can stack inside the travel cover.
if y'all have any recommendations, PLEASE let me know. I'd prefer to buy from a business directly than to buy from Amazon or Coupang. And im scared of TikTok shop.
When I read anything (usually), I look for multiple things: new vocabulary, historical keystones, symbolism, and really anything I find particularly special. This, of course, shifts slightly when reading within nonfiction, but not by much. Then, with whichever genre I'm reading, I'll write brief definitions, thoughts, ideas, or symbols to the side, creating a decently full spread from time to time.
Most people may enjoy the aesthetics of the annotated marginalia of a given spread, but find the actual process and the time sink quite daunting and purposeless, because am I, as the author of these notes, really enjoying the story for its fiction? They would argue, most likely not.
However, as odd as it may seem for leisure readers, dissecting the fiction is part of the fun and enjoyment of the fiction. I don't usually pick up a book for escape, but also to see what I can learn about moral philosophy and themes that would make any book feel like it's a look into the greater subconscious. Not only to learn about humanity within varying characters but also to learn how the story works to because a better author myself.
To create something impactful, there's more than just picking out famous quotes and tired symbolism and tropes. There needs to be something unique to an experience and history that will be emulated in fiction.
A white wedding dress means nothing but the typical aesthetic of a Westerner's "happiest day". But if looked deeper, we see conformity, then even deeper, we see why the white wedding dress is the standard, and if we, as an author or thinker on society, wish to maintain or subvert this visual and meaning. Is it relevant to our character? To our setting? To our morals and values?
This not only helps the author in me but also informs my philosophy on life and how to see the world in a more unique and coloured manner.
Reading, for me, is an opportunity to learn and self-improve in various subjects.
Even when I find myself reading something like The Picture of Dorian Grey, where it's near impossible for me to pause and engage in the fiction in my usual way, it still teaches me. Perhaps it's the style that I don't enjoy and would not want to replicate. Maybe it's the characters' personalities that oppose mine too blatantly to inform immediate commentary, but would rather need extended and deeper analysis that would be impossible and too ridiculous, even for me, to attempt to constrain to margins. Could it be that the symbolism is too simple, that it doesn't invoke the amount of consideration? Or maybe, very simply put, even applied to nonfiction like a textbook, I have found something to read when too tired or it's not being understood as well as I'd like.
I value education and self-improvement and use readings as a tool to achieve such an opportunity outside of strict academic institutions. This rather demanding "hobby" then bleeds into other mediums such as music, film, and games, where I can appreciate when the most "cult hated" titles in an eye-opening way that shows the artistic attempts made even if it didn't land as intended or to as wide as an audience.
If nothing else, this particular view on media creates a worldview that is fueled less by disappointment and more by creative admiration for at least one quality the media personally achieved.
However, the main drawback from this creative and academic drive is the lack of people who share such deep analysis and enjoyment. It's harder to engage in a sphere that is saturated and divided by good and bad, such hotly polarising opinions. While my individual enjoyment has increased, my connectivity to community feels weaker.
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"but the horror... the horror was for love. the things we do for love like this are ugly, mad, full of sweat and regret. this love burns you and maims you and twists you inside out. it is a monstrous love and it makes monsters of us all."
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