I'll await my armored fate with a smile

(Note: I don’t feel like writing for the Male Gwen Stacy variant series right now, I will eventually but not now)

name 3 things that might be surprising to know about you, because of the way your blog looks!

-> me first!

ive never been friends irl w a boy.

im horrendously bad at school, i even had to almost repeat another year.

im a very impulsive person and i easily get upset.

1. I'm not good at articulation. A lot of my friends on here have told me they thought I was really confident and well-spoken, but that's just in writing— I can't speak well 😭 and certainly not in front of crowds.

2. I was a Karasu hater once. Yeah, be surprised. I hated him when I first read the manga, it took me a second reread (because the first read is always just me thinking from the protagonist's pov without any other influence) to like him.

3. I have a really short fuse in real life. I'm working on changing it, but I lose patience really fast, especially with myself. So yep. Texting cools me down, helps me think.

anyway:

1. i’m short-tempered and can’t really stand it if someone doesn’t get directly to the point.

2. i lowkey disliked phainon in the beginning. now he’s one of my favourite characters.

3. i can’t never decide on a theme. i have so many theme ideas but I struggle to start making them.

My first two languages were Anishinaabemowin and French. I only started learning English when I was four.

The reason I do not like writing about periods, having children, or pregnancy is not only because of my general disinterest in the topic but also because I was born sterile and will never have a period.

I do not actively seek out romance and have been happily single for six years now! I write about it so much that I feel like that seems unlike me. Maybe one day I will have a Missus Brutus, just waiting on the right person.

1. I am a big overthinker and it makes me hesitant to post and interect with others a lot. Even writing these 3 random facts about myself made me overthink for a good 10 minutes on what I should answer. Its also my small crafting business' name because 🙃 That's who I am.

2. I only posted fics about Marvel, Star Wars and Umbrella Academy, but I am a huge fan of animes. I cosplayed AOT and rn, on top of my Spartan armor (from Halo) I'm planning on making a Megumin cosplay with my hubby as Kasuma from Konosuba.

3. I am struggling rn with impostor syndrom. I feel like everyone I interacted on this platform left because idk, they grew up, and I'm still here, still liking the characters and daydreaming, yet maybe I should have grown up too?

1). 99% of my friends in real life are over ten or twenty years older than me. I've never had a friend who was around my age. On Tumblr is different, obviously.

2). I love to dance. Put me in a relaxed environment and I'll dance to almost any kind of music. I know all the dance moves to The Men in Black, and I'm currently working on perfecting them.

3). I'm writing an original book that required me to drive to three different states to look at landscape. It involves these beautiful ethnicities: Native American, Mexican, Dinka, Japanese, Guatemalan, Irish, Guro tribe, and Tibetan Buddhas. The story involves a lot of intense research and exploration of each individual culture, tradition, and religion. I hope to accomplish writing it one day.

When I was 5 yo, I lived for six month in Dominican Republic. I only spoke French and I had no friends. The return to France was quite difficult because I changed regions six months later. I always joke that it’s the trauma that makes me try to learn Spanish (I’m absolutely bad at it).

I am non-binary, but I don’t think I will ever come out to my family. They already don’t take me seriously when I say to be aroace. They and I have different views on LGBTQIA+ (they don’t hate them, they just think it goes too far). My mother thinks that 'I do too much' and that I’m just trying to be different. Thank you very much for nothing, mom. That’s also pretty much what happened when I had suicidal urges. I love my mother but I'm waiting for financial independence.

I still make cardboard houses and small dresses for my Enchantimals dolls.

1- Once when I was a kid,I got hit by a bicycle and a kind old man that lived near me gifted me chocolates.

2- I have a brother and a sister i'm in low contact with who were abusive.

3- I used to be OBSESSED with c.ai until I discovered Ao3 and Tumblr and just stopped using c.ai and started reading and then writing fanfiction. (I now do not support ai at all,it was before I knew how bad it was)

1. I'm a huge horror fan, been watching it since I was a really young kid and now have several tattoos based on some of my favorites (Evil Dead, Friday The 13th, Halloween)

2. I'm single and have been my entire life. Which is probably weird consider all I write is romance yet have never had anything like it

3. I'm the youngest of 3 siblings and the only queer person in my immediate family (not counting relatives we never talk to/are distant)

This was stupidly hard for me cause I'm not good at talking about myself, but here it is.

As much as I am an introvert, I LOVE to sing (albeit poorly and more so now with my rustiness😭) so much so that I was the student who not only took chorus class ever since 5th grade up to the end of senior year of high school but also was in Chamber Chorus (well my school's chorus club after school - it didn't exactly fit the title but just had the name). Music has always been the one constant in my life that I can turn to escape reality (as we all do), probably even more than books, creative writing, and fics combined. I have nothing but love and gratitude for one of the best teachers I graciously had the honor to have for many years: Mr. B💛.

Even though my blog banner (at least for this personal blog) is a gif of Nick Jones from House of Wax 2005 (and will always be🫶), I wasn't always the biggest horror fan like I am today. Really, my childhood consisted of being way too horrified by every little thing that I used to even be scared of Disney Channel original shows until I was like eight, maybe? I still have no discernible reason as to why other than these weren't animation shows??? I don't know😭. It wasn't until I was like 14, I want to say, that I began to unfurl slowly out of my shell and became another rebellious horror lover (almost like it was my gayness' doing about a year or two years too late /j).

Sometimes (and by that I mean constantly) I wonder how I function on both a human-level and at an identity-level with how my aphantasia, anendophasia, and probably many other neurological conditions in that family, so much so that I ponder momentarily if I should go into the research portion of psychology until I remember how much I do not mesh well with the science-y aspects. But even then, I'm still heavily at a crossroads on whether I can even function at a basic therapeutic level like I have been dreaming of for too many years. Existential dread goes brrrrrr.

Oh, fuck was this difficult to narrow down, and I just couldn't take the easy way out by mentioning things that I've already said like once somewhere in my thousands of posts/reblogs.

I will be tagging (with no pressure whatsoever): @thealtoduck, @lefteagleblizzard, @dqrkhold, & @bumblesimagines

I have no idea who the anime boy in my pfp pic is he just sorta kinda looks like me.

I’m not a duck irl… but I am VERY pretty irl (don’t get it twisted)

I’m basically just a massive liar.

Tagging:

@loverboyisaac @carnalcrows @gayaristocrat

Thank you to everyone who help and supported me in these dark times. I will be posting again next week.

Be sure to follow my alt account @dqrkho1d just in case some weird shit happens again.